Chapter 2 Negatively

A month after that incident I never saw that Raven guy. I don't know what he is doing right now. But, I had still thought about him. His face can't get out of my mind.

Losing my virginity with an unknown guy is really indecent.

"Pria wanna drink tonight at my house. There's a party happening at 8 pm, you come hah." Venice my college friend said with a smile while eating Toblerone.

I bit my lower lip and shook my head slowly. "Oh, no baby... this past few days I'm not really feeling well, I can't drink this time."

She pouted. "So, you can't come tonight to my place? Sian will be there."

I drink my choco-latte while looking at her. "I can't come. I'm not friend with Sian." I laughed at my last sentence.

Sian is Venice's playboy boyfriend and I don't like that guy. He's cheap! And, it felt like he is hitting on me when Venice walk away.

That guy was probably not my type.

"Yeah, I forgot that you are not friended with my BOYFRIEND but, Pria... come on. What's your sickness?"

I shrug. "I don't know... I just don't feel like partying... and." I stopped.

Last day I'm vomiting and also it was supposed to be my period last week but there's no period came.

I'm nervous about the part that I'm pregnant-no way It can't be. I can't be pregnant for goodness sake! That night was a freaking mistake.

She frowned. "What?" She has the face of curiosity.

I pursed my lips. "Remember what I told you last month?" I nervously said.

Her eyes narrowed as she looked at me. "Uh-huh? The one-night stand thingy with 'I don't know the name because you didn't tell me naman.' So, what about that?" She said artfully.

"I think I'm pregnant."

Her mouth drop open and shock all over her face. I swallowed hard as my hands started shaking because I really think that I'm pregnant I just don't want to accept it.

I'm only 19! I'm still studying. I can't be pregnant at this age. No!

" Hey, Venice..." I tap her hand that is on the table.

"W-what? You did not use a fucking protection that night, Prianne!?" She said shocked.

I don't remember. Maybe no! Raven did not use protection that night! This is his baby!

I shake my head as an answer to her question.

" Are you sure that you're pregnant? Do you have a test that you're positive pregnant?"

I shake my head again and bit my lips. I'm scared.

"But, as I research the symptoms that I had were positive that I'm pregnant...I don't want this." I'm starting to cry now but I can't just get this baby out. I'm not like that.

I'm not a murderer.

"Prianne... let's buy PT to make sure that you really are pregnant."

She pulled me out of the Starbucks and got in her car to the pharmacy.

"I can't be pregnant, right?" I asked her.

"Why are you asking me that?" I can also feel the nervousness in her voice.

"Here, take these two PT. You can do it, Prianne. I'm just here."

I took the PT in her hand and slowly entered the comfort room. My heart is beating too fast. I'm scared. I was too young to be a mother.

I got out of the comfort room carrying my PT urination, I put it on the table to wait for the result. I leaned over Venice in bed while waiting for the result of the two PTs.

"If ever that I'm pregnant please don't tell anyone about this."

"Your mom?"

"I'll tell her myself."

"What about the father of that child, if ever? Would you contact him?"

I stay silent and didn't answer her. Venice stands up and gets the PT on the table where I put it earlier.

My heartbeat was beating so fast. I saw Venice's face when she looks at the two PTs and that I get an answer.

She slowly showed me the result.

It's Positive.

My mind went blank as I look at the two lines in the Pregnancy test.

"Venice..." I can't hold my tears now. My tears started flowing down. This isn't right. It can't be!

Venice hug me. "Don't cry, Pria... it's okay, everything will be alright. No one will no, I promise."

"I don't want to raise my child without a daddy, Venice. I don't want her/him to be insecure because she/he has no father. I don't like that."

I felt her nodding. "Don't worry about that... Stop crying it's not good for your baby."

"I'll tell mom, tonight."

This news is not good or bad for me. They call this a blessing but for me not, this is not a blessing. I'm still 19. I still have my dreams.

I will raise this child with or without a father. I can't contact Raven because I don't know where he is and I don't have time to find him to tell him that I'm pregnant.

I want to be a model when I finish school but with this baby inside me, I don't know what to do. I can still be a model when this baby is born. I will go for my dream.

Going home, I saw my mom on the sofa with her laptop and papers and some designs printed on the bond paper.

"Hi, mom."

She looks at me and smiled. "Hi, baby. How's school? Why are you late?"

I leaned over her on the sofa and suddenly hugged her. "Ma!" I started crying again.

"Why are you crying?" She said confused.

My mom was always busy at work. We have companies all over Asia. She's the closest of mine while my father is not.

I don't know what to say to her so I just say the point.

"I'm pregnant, Mom... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do this. Mommy." I cried.

My mother was silent for a few minutes so I let go of the hug. She's also shocked.

"Oh My God, Pria!"

I looked at her while tears keep flowing down. "I'm sorry."

I saw no emotion in mommy's eyes. And, minutes after she hugged me.

"Mommy, help me, please. I can't be pregnant at this age."

She stroked my hair. "No, Pria... You need to be strong okay? Don't think negatively... I will help you but not in the wrong way."

"Mommy." I cried hard.