Chapter 3 Remorse

"Aren't you happy to see me?" the jerk asked, I want to run away but my knees are weak to do that. After five years - he is here, he is moving closer, my fear and anxiety pushing into their limits, he touches my arm and I pushed him away gather some myself and run away as I do five years ago, while the tears in my eyes are rushing over my cheeks, I quickly hailed a cab before he can follow me, I went inside of the cab and I found myself crying.

Yes, he is my husband

But, I run away from him. I didn't want to marry him, it was my father's choice but I want to impress my father, soon I obey him then we get married. And the nightmares started to happen. I said to the cab driver to stop and I found it in the convenience store, I went inside that store, wiping my tears while I am facing the glass pane then somebody gave me a cup of noodles.

"For you," a guy in the mask said, his voice is really low, it like edited or something, but I didn't complain. The cup noodle looks delicious it has little crab and naruto chips swimming in the soup, is it milky seafood flavor

"Thank you..." I said in my little voice, they always look out for strangers they might do something wrong. But in my case - it was false. Some strangers people are fun to talk to, no judgments, no complaints, they just listen to you till your heart content.

"A pretty girl is crying? What is wrong?" I sighed heavily, sobbing, he gave me his handkerchief

"Thank you, but I have a tissue here." I retorted and he chuckles

"What's bugging you?" he asked, and I heard slurping his noodles

"My life..." I trailed off. "I thought life was rainbow and sunshine, and everyone is in control. But, I was completely wrong, this is real-life: it has full of rejection, bad people, it gives me anxiety, too! And no matter what I do I always ended up losing, and I hate losing. I wish I just am a child again. I'm in my downfall this past five years, yet, the worse is yet to come..." I said, looking down, smiling bitterly I feel bad for myself! I thought I was strong, I wasn't... yet I'm still weak and fragile.

"Uhm. How can I put this..." He started "Based on what you've said: you been gaslight all the time, and your right... This is the real world, this is a cruel world, you have so many predators that disguise as an angel but I know you're strong and have the presence of mind to do a thing, that will make you happy. If you think that running away from the problem is the best for you, I respect it! But sooner or later, you still have to face it, be strong. Always." He said, his words hit me hard, I am the person who always the first to run away with my problems I know that is selfishness but I always thought of myself but the people around me.

"You don't put poison here, right?" I asked in a very playful tone.

"Then, we both died," he said, assuring me, I take a sip of the noodles. I wasn't of seafood ramens but this is one-just perfect to me.

"It's good!" I said, smiling at him, take a few slurping of the noodles, I almost forgot I haven't dinner, I feel so full right now.

"Thanks. I'm glad that you liked it! That is one of my favorite." He finished his noodles and opened his sausage and stand up then pat my head.

"You'll be alright, okay?" Before he disappeared on my eyes and I finished the noodles before going out again and goes to the waiting shed to waits for a taxi. I opened my phone, my little brother apologized to me I sighed

'It's okay.' When I send that, I turned off my phone and hailed a cab, and goes inside the cab, I feel my head feels heavy throbbing in pain I want to bang my head. When we get to the condo I gave him my fare and quickly goes inside the building the condo and when inside the elevator and pressed the 25th floor, I tried to close my eyes to relax my system, and went I hear the elevator opens I stormed out and I stand in front of the door and getting my keys in my bags and push the key inside and I went inside, the condo is pitch black, I try to find the light switch and I pressed the top one - it was open.

I went to the sofa, groaning in pain, and stand up again, walks inside the bathroom to look for some medicine inside the medicine kit in the bathroom. Luckily, I found one gets it and went to the kitchen to grab a glass of water and open the capsule medicine and I drink the water first then follows the capsule

"I think I am okay now," I said to myself and grab my bag and went inside my room and closes the door, I dropped my bag on my coffee table and I went to the bathroom to change my clothes. It was a long day for me, I didn't expect him to shown after 5 years without anything then now? What does he want from me? I changed my clothes and I am wearing a PJ right now. I flopped to my bed, getting ready to sleep I feel my eyes are heavy right now.

