Chapter 4 Adam

Lex:

The man in front of me was radiating so much power I was surprised he didn't say he was the King, he looked to be the same age. My father stated that he was only a few years older than me, but looking at him something inside of me tightened. It was a feeling I never felt before, I felt as though this man was everything I ever wanted, I needed. He was breathtaking, literally taking the breath right out of my lungs, making it very hard to remember how to breathe. He was tall like Alex, with almost the same body type, his face was clean shaved, he had dark hair and green eyes. I've never seen anyone so handsome, my wolf was howling on the inside, fighting to be released, needing to be with this man. I smiled at the thought. He said the King was away on business that was good, I had time to get comfortable before meeting the devil. I wondered if he was feeling the same as I was? Feeling the need to be closer to me. I wanted to ask so bad, I've never been one not to voice what I was thinking. I refrained from asking at the last moment, this guy was in the kings pack, and by the power he gave off it was clear he was of higher ranking.

"Who do I talk to, to figure out what room I'm in?" I asked to break the silence. I think I saw a smirk on his lips but it was gone before I could fully register that it was really there. "I think they put you next door to me, here I'll take you." He began to walk towards the entrance, so I trailed behind him. I secretly admired him from behind, his square shoulders looked so strong. His back muscles straining against his shirt. He looks back at me over his shoulder and I look away to take in the view of the estate, this was the biggest place I think I've ever been to, it was beautiful to say the least. "Thank you, do you know when the King will return?" He stiffened a bit when I asked but still tilted his head towards me, "No Idea, a few days I assume." Why did he hesitate? We walk through the huge doors of the castle, and it's so grand I can't believe I'm going to be living here. I'd probably be excited if not for the fact I was here against my will and being forced to marry the devil himself. We go up a few flights of stairs and down a maze of hallways, I can already tell it's going to get more confusing before I know my way around. As we approached a room a man was walking out of it,

"Sorry I wasn't out to meet you ma'am but I was finishing your room, nice of Adam here to escort you." He paused before he said the name Adam. Adam, his name was Adam, it fit him. Adam smiled brightly, I was blown away by his smile, I could feel something stirring inside me, something I've never felt before, something animalistic and raw. "I'll let you get settled then." Adam said as he walked into the other room. My heart was racing, I wanted, no I needed to be next to him again. That was without a doubt the single most important thing to me now. 'Lunaria, is this the feeling of having a mate?' I thought it would be more distinct, more in your face. I wait for her to answer me, she's being quieter than usual. 'Were you able to reach his wolf?' I tried again, but still no answer. 'Are you ignoring me?' Still no response. She doesn't usually ignore me, she must be upset that I didn't fight harder to stay home. Although that really wasn't my fault, she knows how my dad is. I would've never been able to persuade him, Alex couldn't even change his mind.

I unpacked, unable to stop thinking of Adam, when I finished unpacking I'd decided to go ask him if he felt it or if I was just going crazy. I didn't find anything wrong with asking, and maybe I was just that desperate to get away from the king that I was imagining this as a bond. I paced back and forth trying to figure out the right way to say what I needed to say, the right way to ask him if he feels the connection I feel. I didn't know if this was what it felt like to find your mate or to just be attracted to someone. But if I'm to be married to Kaden maybe I shouldn't say anything, but maybe if Adam feels the same the king will understand and let me out of this arrangement. I'd been in this room contemplating this almost all day, and decided that this was something I needed to do.

I couldn't marry the king if I felt something for someone else could I. I stepped out of my room and headed towards the room he went in earlier, but before I got to the already cracked door I heard it, a woman, moaning through the crack I could see them, he had her against the wall naked, he's pounding into her so furiously from behind. I didn't realize I was starting to tear up, but I was frozen, unable to move. My heart was pounding so hard against my chest that I was surprised he couldn't hear it. For some unknown reason I felt as though I was breaking from the inside out.

He looked over and saw me standing there, with the look of surprise on his face I was broken out of my trance and I ran back to my room and locked the door. He obviously didn't feel the same, and I feel like a complete fool. Maybe I just wanted to allow myself some hope to get away from the king, how ridiculous of me, how stupid I must be. I start crying, I'm not even sure why I'm crying, but seeing him with another woman makes me feel like someone is repeatedly stabbing me in the heart. I just want to go home, curl up in my bed and cry, but I can't, this room, this bed, this is my life now. Will it always hurt this bad to see him with other women? Even after I get married, mated, and marked by the king. Even my wolf is hurting seeing him with that woman, was she his mate? She didn't smell like a wolf, and I don't recall us ever being mated to humans, I focus on getting my breath back under control when there's a knock at my door.