My heart thundered against my chest. What the fuck is happening to me now? I've been fighting this illness since three years now but it has only gotten worse.

I just hope it isn't what I think. I don't want to fall in love. Especially when I've been warned like that.

" I see you need to brace yourself. You will get what you want but in the process you will hurt and also get hurt. Greed is one thing humans succumb to. "

The psychic lady had told me. Right now I just want to go after my career. Being a bit greedy for that is a reasonable..I guess?

I have seen many actors being a bachelor throughout their lives. I will probably join this squad in future. Specialy after my parents got divorced ,I promised myself to refrain from the thing called 'love'.

Think of me as a cynic but I really can't help cause I'm also a part of this cynical world. I don't want to hurt and get hurt.

But this girl here, keeps my thoughts moving back and forth.

Initially I thought I just needed someone to fight with.... like a sibling maybe.

But the things I felt for her wasn't the same as I felt for the boys. And thinking of her having a crush on Soobin made it worse.

One of the 100 reasons why I went to her house for vacations was her. Damn, I finally admitted it.

She says she doesn't like Soobin anymore but the way she looks at him really fumes me up. I've been trying to control this feeling since I've no plans of surrendering to love.

But temptations get the best of me.

" I know right " Su Won walked towards the messy table casually. Did she even hear me? I fucking complimented her. Well... she always does that, ignoroing me when I start getting serious.

Perhaps that's best for us. Taking each other causally.

"So, how can I help you " I took a sip from the glass.

"Just stand" she replied picking up a drab cloth from the table and walked towards me.

She dragged a stool and kept it in front of me. I was about to sit on it when she said, " That's for me".

She got up on it and signaled me to come closer. She needed that stool to reach my hight. She's tiny. I chuckled.

"What"? she looked at my face, bending a little ,as she was now a few centimeters taller than me.

"Shawty" .

She punched my arm before throwing the cloth on my shoulder and started to pin up the drapes on the front.

After a few minutes she got down to observe her work from afar. It was now that I realized I had stopped breathing . I took a deep breath and noticed the glass in my hand .I gulped everything all at once.

The effect she has on me.

She made some space on the messy table for her notebook and was studying something as she pouted her lips.

"Please switch on the lights and come here with the stool" she said ,still looking at her notes.

I did as I was told. She repeated the same procedures as before making some changes in the drapes. This time I noticed she had a pair of round rimmed specs on ,which only made her cuter.

"Are you getting bored ?" she asked all of a sudden bringing her face in front of me. My heart raced.

I nodded in disagreement. How would I? I'm totally enjoying right now. Kkkkkkkkkkkk.

Some music could be heard as she kept her phone down. It took me a moment to realize these are the orchestra versions of BTS songs. Woah. Her Taste. (♥ω♥ ) ~♪

After completing with the front portion she began working around my neck. Damn, she's killing me.

Her face was so close to mine that I couldn't help staring at her lips. The lips that I've already felt on mine that night. Wait. Why does this sound so illicit?

She bit her bottom lip before pouting as she observed her work. Does she even knows, I'm there ? Probably not because her hands were on her chest feeling her boobs. Is she serious!

"What are you doing? " she was startled by my voice. Panic flashed across her face before she turned around towards her notes. Ok ,I know girls do this unconsciously sometimes and I don't wanna be rude but I can't hold my laughter .

" Take that off carefully " came her serious voice.

I took the half done shirt or whatever off and handed it to her .

"Just pretend you did not see that " she said without looking at me.

"Ok" I laughed out loud, finally unable to take it anymore.

She turned towards me and was about to throw a pen at me when one of her feet sliped off the stool . I tried to stop her from falling but lost my balance too.

I felt something hit my lips. I blinked thinking what it could be. Seconds later I felt Su Won's hands causing a pressure on my chest as she lifted her body off me.

Without a second thought one of my hands drapped around her waist and other one brought her face back on mine. I could feel her heart beats accelerateing just like mine against my chest.

I flipped her so that I was on top of her. My lips did not leave hers. All the emotions came rushing into my heart making my head nebulous.

I gently brushed my lips against hers taking in the sweet scent of candies. Her hands moved weakly against my chest below me. The sensation sent sparks throughout my body.

Lecherous thoughts invaded my head. I slowly ran my tongue on those plum lips. Her body quivered. She opened her mouth as her lungs ran out of oxygen.

Before she could shut it again my tongue moved in swiftly mingling with her's.

Her fingers grabbed onto the shirt's material on my chest . Driven by craziness I started kissing her hungrily like there's no tomorrow.

'Still with you ' by Jungkook played in the background.

I parted our lips as I panted for air. Our chests moving up and down as we gasped for air. I stared into her orbs. The expression right now made her look the most vulnerable ever.

"Y-eo--n---j-un" I heard her whisper which almost sounded like a moan. It was melifluous. Hearing her call my name after a long time made me go crazy.

I'm always trying to stop myself but she keeps on tempting me. I could feel desire building up inside me. I kissed her again as my grip around her tiny waist tightend. This time it was rough and needy. My tongue moved ferociously against her's ,devouring her completely.

I was totally loosing my control when I felt her hands move towards the nape of my neck. She let out a soft moan before pulling me more closer. I opened my eyes. Her lips started moving rhythmicaly with mine. Her eyes shut.

She was returning my kises!

Her lashes looked wet. Just then I realized, those were her tears!

I broke the kiss and sat up.

" How was it? " my voice came out. Damn, I wanted to say sorry. What the hell. (°ﾛ°٥)

She looked with the same vulnerable look.

" I was rehearsing the scene for my upcoming drama" Dude! no, it's I like you. I cursed myself internally. ‹•.•›

I could not look back at her face. I was too embarrassed. What's going to happen to our friendship now?

I stood up and walked out.

I shut the main door as I made my way out of her appartment.

"You fucking jerk, I'll sue you for kiss and run..... Aaaaaaaish"

I heard her scream behind the door.

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