When your world reconfigures around absence, the people left behind sometimes discover new roles. Ariel's father discovered how to be a man with responsibilities: accounts to balance, lines to meet, appearances to keep. He learned to wear a crisp shirt and a negotiator's patience. He learned to reply to neighbors with laughter that contained nothing. But sometimes, when he was tired or when the numbers on a ledger did not add up, that practiced patience cracked and something else oozed through.

At first, it was small things. He would snap at Ariel for leaving stories open on her bedside table. He would call her daydreaming "forgetfulness" and give her chores in a tone that folded disappointment into the air like a stubborn fog. "You should know better," he would say, and the phrase cut like a cough you didn't expect.

Ariel tried harder. She sat straighter, memorized the times she was allowed to laugh, and learnt how to make herself small. She excelled at school; books became a place to breathe. Teachers said she was clever, "bright," they wrote with tidy hands-on reports. There was pride in the smallness of her achievements; yet, when she explained them at home, her father barely looked up from his newspaper. The silence that followed her announcements felt heavy. Once, when she presented him with a drawing vivid smudge of crayon suns and crooked trees, he pinched his lips and said, "Save your time. You need to focus." Ariel folded her paper carefully and placed it under her pillow.

The abuse did not come as blows; it came as absences and words. Words are funny weapons: they don't bruise flesh, but they can bruise the places inside you that keep you steady. Her father called her "sensitive," like it was a disease. He compared her to other girls' teachers' children, neighbors who smiled in better light. He told her she was too much and not enough in the same breath, and taught her that she must always measure herself by someone else's satisfaction.

At night, he read to her sometimes, once every few months, and when he did, Ariel noticed how his voice softened. But then mornings would come, and the softness would be folded back into practicality. Ariel began to catalog the unpredictable moments. She would note the days his jaw tightened, those were rain days; the times he threw his keys on the table like a man throwing small stones were droughts. She learned to curtsy around him, to speak in low, careful sentences.

Her father's punishments were creative in their cruelty. When a neighbor's letter arrived, an invitation to a community prize for schoolchildren, he kept it hidden from her until the day had passed, and then told her the event was a "mismatch" for their finances. When Ariel's math teacher offered private tutoring to promising students, her father said that charity was unreliable and they had to "be practical." The pattern was simple: he would carve away opportunities by insisting on caution or scarcity until she no longer recognized the shape of hope.

Friends noticed the difference. At school, Ariel's best moments seemed to bloom: she solved equations quickly, she read worlds into poems, and she carried herself like a small statue of possibility. But at home, the statue would be put in a cupboard. She learned to smile with one arm while the other steadied a breaking thing. At nine, when she drew a bouquet for her father's birthday, he took it and set it on the shelf and told her she had wasted paper. The smallness of such dismissals accumulated like dust.

Sometimes the house would have a new face: men in collars who came for dinner, men whose names Ariel never tried to keep. They would come, respectability wrapped around them like second-hand suits. Her father wanted company that smelled like social proof. They would leave late, leaving Ariel awake and listening to the dull sounds of a radio dial turning, the lock clicking, the man's boots going down the porch. If she asked why they left, her father would say, "They have things to do. We must all keep moving." Ariel learned that people's departures are not always explained.

The most grievous thing was that her father's disappointment often had the tone of inevitability. He spoke to her as if she were the forecasted cloud that never cleared. Over the years, the sentence "You should be" became a chorus in his mouth: "You should be tougher," "you should be less dramatic," "you should understand." The "should" squeezed the life out of simple pleasures and replaced them with the ache of trying to match someone else's design.

Yet Ariel never stopped searching for light. In the afternoons, she would take herself to the small community library, hiding between stacks of narrative and science, inhaling other people's stories until her mind became crowded with characters who could do things she had not yet dared to dream. She remembered how her mother used to trace letters with a finger and make the sounds of them like soft charms. Ariel practiced that alone. She read to no one. She formed sentences that were hers alone.

At eleven, when her father's temper tightened over a missing tin of tomatoes and he called her "careless" in front of neighbors, something in Ariel hardened. It was not the brittle armor of compliance, but a slow, small resolve: to survive without becoming the shape of his disapproval. She began to wonder about leaving-not in the abstract, but as a plan with a sequence and a map. In the quiet of the night, Ariel assembled lists like prayers: schools that might accept older children, people who might look kindly on a quiet girl with numbers and poems.

His anger never became physical; it did not need to. Words can fracture a heart as well, and sometimes Ariel would find herself counting the ways he had said "not enough" and stitching them into a small tally in the inside of her mind. She learned to split herself: the part that obeyed, the part that recorded, the part that skimmed the future for exits.