Chapter 4 Monday

Jennas pov

I'm not going to lie I'm absolutely shitting myself. Standing outside his office, not knowing what is in store for me. He was so angry on Friday night, yet it wasn't intimidating if anything it was sexy as fuck. I was so turned on by it. But what now? How the fuck am I supposed to look him in the eye after that. Just suck it up jenna you made this mess now put on your big girl pants and go fix it. I take a deep breath and step inside.

James pov

I can't help but wonder if I went to far. What if she dosent show, what if she just quits and I never see her again. Fuck I'm such a fucking dick. Then all of a sudden the door opens and there she is. Fuck she takes my breath away.

She showed up she actually showed up, that's a good thing right? Maybe she wants this as much as I do, god I fucking hope so.

"You wanted to see me?" She said staring at me with those magnificent eyes. "I think we have a few things to discuss don't you?" It sounded harsher than I meant it to. "Yes I think so, but let me get one think straight..." I cut her off "NO let me be clear jenna I don't fucking like you pretending you don't remember me. I don't fucking like it when other men are drooling over you. I want you, I want you so fucking bad. I want you to be mine and only fucking mine. Do you understand". "Erm, okay. That seems erm well okay I guess" she seemed to be struggling to find her words but holy fucking hell was she agreeing with me, was she really agreeing to be mine. Before either one of us could say anything more I grabbed her and pulled her into me. My lips found hers instantly, she tasted so fucking sweet my memories hadn't even come close. But before I knew what was happening her hands were on my chest and she was shoving me, she was actually pushing me away. FUCK!! I've read this all wrong, fuck no she's not agreeing to be mine. What the fuck do I do now.

Jennas pov

"Stop!! I, I can't. I mean erm... what will people think. I don't want people thinking I slept with you so I could get this job. OHH SHIT HOLY FUCKING SHIT. They are arnt they. They are all gonna be thinking that's how I got this job... OH MY GOD OH MY GOD"

What was I going to do I seriously couldn't have people thinking that about me. I've made some lovely new friends I don't want to lose them not now. "Seriously? That's what you're worried about? Well problem solved, i will just fire anyone that even dares to say that, or if you would prefer, we don't tell anyone. I can keep a secret if you can" he was staring at me waiting for a response but I was shocked silent. I'm pretty sure my mouth was hanging open Was he seriously proposing a secret relationship? I'm sure he was only joking about firing people. "What exactly do you want from me James? Do you want to date me or just fuck me? And how the fuck do you propose we keep that a secret? Because you are definitely not firing anyone because of me" I was starting to get anxious. I don't do things without planning, I don't make rash decisions, our one night stand was the only time I have ever done anything without thinking it through first and look how that turned out. He still hadn't let go of me and he was now trailing soft kisses down my neck whispering in my ear "don't think to much about it". WHAT don't think to much about it are you fucking kidding me. But with him kissing me like this it was hard to think straight let alone make a responsible adult decision.

James pov

I needed her to say yes, I needed her to be mine and I'm pretty sure I will do just about anything to make it possible. She's just staring at me and by look on her face she going to bolt, I can't have that I need to relax her. If she walks out now I'm afraid it will be the last time I see her. I start trailing soft intimate kisses up her neck all the way to her jaw, I can feel her physically relax under my touch "don't think to much about it" I whisper in her ear. Sliding a hand up her back and into her hair I take her mouth and start kissing her again.

I don't actually know what I expect from her so I avoided her question, I've never been the kind of guy who has relationships which is probably why I suggested keeping it a secret in the first place, but on the other hand I've never felt this possessive over a woman before. Avoiding her question is definitely the best thing to do.

She started to push me away again and suddenly I felt empty without her in my arms. "I'm sorry James, but I think about things, I don't make decisions without making lists. Yes I know how crazy that sounds but that's who I really am. I'm not the girl you met in the club, I don't do that I don't go home with guys without asking at least their name. What happened that night was a mistake, admittedly probably the best god damn mistake I have ever made but still a mistake. You are clearly looking for the woman you met in the club. I'm sorry James but as much as I enjoyed it I can't be her, I can't change who I really am. So no we can't do this" and with that she turned to leave only pausing briefly to say "if you need me to pack up my desk I completely understand" as she shut the door behind her it was my turn to stand there in shock.

What the fuck just happened how did I manage to fuck that up so fucking bad. I needed to change her mind, to make her see I don't want her to change a fucking thing she's already perfect.