Chapter 2 Orphan

Chapter 01

Orphan

"Why our parents left us here,Sister Rosana?"I ask her because of my curiousity.

It's been 7 years since my parents left me here in the orphan house.The nuns are the one who take care of us.There's a lot of children like me here.

"It's because they have a deep reason."she answered while smiling.

"Reason?What is reason?"I asked again and she chuckled.

"You're a intelligent girl,huh?You will know it when you get older than your age."she answer before patting my head.

I pouted while watching Sister Rosana talking to the other children.I just sighed while playing my fingers.I really wanted to know my parents' reason why they left me here.It's not like I'm not happy here...I want to feel how parents love their child.

"Melody..."Sister Rosana called me.

I put the book on the drawer and go out to our room.I saw Sister Rosana smiled when she saw me.

"Where have you been?I've been looking for you."she asked me.

"Sister Rosana,I don't want to leave here.Because my parents might come here to get me."I said then she look shocked when I said that to her.

"Melody..."she softly called me.

"Sister Rosana,I can see a light of hope in my eyes.I don't want to lose hope.I know that they will come back here,they will get me here."

I don't want to have argument with Sister Rosana.My parents might come back here without a doubt...even it will become false hope.

"Melody,don't let yourself get hurt just thinking that you're parents will come back here to get you.Your mother said to me that I need to take care you and she will never come back here to get you here."

"No...That's not true!NO,MY MOM WILL COME BACK HERE TO GET ME!"I shouted while tears falling down to my cheeks.

I immediately run and go inside of our room and I locked the door so that Sister Rosana will never open it.

"That's...not truth.Mom will come here to get me.I know she will come back here...I know.Sister Rosana is lied to me.She's a liar."I said to myself while wiping my tears.

My Mom will come back to get me.She will come back...I know that.Sister Rosana may get angry to me but that's the only thing that can be a reason to still live in this world.

"Melody,I heard that you shout Sister Rosana."Sister Rina said to me.

"But...I'm hurt that time because she's lying to me that time.She said that my Mom will never come back here to get me."I defend myself stopping in eating.

"But,that's the truth."Sister Rina replied to me.

I bit my lower lip trying to stop to argue to Sister Rina.I'm afraid that I will direspect her because of the only reason why should I continue to live and stay here.

"There's nothing wrong hoping that your mother will come back here to get you but...you will only hurt yourself,Melody."she said and the sadness in her face is written.

I just nodded so that we will never had argument.I don't want to argue at them if they only lying at me.I'm fine...I'm fine,I know that Mom will come back here...will get me.

"Are you okay?"Stephanie asked and I just nodded and I continue to eat.

"Melody,let's play."Stephanie called me but I shake my head.

She just nodded and left me.I'm watching the other children playing with each other.I'm okay being alone because it's make me relaxed and I have no problem dealing with some attitude of the other children.

Sister Rosana trying to make a conversation when she's talking to me but...I always stopping her and leaving her behind.It's not I'm angry to her...I just cannot accept what she said to me.I'm may a little kid but I can understand some things.

They thought that I cannot understand what they saying when I overheard them.They say that some of us will be adopt with some couple that has no child.That's why I always hiding when some of the couples coming here to see the children and adopt it.

I'm afraid that they will adopt me when they only see me just a second.I overheard the conversation of Sister Rosana and Sister Rina,they were talking about me.Some couples are choosing orphan child that is beautiful and charming.

I have a pointed nose,a pair of blue eyes,a thin and pinkish lips,a cheek-bone,a small face.A long and wavy hair,that's why I'm afraid that they will choose me.I'm not assuming but that's the truth and that's the conversation of Sister Rosana and Sister Rina.

"Good morning,Melody."Cloud greeted me when I enter the canteen where we eat together.

"Morning..."I lazy greet him back because I didn't get a enough sleep.

Sister Rosana put my food in the table and I sit on my designated seat.There's more than 50 children here.Some of them is really orphan in the start because their mother is trying to commit abortion,it is because some of them raped and some of them is a accident and they scared that their parents will know it.

I always overheard their conversation that's why I know a lot about us...why our parents left us here,their reasons.There's nothing wrong in knowing it because we have rights to know about it.

"Melody...open this."Sister Rosana command me but I didn't open the door.

I don't want to interact with the couple who's finding a child to adopt.I don't want to leave in this orphan house...my Mom will come back here.

"I don't want,Sister Rosana.I will stay here...I will never leave here."I responded to her trying to not to cry.

"You need to find a family that will treat you good.You don't need to stay here forever,Melody."

"I don't want to...my Mom will come back here.I'm pretty sure with that."

I'm being stubborn but I can decide on my own even I'm just a kid.I can understand some things in this world.I will never leave here.

"Your mother...will never coming back here,Melody.Your mother already left you."

"W-what do you mean?"I asked her but I still didn't open the door.

"It's been 3 years since your Mom died because of an accident.She died when you was 4 years and that time she decided to get you here but...it didn't go well...she died without seeing you again."Sister Rosana answered making my tears to fall.

"Y-you're lying right?S-say that it was just a like...Sister Rosana,s-say that it was just a lie."I said to her while crying.

"I'm sorry,Melody...but that's the truth.She already left you and she will never coming back."

I cried louder and I don't care if anyone will hear me.It's so painful to think that I didn't see my Mother's face.It's so painful when my only hope and reason to continue to live here in orphan house already left me.

Why did she already left me?I need her...I want to know how will she love me as my mother.But...those are just a thoughts.

I'm already orphan...