Chapter 7 Hurt and Blame

"Many of you failed the test"

My heart almost dropped with the extreme nervousness of the feeling. Am I among the fallen? Argh! It's like I'm running a fever because I'm so nervous. My sweat also seems to be receding.

One by one, our professor gave us our test papers. It's by surnames so I'm in the middle because my surname is Kennedy.

I almost screamed with joy when I saw my score, I was 94 over 100. I saw other classmates looking at me, so I immediately arranged to sit down.

When we saw our score, our teacher said goodbye first. They still have a meeting so we are vacant now. Just in case, we were not allowed to go out so I just sat here in my chair.

I quickly went to Serenity's side to ask about her score, but I was immediately surprised because it didn't seem to be on my own and seemed to be dazed.

"Hey Serenity! What's your score?" I ask here. He was very humble and seemed to be thinking deeply.

'When he didn't speak, I immediately took his test paper. My brain can hardly process because of what I saw. His score is 43 over 100, it means he didn't even pass.

In recent days I have been doubting him as well. I didn't know that even his grades would be neglected. Knowing her she was very strict in her studies. She's an achiever and she won't make an excuse to lose what she worked for.

I also went back to my seat. I'll talk to him later. I think there he is not telling me.

Serenity and I are currently sitting here on the cement next to the field. We just bought burgers and sandwiches, just like what we eat today.

"Do you have a problem?" I asked, carefully.

I heard a loud sigh from him. She even adjusted her skirt before facing me.

"Nothing .... i wish" softly but I still heard the last thing he said.

"Hey I'm here okay? Kindly share your problem?"

I know his problem is too serious. I can see and feel that in him.

"Ah, no, nothing. It's just a simple family problem, don't mind me. I'm okay" he smiled at me to say that he was okay.

There's a part of me that doesn't believe but if he really doesn't want to share, it's okay.

After that, I went home. I still have a lot to do, mommy told me that we will go to the wedding designer she hired. I'm going to wear a gown.

"So is this your son, Maxey?" We were greeted by a gay man

excessive thickness of wearing.

Mommy nodded at him in response. I just said a simple gown, it's just arranged married so I don't care if my gown is beautiful or simple.

We are now at the rest house of Mr. and Mrs. Santiago, it's been two weeks since I measured the gown. The sun is really too fast. I don't expect to be here in the Philippines for two months.

I immediately stared at him when he sat in front of me. We are now at the long table waiting for the food. Because mommy said we need to get to know kane first. Argh!

"You really matter, I'm so happy!" Aunt Amy burst into tears of joy when she said that.

Psh! Us? Things? Asa!

I saw kane's slight smile. But that also disappeared when I looked at him badly. I hate his presence! Why didn't he just disappear ?!

I said goodbye to them and let me breathe first. I'm not very hungry yet so I sat here in their garden first.

"Argh! I really hate him! He's so arrogant and argh! I swear when I'm with him just the two of us, I'll slap and really attack him!" I exclaimed as I talked to myself.

"I hate you, Arkane Duke Santiag-" I couldn't continue what I was saying because I was paralyzed.

How could I have left when I stumbled upon a rock. Argh! Block my way!

Fortunately, someone caught up with me. And ..... and ..... and our lips are touching? What the fuck?!?

"Pervert!" I shouted at him as I adjusted my dress.

What is happening in my life is just unfortunate! When will I get lucky?

"Careful" he said.

Gosh, I remember him nash. I miss him, how are they in Paris? I miss wandering around and drinking with them.

"Pervert, you pervert!" I sighed at him.

I saw his slight smile. Argh! So many really. I'm sure he meant that, he was the one who put the stone on my chin so I fell!

"You look beautiful" he said while watching me.

"I know" is my artistic answer here. Why is he here?

The pain in my foot felt like I was injured. Aish! I'm not allowed to get hurt, I might get scarred!

"Does it hurt?" He asked worriedly. He approached me to check on my condition.

I slowly sat down on the chair. Kane also followed me, he was now carrying cotton and alcohol.

"It's your fault!" I will blame him. I saw him sighed. She looks hurt by what I said.

"I'm sorry .... i just want to follow you" although he wasn't looking at me I knew he was sincere there.

Suddenly I felt guilty because I was too sick to talk to him. I can't control my feelings, my blood always heats up when I see him.

If I hadn't just married him maybe I would have befriended him. I think he is very smart, I also saw that he is serious about acads. I crush him, admiring. Case when I found out we were aaranged married for I was hurt.

What if his feelings for me are just pure business? What if he treated me like this because his parents ordered it.

I don't know, I'm confused.

For me, it's okay if we get married. But, I also think sometimes, what if I get hurt? What if because I love him so much, he suddenly chokes. The more how, the harder it is to trust.

It's so hard to build trust, especially when I remember the past. It's hard to give my best because I feel that's not enough.

"Let's go in, maybe they're looking for us" I said before going inside.

I saw that they were eating so I slowly sat down next to mommy.

"Oh, where's the man?" Mrs. Santiago asked me. He turned around and looked for his son.

"I'm here mom" kane immediately entered and sat on the chair, in front of me.

No one speaks to us. We were all busy eating.