'I miss you,' I quickly opened my eyes when I heard his voice on my mind. Shit! Shit! No! You don't miss him! Get a grip of that, will ya? He just wants you and uses you again, and you don't allow that, right? And I just chose to sleep then argue to my intra, but the curiosity kills the cat? I mean, it's been five years. He looks so mature right now, I'm sure he changed - drastically. I wish...

And finally closes my eyes and drifted away from my sleep.

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Early in the morning, I started my day in the office, ordered a coffee in the cafeteria here and he gave me my change and I got my first coffee here. I feel like an early person and a mature woman. I am not a coffee person, I like tea more but it's more relaxing. But like the smell of new brew coffee in the morning, I went inside of our office and go to my workplace and goes to my-doo lists. We are jam-packed right now and I am still a newbie here, I wanna impress the bosses and managers and finally have recognition for it.

"Hey, beautiful! Good morning!" The girl who helped me greeted me.

"Good morning, too! And what's your name again?" I asked. I haven't got her name before I finished cleaning she was too busy.

"I'm Giselle Rose. But you can call me Gis. And you?" She introduced herself and with a sweet smile plastered on her face.

"Me? I am Alisa Grey." I smiled. We both shake our hands, and I noticed her little bow.

"Cute bow, Gis!" I said and then she chuckles

"Thank you! I haven't this bow for months, thinking I wasn't suited for my style!" she pouted.

"No! Don't think about that, it suits you! You look cute!" I assured her and smiled at me and hold slightly my hands and pulling out quickly cause Miss Mil arrived went in a sour mood around her.

"I have an announcement to make, listen to all of you!" She said with an authority. She staring at us finding who not putting attention to her.

"Good! Mr. Dewbrick announced his retirement to the company," she said, Mr. Dewbrick is currently the CEO of the company, he owned the company for 8 years. The rumors say: he was the game player of the industry and putting high-risk deal and eventually won. But who's taking his job right now?

"I know, I know! Mr. Dewbrick is a great loss to our company but he wants to spend time with our family and living a normal life. The director and us managers and higher manager meet the new CEO, he is quite intimating. Yes is the young and came to a rich family." I rolled my eyes, not another bastard taking a company because he wants to, that bastard wants this company because he wants to have authority over people been there, done that.

Miss Mil goes to his office and my co-worker started to whispering gossip.

"Told you! He's young and I bet he's hot!"

"He's hot, girl! Look at this! See? Such a physique! He can pass to be a model!"

I didn't want to eavesdrop but their voices are a bit loud, and just focus on my to-do list, not minding businesses. So what if he hot? Does that hotness can pay your bills and you're sent to your home? These girls need to chill and holy water! I uttered inside of my mind and focus now on my work.

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My back is hurting right now. It was 9 pm. Miss Mil has extra errands for us and I don't know if there any taxi around here. Should I text Kyla? I saw a sea of people in the parking lot. Does the company organize a live band? Curiosity kills the cat and eavesdrops on what is happening in the parking lot.

I am a tall person but I couldn't see a thing, and went inside of the front, making my way.

"Excuse me! Passing! Coming thru! Ops!" as I went to the front, leaning to his Ferrari, and his suit and tie and waiting for someone. The fear caught me up again. I was going back and I feel somebody just lifted me. And it was him.

"Noctus..." It feels so weird to calls out his name again after five years. He smiled and he dropped me off on the passenger seat and he went to the driver's seat, without saying anything he drove off the car. I cannot speak, I'm trying to speak, and couldn't utter a word, I'm just staring at him. He looks so mature and aging just wine.

"Wife, you might melt me with your stares." He said focusing on the road. I'm trying to process everything. I take a breath and I think I am relaxed right now.

"Noctus," I called him again. "What the fuck?" I asked.

"What? I can't pick up my wife from work?" He said innocently, chuckling.

"Oh, please! Will, you cut the crap? I'm not buying it! What is your business here?" I asked.

"You," he simply said.

"Why? I already signed up for the divorce paper!" I said, bit shouting.

"But I haven't." I rolled my eyes. "Where you wanna go?" He asked

"To hell. Come and join me?" I said and smirking.

"Baby, you can't go hell, you're an angel."

I rolled my eyes again. "Nice pickup line, Noctus. Anything else?" he stopped the car and his face closer to mine.

"Come home with me..." His voice is needy and pleasing to me.

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