Chapter 1 Prologue.

Dear life, I really have to hand it to you. You are so unpredictable. I actually hate you for being that way. Everyday, I feel like dying even though I am alive. I feel so suffocated even though there is air around. I feel so lonely even though people are around me. Why is it that some people experience the good side of life and others experience the bad. Ma says that god tests those that he wishes and good times are ahead for those who are patient and faithful. I am losing faith right now and I feel like I can never get back to the cute, lively, bubbly girl I was ten years ago.

I know that he has forbidden me from ever saying this but I wish that I could die and be forgotten. I wish that god could take my life and make the pain go away cause it becoming to much to bear . I feel bad for my parents though and I feel so selfish but still...... these demons in me won't let me live or do what I want. They keep on whispering into my ears every single time. I am tired, I am scared, I am gone".