"Mom," Arlis said, his voice a raw whisper he barely recognized. He had to swallow hard, fighting the lump in his throat to keep his voice from cracking. "Don't worry. I'm coming home. And this time, I'm going to take back everything we lost."
The promise hung in the stale air of the Starbucks long after the call ended. It was a vow made to a woman twenty years in the past, from a future she couldn't comprehend. The certainty in his own words was the only thing anchoring him as the world tilted on its axis.
The pain didn't start in his head. It started in his chest, a hollow, thudding impact like he'd been kicked by a mule, before radiating upward and exploding behind his eyes. Arlis Zimmerman gasped, his lungs seizing as if the air had suddenly turned to solid concrete. His fingers clawed at the edge of the table, scraping against the rough, varnished wood.
"Arlis? Are you even listening to me?"
The voice was sharp, nasal, and terrifyingly familiar. It cut through the ringing in his ears. Arlis forced his eyes open. The fluorescent lights of the Starbucks were blinding, but as his vision cleared, the face across from him swam into focus.
Hailee Baxter.
She looked younger. Her skin was smoother, devoid of the fine lines that would appear in her thirties. She was stirring her latte with a plastic stick, her movements jerky and impatient. She wore a pastel pink polo shirt with the collar popped-a fashion crime he hadn't seen in two decades.
Arlis looked down at his hands. They weren't the calloused, scarred hands of a forty-year-old alcoholic failure. They were smooth. Young. He reached into his pocket and his fingers brushed against cold, hard plastic. He pulled it out. A silver Motorola flip phone. The device felt alien and heavy in his palm.
He turned his head toward the window. A Ford Taurus rolled by outside, followed by a girl in low-rise jeans that barely covered her hips.
The nausea hit him then. It wasn't just a headache. It was a collision of memories-forty years of regret slamming into a twenty-two-year-old body. He remembered the whiskey bottles, the lonely apartment, the obituary of his father he couldn't afford to attend.
Hailee slammed her cup down. Coffee sloshed over the rim.
"I said, we're done," she snapped. "I don't want to start my job at the Community Street Office dragging a diner kid behind me."
Arlis stared at her. The love he had once felt-the pathetic, puppy-dog devotion that had defined his early twenties-evaporated instantly. In its place was a cold, clinical clarity. He saw her not as the girl of his dreams, but as the woman who would eventually marry three times, bankrupt two husbands, and end up bitter and alone in a suburbs condo.
She was waiting for him to beg. She had a napkin ready in her hand, anticipating his tears.
Arlis leaned back in the hard wooden chair. His heart rate slowed. "Is this for the job, or is this for Kyler Craft?"
Hailee's eyes widened. Her pupils contracted into pinpricks. The plastic stirrer fell from her hand onto the table. "How... how do you know about Kyler?"
She looked around the café, panic flushing her neck a mottled red.
"It doesn't matter how I know," Arlis said, his voice raspy but steady.
Hailee recovered quickly. She straightened her spine, lifting her chin in a gesture of defensive arrogance. "Well, since you know, it makes this easier. Kyler's father is the Vice Chair of the Regulatory Commission. He can give me a future. You can give me... what? Free burgers?"
Students at the nearby tables were turning to look. Hailee didn't shrink away; she preened under the attention. She loved an audience.
Arlis picked up his Americano. It was stone cold. He took a sip, letting the bitter, acidic taste burn his throat, grounding him in this reality.
"Congratulations, Hailee," he said. "You finally sold yourself to the highest bidder."
Hailee's face turned a violent shade of crimson. She stood up so abruptly her chair screeched against the floor tiles. "That kind of bitterness is exactly why you'll be flipping burgers for the rest of your sad life!"
She grabbed her handbag, her knuckles white around the strap. "Don't contact me. And don't even think about showing your face at City Hall. You have zero chance at that fellowship."
She spun on her heel, her platform sandals clacking loudly as she stormed toward the exit, shoulder-checking a guy walking in with a tray of muffins.
Arlis didn't watch her go. His gaze dropped to the newspaper left on the table by a previous patron. The Capital Gazette. The date in the corner was bold and black: May 12, 2005.
His finger traced the edge of the paper until it landed on a small, insignificant box in the bottom right corner.
City Hall Special Research Fellowship - Written Exam Results Posted.
He remembered this day. In his past life, he had cried in his car for two hours. He had driven home, gotten drunk, and given up. He had missed the cut by one spot.
But he also remembered what happened two days later. He remembered the scandal that wouldn't break for another week. He remembered the "Supplemental Candidate Protocol."
