Chapter 2 2

"What the fuck April?! What about all our plans? What about us sharing apartment in university and finally you out of her house and she out of your life"Elena said and I broke into tears, I remember us planning a lot out, I know it all,I didn't forget anything

"I don't have any control over this Elena,you of all people knows that."I said and she chuckled dryly, I can see how furious she is

"All my plans revolves around you April"she says shaking her head and I saw a tear betraying her and falling down from her eyes

"I don't mean this to happen trust me,I know everything we planned but this is definitely out of my control "I said and she gave me a look that could kill

"You're seventeen for fuck sake!"she shouted and started walking away

"Elena!!"I called her trying to walk over and meet up with her

"Don't! I need my space"she said and I stopped chasing her, I saw her walk away and my heart tightened. This is not how I expected this to go, this wasn't the reaction I expected to get from her, I know it's not going to be easy for her cause I'm the only friend she got and it's not going to be easy for me too cause she's the only one I have but she should have also known that it's hard for me the way it's hard for her and I literally have no control over how I want to live my life.

I made my way inside the school looking around thinking about the fact that I won't be seeing this building again soon and I will be surrounded with different kinds of people I'm not familiar with. I took my seat and Elena wasn't here, we seat together always but this time around she's sitting somewhere far away,near to the window side of the class and who said nothing hurts more than break ups, her reaction is killing my soul but yeah she needed space and I'm giving her that.

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The bell was rang and I saw everyone leaving the class, I just sat on my seat too tired to stand up and go back home, I keep on thinking about how my life in Korea is going to be, I rested my head on my desk feeling so tired than I've ever been,I felt someone's presence standing beside me and sat up immediately,it was Elena. I don't know what to do I just stood up hugging her and she hugged me back, we couldn't control our emotion anymore and bursted into tears

"I'm going to miss you" she said in between her tears

"I will miss you more trust me"I said breaking the hug

"When are you leaving?"she asked

"This weekend"I replied

"Then we have to spend the rest of the days meaningful"she said and I smiled

"Yes Elena"I said and we both smiled. We held each other's hand leaving the school compound when she suddenly broke the silence

"Who are you leaving with?"she asked

"My aunt I never knew of, seems like my mom have another elder sister"I replied

"Is she nice?"she asked and I went silent trying to recall the little time I spend with her, she doesn't look that bad

"I don't know"I said instead and Elena nodded with understanding, she knows how hard it is for me to trust any soul.

"We should go to the mall tomorrow,bills on me what do you think?"she asked and I nodded yes

"you better wear that pink shirt I got for us"

"Yes I will my queen"I said and we both bursted into laughter

"I will miss you so much"she suddenly said

"I will miss you more"I replied and gave her a knowing smile and we continue walking hand in hand,in silence both of us occupied by our own thoughts

Elena reached her house first as usual, I waved her goodbye as she entered her house, I continue walking until I sighted the familiar building I live in, I enter the house going for the main door when I heard Hope's voice, the daughter of the witch and also she's a witch herself

"How can you let aunt Claire take her, who is going to do all the chores?!"she shouted, oh I forget to mention how she sit down and wait to get everything done for her,thinking she is a queen or a princess,she never try doing anything herself

"I couldn't say no because she's my elder sister and she have every right like I do to take her responsibility, I was already tired of seeing her around anyways"the witch said

"Then you better get someone else who will do the chores because I'm definitely not going to be the one"Hope said and I suddenly heard someone opening the door, Hope opened the door with force dashing outside, I could see her eyes burning, she saw me on the way and push me before walking away. I sighed heavily before entering the house

"I'm back"I said and the witch look at me and look away immediately, I decided to go to my room when her next words stopped me

"If you don't want to go to Korea, you can tell Claire and you wouldn't have to leave"she said and I almost laughed at the nerves she really got.

She only wants to keep me around because of the chores,she doesn't even have a genuine likeness for me and I'm her younger sister's daughter

"I want to go"I said throwing away the only chance I have to stay back, well I was tired of living with her the way she's tired of me too.

I was expecting her to say something or threaten me to stay but nothing came out of her mouth, she must be really tired of having me around.

I went back to my room, my sanctuary and the only thing and place I can call peace in this house, I throw my bag on the bed getting naked, I stood in front of the broken mirror in my room looking at my body, tears welled up in my eyes, I hate my body so much and it's my biggest insecurity so far, I wonder why I still see it in the mirror when I could just pretend and cover it up with a piece of clothes, I left my room heading to my bathroom, turn on the shower and I closed my eyes,I could live in the shower for years without noticing it,it always gives me peace and washes away my tiredness,I sign letting the cool shower to take over me.

A perfect time to think about Myself and my life.