Chapter 5 DEAR ELENA 5

May 25,1990

Dear Elena,

I'm very sorry if I didn't write in your pages for the last few days. Something happened. Dad hurt Mom physically. He slaps Mom in front of us and Amy sees it. It happened when we were eating breakfast. It was a usual morning for us but when Mom saw dad going out in our house with a bag in his hand. She confronts him. She shouts to my dad and accuses him for leaving us because of the other woman. And Dad said that

He's leaving the house because he can't tolerate Mom's behaviour and he is falling out of love. Mom is really Mad to Dad when he says that. She pull dad inside the dining room in front of us and pointed at us. She said that Dad was an irresponsible Father if he leaves his family. Dad was a bit hesitant that time but It didn't change his mind. It's so sad right? I want to cry that time but I can't because Amy is at my side. Me and kuya were just quiet for the whole time of their argument but we were shocked when Dad slapped Mom so hard in her face. Amy was shocked by what she saw. I immediately carry Amy and bring her to her room. We stayed there for hours. I comforted Amy and Explained to her what happened between Mom and Dad. She is just 4 years old for sake and then she witnessed that scene. It will be a trauma for her. Kuya Lenard locked himself in his room after the incidents and Mom wasted herself for days. Dad left the house and I don't know if I'll ever see him again. Elena, I'm hurt inside; Mom talked to us this Morning and she officially said to us that She and Dad were no longer together. She said that at first it was so difficult but we're gonna get used to it. Her words were not really comforting after all.

In the terms of their separation. I asked Mom about the treatment of Kuya Lenard because it will be hard if Dad will not help with finances. I see the pain mom eyes when I ask that question but it quickly fades away. She smiled at me and held my hand. She said that she will do multiple jobs for Kuya Lenard. I don't know what she's talking about? Did she mean that Dad will not help Kuya in Finances? This time Elena. I want to grow up fast to help my family, especially Kuya Lenard.

I feel down Elena but I can't show this freking to my Family. I don't want to be a burden.

Sincerely yours,

Luna Sandivillan

After I write in the Diary. I put it back in my drawer and went out to my room. I go down to Kitchen to drink some water before I go to sleep. I'm drinking water when I saw someone enter the kitchen and walk to the refrigerator to get some milk.

" Cant sleep?" I asked

He shrugged his shoulders as the answer to my questions to him.

" I take that as a yes "I said to him before I put the glass of water on the kitchen counter. I'm ready to leave the Kitchen when Kuya speaks.

" Are you okay?" He asked. I was stunned by his questions and managed to show a smile on my face before I turned to him.

" Yes, There's no reason to not be okay," I answered.

" You know Luna. It's okay not to be okay. It's not your job to accept all the stress in our house. As you said before It's not our fault, It's their fault"

I just nodded - to my Kuya's advice.

" I will try," I said. Kuya Leonard just smiled and patted my head. before he leaves me in the kitchen.

I go back to my room and get the magazine I bought yesterday in the book store. I lied to my bed and opened it.

I enjoy every page in the Magazine. It gives me joy and takes my stress away. As I enjoy the Magazine I didn't notice the time.

I only checked the time when I yawned.

"Yawn! What time is it?" I asked myself. I look at my wall clock and my eyes widen when I see the time.

"Midnight!"I Gasp.

Oh no! I need to Accompany Mom to buy things that are needed in School tomorrow. We will leave the house at 6:30 am. I'm doomed if Mom will know that I sleep at midnight. She reminded me after we ate dinner to go to sleep early because I needed to go with her. Gosh! The magazine grabbed my Attention and I easily surrendered.

"Okay,Okay I need to pray first"I said to myself before I did the sign of the cross.

" Dear Lord, Thank you for all the blessings you gave to our family and sorry for the wrong things I've done. And Lord please Guide and protect us from harm. That's all, thank you! In the name of Jesus Christ Amen!"

After I prayed I immediately lied in my bed and closed my eyes. After a minute I immediately opened my eyes.

"I can't sleep again! '' I said

I put my arms on the top of my eyes and I started to count 1 up to 100. After I finish the counting I immediately feel the heavy feeling in my eyes. And seconds later I fell asleep.