Arlis clenched his fist. His fingernails dug into his palm until the skin broke, a sharp, stinging pain that told him this was real. This wasn't a hallucination. It was a second chance.
He flipped open the Motorola. His thumb moved instinctively over the keypad, dialing the number that was etched into his soul.
"Hello?" The voice was tired, worn down by years of grease and standing on her feet.
He took a shaky breath, the one that led to the promise he'd just made to himself. "Mom," Arlis said.
The bell above the door chimed-a tinny, cheerful sound that clashed with the heaviness in Arlis's chest. The air inside Zimmerman's Diner was thick, a suspension of frying bacon grease, stale coffee, and floor wax. It smelled like failure. It smelled like home.
Martha Zimmerman was behind the counter, scrubbing at a stain on the laminate that had been there since 1998. Her eyes were red-rimmed and puffy. She looked up as the door closed, and her face crumpled.
"Oh, honey," she whispered. She rounded the counter, wiping her wet hands on her apron, and pulled him into a hug that smelled of bleach and onions. "Hailee called. She... she said some awful things."
Arlis felt her trembling against him. Over her shoulder, he saw his father, Frank. He was standing at the griddle, spatula in hand, staring at the sizzling meat. His shoulders were slumped, his spine curved under the weight of a mortgage he would never pay off.
Frank turned slowly. He didn't look Arlis in the eye. "If it's about money, son... we can sell the truck. It'll give you a few months to find something."
Arlis pulled back from his mother. He gripped her shoulders, his fingers firm. "Mom. Dad. Nobody is selling the truck. We aren't begging anyone for anything."
Martha blinked, tears caught in her lashes. She stared at him as if he were speaking a foreign language. She was used to the Arlis who apologized for taking up space. This Arlis stood with his feet planted shoulder-width apart, his chin level.
He walked to the corner booth-the one with the duct tape on the vinyl seat where he had done his homework for twelve years. He slapped the folded copy of The Capital Gazette onto the sticky table. He took a red pen from his pocket and circled the notice.
Martha followed him, wringing her hands. "Arlis, that's the exam list. You were twelfth. They only take the top ten."
"Candidate Number One is Jacob Miller," Arlis said, tapping the paper. "I know him from State."
Frank wiped his hands on a rag and walked over. "So? He's a genius. Dean's list."
Arlis lowered his voice, leaning in. "There are rumors on campus. Miller has a problem with his background check, something serious from when he was a kid that got sealed. The check for City Hall is federal level. They'll find it."
It was a lie-he didn't know it from campus rumors. He knew it because in his past life, Miller's mugshot had been on the news three days after the fellowship began.
Frank and Martha exchanged a glance. Frank looked skeptical. "Rumors don't get you a job, Arlis."
"And Number Two," Arlis continued, ignoring him. "Sarah Jenkins. She just got an offer from McKinsey. Sixty grand a year starting. She isn't going to take a twenty-thousand-dollar stipend from the city."
He looked up at his parents, his eyes burning with intensity. "When two candidates drop out from the top ten, under the 'Supplemental Candidate Protocol,' Article Four, they have to reopen the interview pool to the next five on the list. That includes me."
Martha covered her mouth with her hand. "You mean... you still have a chance?"
Before Arlis could answer, the diner door swung open. A gust of wind brought in Mrs. Gable, the neighborhood gossip whose tongue was sharper than a butcher's knife.
"Well, look who's back," she cackled, her voice grating. "I saw Hailee's car at the gas station. She told everyone you're moving back into your old room to live off your poor parents."
Frank's jaw tightened. He took a step forward, his fists balling at his sides.
Arlis stood up. He moved smoothly, placing himself between his father and the woman. He put on a smile-not a genuine one, but the polished, shark-like smile of a seasoned political operative.
"Mrs. Gable," Arlis said, his voice projecting clearly across the quiet diner. "You always have your ear to the ground. But Hailee might have forgotten to mention that I'm currently preparing for the final interview at City Hall."
Mrs. Gable blinked, her mouth hanging slightly open. "Interview? I thought you failed."
Arlis stepped closer, invading her personal space just enough to make her uncomfortable. "Some things are confidential until the official announcement. Internal protocol. You might want to order a double cheeseburger while they're still cheap. Good things are happening for this family, and you never know when demand might pick up."
Mrs. Gable stammered. She looked from Arlis to Frank, then clutched her purse tight. "I... I just came for coffee." She threw a dollar on the counter and practically ran out the door.
Silence stretched in the diner. Frank looked at his son, really looked at him, for the first time in years.
"Make me a double cheeseburger, Dad," Arlis said, sitting back down and uncapping his pen. "I have work to do."
