Chapter 1

The crystal glasses were set. The single white rose, Liam' s favorite, sat in a thin vase in the center of the table. I smoothed down the front of my dress, my hand lingering for a moment over my still-flat stomach.

Ten years.

A decade of my life, poured into one person.

Tonight was our tenth anniversary. I had a surprise for him. The two thin blue lines on the test stick I' d stared at this morning were a promise, a future I had built for us, piece by piece.

My phone buzzed on the table. It wasn' t Liam. It was a notification from Instagram. A live video from Chloe.

My breath caught.

Chloe. His former muse. The ghost that never really left our home.

I tapped the screen. The video was shaky, loud with the roar of engines and shouting. It was the old abandoned industrial park by the docks. Illegal street racing.

And then I saw him.

Liam.

He was leaning against his souped-up vintage Mustang, a cigarette hanging from his lips. Chloe was next to him, her arm looped through his, her head on his shoulder. She held the phone up, her face filling the screen.

"Look who I've got with me," she purred, her voice dripping with fake sweetness. "The one and only Liam, my favorite artist. He said he' d win this race for me. Isn't he the best?"

Her eyes, cold and sharp, seemed to look right through the screen at me.

"Some people just spend their lives cleaning up messes, you know? But then there are people like us. We make the beautiful messes."

The comments flooded the screen. Hearts. Fire emojis. People cheering them on.

My world tilted. The beautiful dinner, the white rose, the secret tucked inside me-it all felt like a joke. A decade of patience, of therapy sessions, of late-night talks, of pulling him back from the edge again and again, and for what?

To watch him risk his life for the same woman who broke him in the first place.

The phone slipped from my hand and clattered onto the hardwood floor. I didn' t pick it up.

I walked slowly to the bathroom, my movements stiff. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My face was pale. The woman staring back at me looked tired. So incredibly tired.

I opened the cabinet, my hand steady. I found the number for the clinic I had researched weeks ago, a 'just in case' measure I had hoped I would never need.

I made the call. My voice was calm, detached. I scheduled an appointment for the next morning.

The tiny, budding life inside me, the future I had dreamed of, was a sacrifice I had to make. I couldn't bring a child into this. Not into this lie.

It was hours later when Liam finally came home. The front door opened and closed softly. He smelled of gasoline, cheap beer, and Chloe' s cloying perfume.

He found me on the sofa, staring at the blank television screen.

"Ava," he whispered, his voice rough. He knelt in front of me, trying to take my hands. "I'm so sorry, baby. I messed up."

I pulled my hands away. I saw the faint lipstick smudge on his collar, a mark that wasn't mine. It was a shade of red Chloe always wore. A smear of victory.

"Chloe was just feeling down," he started, the old, familiar excuses already forming on his lips. "She's been going through a lot. You know how she is. She gets these ideas in her head, and she just needs someone..."

He trailed off, looking at my blank face.

"She' s just fragile, Ava. She needs me."

I didn' t say a word. I just stared at him.

Fragile? I thought of the ten years of his fragility I had carried. The panic attacks. The drinking. The bouts of depression where he couldn't leave his bed for a week. The times I held him while he cried about being abandoned by his parents, by Chloe, by everyone.

He once promised me, his eyes full of tears and sincerity, "You are my anchor, Ava. You are my home. I will never let another storm pull me away from you."

That promise now felt like ash in my mouth. He wasn't in a storm. He was chasing one.