Chapter 5 I'm just the babysitter

Chapter 4

Joy's pov

I called Dakota and told him I was on my way over to look after his nephew Keagan. I would have been there sooner, but Adam stopped me and started in on me saying we needed to talk. I felt like there was nothing left for us to talk about. He told me to stay away from Dakota for some reason. I didn't even tell him I was babysitting for him, so I don't know how he even knew I was around him. I pulled in and hurried up to Dakota's door, so he could leave and get to the school on time.

"Hey Joy, thank you so much for this. Are you ok you look upset?"

"Yea I'm fine sorry I'm running late Adam needed to talk to me about something."

"Did he do something to upset you? Did you guys get into a fight or something?"

"No, he just told me to stay away from you for some reason."

"Well I'm sure your boyfriend doesn't like that you'll be spending so much time at another guy's house."

"Adam and I are no longer together."

"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't know that."

"It's fine."

"okay well everything you will need for Keagan is in his room. Make yourself at home, and I will be back just as soon as I can."

I went and checked on Kegan and he was still sound asleep. I guess I'll get my homework done since there's nothing else to do. I couldn't concentrate so I went looking around. I was a little curious to see if Dakota had a gf I didn't know about. The thought of him with someone made me a little jealous for some reason. I looked all over but didn't see any pictures of any women.

I went into his bedroom. I know a total invasion of privacy, but I was curious. I looked around and still didn't see any pictures of any women in here either. Maybe he was single, or he wasn't that serious about this girl if he had one.

I was about to turn around and leave his room when something on the floor caught my eyes. I walked over to it and noticed it was a bra that looked a lot like the one I was missing and couldn't find. I picked it up and looked at it and sure enough it was missing my bra.

How did my bra get on Dakota's bedroom floor almost under his bed? Did something more than just sleep happen that night? I grabbed my bra and hurried out of his room and put it away in my bag. I needed to talk to Dakota. I felt as if there was something he wasn't telling me. I was scared of the answer, but I needed to know.

Why wouldn't he have told me something went on between us when we were talking last night? Did he not remember either? He kept acting like I was just some student. As if we didn't share a kiss and I know we did because I do remember that. It was the best kiss I have ever had.

I was glad Kegan was still asleep, so I could think. Would it be the end of the world if I did sleep with Dakota? I mean I am single now since Adam cheated on me. I just don't know how to really fill about all of this. I called Dakota and told him that I needed to talk to him about something. He seemed worried and said he would be home as soon as he can.

I am starting think that maybe we did have sex. I remember Dakota saying that after that night he thought we were together. He seemed so upset when I told him I got back with Adam. Then last night he treated me like some kid. Did he not tell me because he feels it's a huge mistake? If he did then maybe I shouldn't bring it up.

See Dakota wasn't just some stranger that just showed up in my life. My mother and his were actually the best of friends in high school so we have met several times before. Our mothers have lost touch, so I haven't seen him since I was little. I had always had a secret crush on him.

I decided to write the pro's and con's of talking to Dakota about this. I had to make sure this was a good idea. I was going to babysit his nephew and would be seeing him a lot. I didn't want to make things awkward between us. Plus, I didn't want anyone else to find out. If Adam knew he would use this to ruin both of our lives.

Maybe keeping this a secret was for the best, but then again, I would always wonder what exactly happened. My head was spinning. I was getting a headache because I was thinking way too much. I needed to get my mind right before Dakota came home.

I was glad when Kegan woke up crying and wanting a bottle. He was a much needed and very cute distraction. I changed his diaper and got him a bottle then sat down to feed him. He was so tiny and adorable. I looked at him and found myself thinking about having a baby and who I would want to have a family with.

I was scared and shocked when the man I wanted wasn't Adam but Dakota. I was in love with Adam, but I was angry with him. Maybe that was why I was picturing Dakota because I knew it would hurt Adam. There couldn't be any other reason. I didn't love Dakota and we had no future together. I'm sure to him I am just some little girl that is watching his nephew. He would never fill anything for me.

If something did happen between us it was because he was so drunk, he didn't realize it was me. Did he think of another woman when he was with me? If he was with me? The thought of that made me sick. That was it I needed answers and I needed them now.