Chapter 2 2

DONOVAN's Pov

The scent of fresh earth and wild grass still clung to me as I shifted back into human form.

The run had done nothing to ease the weight pressing on my chest.

The First shifting Ritual of the young wolves is going on but as usual, I've got no business there.

My bare feet dragged across the wooden floor of my room as I reached for the towel near the bed, wiping the sweat from my face.

The air inside was too still, quiet, just like my life. I leaned against the edge of the bed, catching my breath.

The ache in my chest was there, gnawing at me with every beat of my heart.

My reflection in the mirror caught my eye, for a moment, I stared. My dark hair was damp, messy from the transformation. My eyes looks sunken, hollow, and tired

"Enough" my wolf, Hunter growled in my head, sharp and impatient. "Stop thinking about it".

I sighed, rubbing a hand across my jaw. "I'm not thinking about anything," I muttered, though the lie tasted bitter on my tongue.

"I'm your wolf, and I know every single thing on your mind" he snapped, "You're thinking about her.."

I turned away from the mirror, pacing toward the window. The moon hung low in the sky, casting a pale glow across the forest beyond.

"What do you want me to do?" I asked quietly, my voice trembling. "Forget? Pretend it never happened? Pretend she doesn't exist? Pretend like we never felt her presence two different times before she disappeared before I could find her?"

"Who told you what we felt was a mate bond? stop torturing yourself over something you can't prove.."

"Enough," I snapped, my voice rising as frustration boiled over. "I felt her,.... but I'm afraid she's probably gone...maybe even dead" I shrugged.

Sadness filled my heart as I talked...I've been looking for my mate since I was 18, but the 5 years of searching were in vain.

Just a year ago, during my tour in the pack..I felt that undeniable feeling, but before I could figure out what it was, I could not find her.

"Don't say it." The wolf's growl vibrated through me, low. "Our mate cannot be dead, And you're the Alpha. You shouldn't crumble like this."

I scoffed, shaking my head as I resumed the pacing room. "Alpha... Right? Because being Alpha means so much when you've lost everything." I said remembering my parents and little brother who got killed during the Blood moon attack..

An attack that changed everything for me.

It became a memory I'll never forget. Still fresh in my brain like it happened yesterday.

"You haven't lost everything," Hunter retorted. "You're just losing control, Stop acting like you're the only one who's ever suffered. You're pathetic right now, Get a grip."

My fists clenched at my sides, anger rising in my chest. "You're unbearable, you know that?"

"And you're wallowing like a pup" he shot back. "This pity party you are trying to create isn't solving anything.."

I leaned against the wall, my head resting against the cool wood as I closed my eyes.

Silence fell between us, thick and almost suffocating, and for a moment, I thought I might lose myself completely to the memories of my family coming back to me.

But then another feeling crept in. It started as a low heat, barely noticeable at first, until it spread through me like wildfire.

My chest tightened, my breath quickened, and I groaned, slamming a fist against the wall.

"Don't even think about it," Hunter warned, his tone dropping dangerously.

"Shut up," I hissed, grabbing my phone from the bedside table.

"This won't fix anything," he pressed. "You'll regret it, you always do...you're cheating on our mate before we even meet her..Don't ignore me Donovan..."

Ignoring him, I scrolled through my contacts until I found the number I needed. The phone rang twice before Ethan picked up.

"Alpha?" His voice was cautious

I didn't bother with pleasantries. "Send someone over," I said bluntly.

"Someone?" he asked, "You mean..."

"Yes," I interrupted. My patience was razor-thin now. "Just do it."

"Alpha, you know this isn't..."

"Ethan," I growled, my voice dropping into a warning tone. "Don't make me repeat myself."

He sighed heavily "Alright. I'll take care of it."

The call ended, and I dropped the phone onto the bed. The silence returned, pressing down on me like a weight.

"You're an idiot , "my wolf muttered, his words dripping with disgust

"Maybe," I muttered back, lying down and staring up at the ceiling. "But at least I won't be alone tonight."

"Really? In fact, give them control.." Hunter asked.

"Never...go to sleep you've done enough"

"You're one big asshole..." Hunter huffed, withdrawing into the back of my mind, but his presence lingered.

I closed my eyes, knowing full well that his words were right.

This wouldn't solve anything. It never did. But for now, I didn't care. I just needed something..anything..to make the ache go away.

Even if it was temporary..

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I moaned as the sound of skin slamming against each other filled the air. There she was on my bed with her ass raised up like the slut she is.

I don't fuck a girl twice but Valerie has this special grace.. she's my favourite slut...

I withdrew my dick from her pussy and sat on a couch close to my bed...she knew what next to do..Her lips wrapped around my dick and.

Ohh moon goddess

She was so good at giving a blowjob, her tongue was drawing circles on my cap before she took 6 inches out of my 12 inches long dick in her throat.

"Shit..." I groaned as I let the pleasure take full control in my system.

I want more.

I need more.

I grabbed a fistful of her long hair with both hands and deepthroated my dick with her mouth.

She was struggling to take a break to breathe but I kept fucking my dick with her mouth...I finally let go of her giving her few minutes to breathe.

I lifted her off the ground and pinned her against the wall, thrusting in and out of her wet pussy.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhh" she gave a loud moan.

I brought her down and she immediately held the arm of my couch, shooting her butt out, spitting in her asshole

I inserted my dick into the tight hole that immediately hugged my dick tightly....

"Oh Alpha Donovan .." She moaned my name....

That's it...I love it when this bitch screams my name.

I pulled her hair backwards making her back arch more than it has ever done.

My pace became faster and deeper which each thrust accompanied with a loud and hard spank on her ass.

She started crying in pain but I don't give a fuck...I continued...and that moment came...my toes started curling...my whole body was shaking...I quickly pulled out and...

....I felt the huge gush of sperm rush out of my dick....the bitch who was on her knees opened up her mouth and I shot every single string in it...

"Damn that was so good Alpha" She smiled at me but I didn't say anything.

I walked into the bathroom feeling satisfied but deep down.... something was wrong.

What could it be?