A nurse, Patty, pushed a squeaking cart down the hallway. She gave Ayleen a quick, pitying glance. It was the kind of look people gave a stray dog huddling in the rain. That single look sent a cramp through Ayleen's stomach, tight and sharp. She'd seen it before. Twice.
"Ayleen Ramirez."
The voice from the intercom was tinny, impersonal. Ayleen shot to her feet. Her knee slammed into the corner of a low magazine table. Copies of Parents and Modern Family slid to the floor in a glossy cascade.
"Sorry," she mumbled to no one, her face burning. She bent down, her hands trembling as she tried to gather the smooth pages. The smiling, perfect families on the covers mocked her.
She left the magazines in a messy pile and pushed open the heavy door to Dr. Alistair Finch's office.
He was facing his computer, his back a rigid wall of white coat. He didn't turn around.
"Dr. Finch?" she said, her voice barely a whisper.
He swiveled in his chair, his expression as warm and inviting as a concrete slab. He didn't ask her to sit.
"The results of the hCG test are negative, Ms. Ramirez," he said. His tone was the same one he might use to read a grocery list. "The implantation was not successful."
The words didn't just enter her ears. They entered her bloodstream, a poison that dissolved her spine. She collapsed into the patient chair, a buzzing sound filling her head, drowning out the clinic's hum.
"The records," she stammered, grabbing for a lifeline that wasn't there. "Can I see the embryo transfer records? Maybe..."
Dr. Finch sighed, a small, impatient puff of air. He tapped a few keys, the clacking sound echoing in the silent room. A screen filled with medical jargon flashed on the monitor. "Viability was optimal. Endometrial lining was receptive. As you can see, everything on our end was textbook. Sometimes, it just doesn't take."
Ayleen wrapped an arm around her stomach, a hollow, aching emptiness blooming where hope had been just minutes before. Tears burned the back of her eyes, but she refused to let them fall. Not here. Not in front of him.
"I have another patient waiting," Dr. Finch said, standing up. He was already done with her, another failed experiment to be filed away. He left the room without another word.
She was alone with the silence and the ghost of a child that would never be.
Somehow, she made her legs work. She walked out of the office, her vision blurry, the hallway stretching into an endless tunnel. She saw the water cooler and moved toward it on autopilot.
She fumbled with the paper cup, water sloshing over her hand. It was hot, but she felt nothing. Just a spreading numbness.
The door to a supply closet next to the cooler was slightly ajar. A voice drifted out. A voice she knew better than her own.
Don. Her husband.
Ayleen froze, her hand gripping the flimsy cup. Her first instinct was to push the door open, to ask him what he was doing here, to fall into his arms and tell him it had failed again.
But his tone stopped her. It was light, casual, and dripping with a cruelty she had only ever seen him direct at others.
"She's a walking incubator, that's all," Don was saying into his phone, a low chuckle in his voice. "And a defective one at that. She'll never have my baby, I'll make sure of it."
Ayleen's breath caught in her throat. Her fingers tightened on the cup. The metal door handle felt cold against her other hand.
"No, of course not," Don continued, and she could picture the smug smile on his face. "I never used my own sample. You think I'd let that Texas trailer trash carry a Bradley heir? It was all cheap stuff from a sperm bank. Anonymous."
A woman's high-pitched, syrupy laugh trickled from the phone. Alessandra.
"Just a little longer, baby," Don purred. "Once I'm legally untangled from this mess, it's you and me. I promise."
Crunch.
The paper cup in Ayleen's hand collapsed. Water streamed down her fingers, dripping onto the linoleum floor. It looked like a puddle of her own shattered dignity.
A wave of nausea so powerful it made her gag rose from her stomach. Three years of injections, of invasive procedures, of humiliation and hope. Three years of a lie. It was a physical sickness, a poison he had fed her, and it was all coming up now.
She shoved the door open.
Don whipped around, his eyes wide with panic. The phone nearly slipped from his grasp. He saw her, and the panic in his eyes instantly hardened into the defensive glare of a cornered animal.
She didn't scream. She didn't cry.
She just stared at him. The look in her eyes was one she'd never had before. It was the look you give something you find stuck to the bottom of your shoe. Her lips were white, bloodless.
"Ayleen," he stammered, trying to regain his footing. "It's not what you think. I did it for you. For your health. The doctors said..."
A short, sharp, ugly sound escaped her throat. It wasn't a laugh. It was the sound of something inside her breaking clean in two.
She turned and ran.
"Ayleen, wait!" he called after her, his voice laced with the fake concern he was so good at.
She didn't wait. She bolted down the hallway, past the pitying nurse, past the smiling families on the magazine covers. She burst through the clinic's glass doors and into the searing Texas sun. The light was so bright it felt like a physical blow, forcing the tears from her eyes.
She fumbled for her keys, her hands shaking uncontrollably. She half-fell into the driver's seat of her modest sedan, slammed the door, and locked it.
In the suffocating heat of the car, alone and trapped, she finally let go. A sob tore through her, a raw, ragged sound of absolute betrayal. She cried until her throat was raw, until she was gasping for air, until all that was left was the dry, heaving emptiness of a life that had just been burned to the ground.