Chapter 3 Decision

Looking at the ceiling while lying in bed and rubbing my stomach. I breathe in as tears flow down. I always wondered if I would look for Raven to tell him I was pregnant but there was also a part of me that was afraid he might not believe me.

My heart aches so much because I never thought this would happen to me. I still have dreams I want to fulfill but it doesn't seem like it now.

Mommy said earlier that she will accompany me to the gynecologist tomorrow. For now, I just want to sleep, because every time I think I am pregnant I also think of the dreams I lost because of this.

I am at fault the baby is out of this problem. It has come so maybe I should just accept it.

My main problem is that I want my child to have no father because I know the feeling of not growing up with the father I do not want that to happen to my child.

I will tell Raven if he doesn't believe me then don't, I will not force him.

Woking up in the morning with a cramp is not a good start for me. I rushed to the bathroom to pee. Is this some kind of morning sickness, like vomiting water?

I don't understand what I'm feeling right now but I'm not comfortable with this sickness. I sat on the sofa for a while and got up just to take a bath.

"Mommy, I think we need to skip going to ob-gyn because I'm not really feeling well, I think any minute now I'm gonna throw up and I'm also feeling nausea," I said to her while eating breakfast.

She looked at my concern. "Okay okay... take a rest here, Pria. If you need anything call me, okay?" She said.

I nodded and drink the milk mommy prepared. She's going to the company because of duty calls. Venice will supposedly accompany me to ob-gyn but I can't go there now.

"Any minute now, Venice will be here," Mommy said.

"Yeah, I need someone to talk."

She nodded and get up. "I need to go darling... take care here, alright? Call me if you need anything." She kissed my checks and stroke my hair for a moment before she goes.

"Prianne." I heard Venice's voice echoed in the living room.

I continue eating until I saw her face in front of me. She sat on the side and started taking food.

"Did you come here without eating? "

She shrugged and eat the meatloaf. "I'm done eating but I was hungry so I ate. "

"I will not be going to the ob-gyn for now. I'm not really feeling well going out today." I explain to her and she nodded while eating.

She looks at me with her serious eyes. "So, what's your plan? Will you tell that man that he is the father of that? "She looked at me.

"Maybe... I just need to find him."

She frowned. "Find him?" She asked to like something funny.

I slowly bit my lower lips and nodded while looking at her. "I need to try to tell him, right?"

She nodded. "Don't worry I will be by your side."

"Thanks."

We are now in the living room and watching a movie on Netflix. The movie's so great and lovely. The main characters are dashing.

"Do you find him?" Venice asked.

"Not, yet. I'm still waiting for Ruiz's reply. "

Her brows became a line. "Ruiz? Who's that?"

Venice became my friend when I was in my first year of high school and I know she knew very little about me. Maybe, it's time for her to know I have a brother. It's so unfair that I know her very well but she doesn't know me very much.

No one knows if I have a brother. Because Ruiz wants him to look mysterious. He is weird, I know.

"Investigator... my older brother."

Her eyebrows met and her eyes glanced at me. "You have a brother?" She laughed a bit. "You investigate?"

"Uh-huh," I replied with confusion.

Wait, Why am I the one confused? I don't know.

"Where's your brother?" She asked again.

I nodded. "Somewhere."

"Tell me..."

"Why are you asking? I don't know where he at."

I really don't know where he at this time but last month he told mom that he was in California.

"Why do you not know where he is?"

I shifted my gaze to the tv. Oh, it's a bed scene. I felt uncomfortable this time because my mind went back to the past where Raven and I do something.

"I don't know, Venice."

"I want to meet your brother. What he look like?"

This time my confusion while looking at her is making me sick. I was about to talk but I suddenly puke.

I ran to the bathroom and vomited in the bowl. I inhale and wipe the tears that came out of my eyes while puking.

" You good? " Venice gave me a towel and I took it and wiped it with my mouth.

I also got up from sitting on the floor. "My stomach is not feeling well..."

"That's part of the pregnancy so... you experience that kind of sickness."

Suddenly, my phone ring. I left that on the table. Venice and I hurried to the living room.

Venice came first and handed me the cellphone. She looked at the screen and raised at the brow." Investigator. Really? "She said.

I shrug and answered the call." Hey, preggy.. "

" Don't call me that,... how did you know? "

"Mama told me."

What else did they talk about? I wonder.

"So, any info?"

I heard him chuckle. "Sista' you caught a big fucking fish."

I sat on the sofa. "Brother... I don't know what you're saying."

That's really how he speaks. You need to think about what he really meant by that... I'm not used to talking to him because my head will get hurt because of his freaking logic and I don't need that now.

"Mr. Raven Fuentes. He is a CEO at Crystalline Empire. He is 21 and single."

I could not answer Ruiz. A CEO? 21 years old and a CEO? He is rich. But, that day... he doesn't have the CEO vibe, he has the campus bad boy vibe.

"Send me all the information, brother," I told him and ended the call.

"Venice... the father of my child is a freaking CEO and 21 years old." I can't believe it.

I'm hesitating to tell that CEO that he's the father. Now, that I found out who he really is I'm kinda hesitating to tell him.

I'm scared.

"Youngest CEO. That's great." She was not even shocked. She even seemed excited about what I said.

"Let's go find him."