His phone buzzed on the table. He glanced at the screen. A text from an unknown number.
Heard you're still dreaming. Give it up. - Kyler
Arlis stared at the pixelated text. He didn't type a reply. He simply smiled, cold and sharp.
The room was exactly as he had left it, a museum of his teenage mediocrity. A faded poster of Green Day hung crookedly over the bed. The air smelled of dust and old paper.
Arlis sat at the desk, the glow of the CRT monitor illuminating his face in harsh blue light. The computer whirred and groaned, the modem screeching its digital handshake as it connected to the internet.
Welcome to AOL.
He ignored the cheerful voice and opened the browser. His fingers flew across the keyboard, typing a URL he hadn't needed in a lifetime. State Personnel Board - Rules and Regulations.
The connection was agonizingly slow. The progress bar inched forward, pixel by pixel. Arlis tapped his finger on the desk, a rapid, rhythmic sound. Thump. Thump. Thump.
Finally, the PDF loaded. He scrolled down. Page 104.
Supplemental Candidate Protocol.
Clause 4: In the event of two or more withdrawals within the primary selection tier prior to the interview phase, the selection committee is mandated to activate the reserve pool...
In his previous life, this clause had been triggered. But nobody knew. The HR department at City Hall had quietly slipped the slot to Candidate Number Six-Kyler Craft's cousin. It was nepotism, buried under bureaucracy.
Not this time.
Arlis opened his email client. He began to type. He didn't write like a student asking for a favor. He wrote like a lawyer threatening a lawsuit.
Subject: Inquiry Regarding Supplemental Candidate Activation - Protocol 104
To whom it may concern:
Regarding the candidacy status of Jacob Miller and Sarah Jenkins... respectfully request confirmation of adherence to State Personnel Board Regulation 104... failure to activate the reserve pool would constitute a procedural violation...
He didn't hit send. It was 2:00 AM on a Saturday. Sending it now would look desperate. He set the email to schedule for Monday, 8:00 AM sharp. It would be the first thing the clerk saw when she opened her inbox with her morning coffee.
Downstairs, the floorboards creaked. His parents were still awake, whispering. They were worried he was having a breakdown.
Arlis pushed his chair back and knelt by the bed. He dragged out a dusty cardboard box. Inside was his suit. It was polyester, charcoal gray, bought at a discount store for his high school graduation. It was wrinkled and sad.
He carried it to the ironing board set up in the hallway. He plugged in the iron, waiting for the hiss of steam.
He laid the jacket flat. As he pressed the hot metal against the fabric, watching the wrinkles vanish under the heat, he felt like he was ironing out the creases of his own soul. Every pass of the iron was a correction. Every hiss of steam was a purge of his past weakness.
The next morning, Arlis walked into the kitchen wearing the suit. It wasn't tailored, but it was clean, and he wore it with a posture that made it look expensive.
Frank was watching the small TV on the counter. "Crime rate in the East District is up again," the newscaster said.
"It's a deployment issue, not budget," Arlis said, pouring himself coffee. "The new Mayor is going to restructure the Third Precinct within six months."
Frank froze, the coffee pot hovering over his mug. "How do you know that?"
Arlis paused. "Just a guess, Dad. Can I borrow twenty bucks? I need to go to the library to print some documents."
Frank dug into his pocket and pulled out a wad of crumpled bills-his tips from the entire previous day. He handed them over without hesitation. Arlis took the money, the texture of the worn paper feeling heavy in his hand. This is the last time, he promised himself.
The library was cool and quiet. Arlis printed the protocol and his updated resume. As he walked out into the bright sunlight, a shadow fell over him.
"Well, if it isn't Mr. Dumped," a voice sneered.
Jody Hebert. Hailee's best friend. She was leaning against the brick wall, smoking a cigarette, looking him up and down with disdain.
"Here to cry over a book? Or looking for the classifieds?" she asked, blowing smoke in his direction.
Arlis stopped. In his past life, Jody had been the poison in Hailee's ear, constantly whispering that Arlis wasn't good enough.
He rolled up the documents in his hand. He stepped closer to her, ignoring the smoke.
"Jody," he said calmly. "If I were you, I'd be more worried about your internship at the County Clerk's office. I hear they're doing budget cuts next week. Last in, first out."
Jody's smirk vanished. The cigarette hung loosely from her lips. That rumor hadn't gone public yet. It was her deepest fear.
"What... what are you talking about?" she stammered.
Arlis didn't answer. He walked past her, his shoes clicking on the pavement, heading toward the post office. He didn't look back.