Chapter 3 Inside His Walls

Monday.

The estate was different when you lived in it.

Not bigger. Just more real. The kind of reality that presses on you - the silence of it, the space, the way the air smelled like money in a way I couldn't explain except that it didn't smell like anything at all, which was its own kind of luxury.

Mrs. Aldeen met me at the door.

Sixties. Straight back. Eyes that had seen enough that nothing surprised them. She took my single bag without commenting on the fact that it was a single bag and showed me to my room.

I stood in the doorway.

The room was the size of our whole apartment.

"Bathroom through there," Mrs. Aldeen said. "Meals in the east dining room or you can use the kitchen directly. Mr. Hale takes breakfast at seven, dinner at eight. You'll be expected at both unless told otherwise."

"Both?"

She looked at me. "His word."

I nodded.

She left.

I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the room and told myself this was fine.

This was a job.

A well-paying job in a house with a bathtub.

Fine.

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I met him at seven.

He was already at the breakfast table when I came in. Suit at seven in the morning. Reading something on his phone. Coffee untouched.

He looked up when I sat down.

I nodded.

He said nothing.

We ate in silence.

It was not uncomfortable silence. That was the strange part. It was the silence of two people who didn't need to fill space.

I didn't know what to do with that.

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My work was real.

His schedule was brutal - calls stacked on calls, three time zones at once, a board that moved fast and expected him to move faster. I caught up in two days and by the third I was ten minutes ahead of everything.

He noticed.

He didn't say so. But he stopped checking behind my work.

That was enough.

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What wasn't part of the work:

The way he appeared.

I don't mean dramatically. I mean the way he was simply suddenly present.

I'd be in the library at night and I'd turn around and he'd be there. Reading. Not looking at me. Just - there.

I'd be in the kitchen in the early morning and he'd come in not for anything specific, just to stand at the counter with his coffee.

He never explained himself.

I never asked.

But it happened every day.

Every single day.

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Day six.

I was carrying files to the east study when I passed the room at the end of the corridor.

The door was open an inch.

I wasn't trying to look.

I looked.

Roman was inside.

Standing in front of a wall.

The wall had photographs on it. Pinned. Arranged with some logic I couldn't read from the doorway. He was standing with his arms crossed and his back to me, staring at it the way you stare at something you've memorized but still can't solve.

I stood there for two seconds.

Then I kept walking.

But I had seen one of the photographs clearly.

It was the same one from Ashford.

The woman. The young boy.

And something else I hadn't seen that night from across the room.

The boy in the photograph.

He was maybe two years old.

And he had my eyes.

Not similar.

My eyes.

I walked to the east study and put the files down and stood at the window for five minutes before my hands stopped shaking.

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At dinner that night Roman looked at me.

Not the reading look. Not the calculating look.

Different.

Like he was trying to figure out if I had seen something.

I gave him nothing.

"How are you settling in?" he said. First non-work words in six days.

"Fine," I said.

"Is the room adequate?"

"Very."

He nodded. I looked back at his plate.

Then: "You seem unsettled."

I looked up. "I'm fine."

His eyes stayed on mine for a beat too long.

"Okay," he said.

He didn't believe me.

I didn't believe myself.

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That night I locked my bedroom door.

Sat on the floor against the bed.

Pulled up my phone.

I opened the photo album.

Found the folder I kept locked behind a password I had never told anyone.

One photograph inside.

A baby.

Six weeks old. Eyes closed. Wrapped in hospital white.

I held him for four hours.

Then they took him.

I was twenty years old and alone and they said it was better. They said I wasn't stable. They said with my circumstances, with Eli's situation, with everything-

They said it was better.

I hadn't argued.

I had been too broken to argue.

I stared at the photograph.

The boy in Roman's wall was maybe four years old now.

My hands were shaking again.

I turned the phone face down.

Pressed it hard against the floor.

Told myself I was wrong.

Told myself coincidences existed.

Told myself this was not what it looked like.

I told myself that until 4 am.

Then I got up, washed my face, and got dressed for the day.

Because I needed this job.

And if I was right about what I thought I was right about-

I needed to be inside these walls a lot more than Roman Hale knew.

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