Chapter 5 Unrequited Love

LYRON

" I didn't think this would happen," I cried.

" I told you before to kill whatever feelings you had for him and you went ahead to develop it," Zara was annoyed I knew. " So what are you going to do? You can just abort it you know," she reminded.

Three months had passed since I and Amil had sex when our rut and heat clashed. I had signed the contract after the three days of non-stop sex and Amil had become a lot nicer to me. He was more considerate of my feelings and opinions and would even let me throw tantrums - it was as though we were dating but I only came to realize that I was the one deluding myself after his engagement to Skylar, a top model and the only daughter of a well known investor was announced.

Even after his engagement was announced, we still kept having sex and he would always say the sweetest things to me afterwards while I was completely shattered inside. Still, I was happy to see that he wasn't interested in his fiancee and kept hoping that he would realize that I loved him but seeing him in constant interviews with Skylar about their engagement and having to watch them act lovey-dovey was sickening.

" I don't know what I want to do," I continued to cry. " Don't you think I should tell him? If I tell him and he accepts it, couldn't that lead to him liking m..." Zara slapped me before I could finish what I had to say.

" Are you crazy?! Have you not heard a single word I've been saying?" She yelled at me. It was the first time she had hit me or yelled at me.

" Did you..."

" Yes, I bloody did because you seem to have a screw missing," she snapped. " He treats you like his boy toy and here you are simping over him. Do you not realize that he doesn't love you?"

" Don't say things like that," I sniffled. " He's not as bad as you think," I defended him.

" How did you end up this hopelessly in love with someone who doesn't even love you?" She was more concerned than angry. " Fine, let's do this since you don't seem to listen to me. I want you to tell Amil how you really feel and ask him if he feels the same. If he does then, you can keep clinging on to him but if he doesn't, you'd have to cut all ties with him," she suggested and I accepted.

Once I calmed down, I went over to Amil's house to ask him directly. I was nervous and worried enough to turn back but I wanted to know as well how he really felt.

Entering the passcode, I entered into his penthouse. I froze in my tracks as I walked in on Amil making out with Skylar in the living room. It felt like the entire house was spinning and I felt tears gather in my eyes but why was I sad? They were engaged and this much was to be expected but yet I felt betrayed.

" Thank goodness you're here, Lyron," Amil sighed in relief as he stood up to meet me. " We haven't done it in four days now due to work, should we do it tonight?" He asked right in front of his fiancee.

" How can you say this while she's here?" I muttered with my eyes fixed to the floor.

" It's your fault for making me not to be able to enjoy sex with any other person. I don't plan on letting you go even when I get married," he smirked.

" Babe!" Skylar yelled.

" Oh, shut it. Don't act like we're close or something. I don't even love you, it's simply an arranged marriage and my family never said I couldn't cheat," he responded.

" You asshole! I'm through with this," she stood up in anger. " I'll tell my father to call it off , farewell," she walked out of the house.

" Your loss," he shrugged as she left. " Back to what we were saying, how about we do it now since she has gone?" He said groping my butt. I slapped his hand away.

" I came here to ask you something, Amil," I cut to the chase.

" Fine, what is it? Hurry up so we can get down to business," he groaned as he sat down.

" Do you have feelings for me?" I wasn't going to be at around the bush.

" What?"

" I like you, no... I love you, Amil and I want to know if you feel the same way about me," I confessed to him.

" What in the bloody hell are you talking about? You're joking right?" He laughed. I didn't answer him - there was no need to.

" So you're being serious right now?" He asked rhetorically after I chose not to answer him. " Did you really convince yourself that I had feelings for you just because we had sex?" He scoffed.

I felt a mix of anger, sadness and hatred at his words. I clenched my fist and bit down on my lip to stop myself from crying.

" Did you get confused because I took your first time? I heard people usually get attached to those who took their first times," he sighed like everything from my emotions to this conversation was a burden.

" Not even a little bit?" I wanted to desperately hold on to something.

" Why are you being so clingy? It's annoying," he glared at me. " Let's get something straight. I don't have any romantic feeling towards you not even in the slightest. We're simply sex partners and I think I made that clear with the contract," he was blunt. I could feel the tears I had been holding back escaping my eyes.

" I can't do this anymore," I mumbled between sobs. " I want to quit," I said out loud to him.

" What did you say?" He seemed surprised and angry by my reaction.

" I quit!" I yelled, my face covered in tears. " If you need a reason then just know I can't keep working for you after what just happened today," I stated.

" You're quiting just because I didn't fulfill your delusions of being in love with you?!" He was pissed.

" Yes, I'm pathetic so you don't have to say it but whatever I choose to do is my business not yours," I pointed fingers. " I hope we never meet again," I said as I walked out of his house completely broke. Walking out of the building, I called Zara.

" Lyron?"

" Come pick me up because I don't know what I might do if you don't stop me," I cried over the phone.

Amil wasn't my first love and neither was this the first time a relationship hasn't worked out for me but this was the first time I had felt this wrecked because I loved someone. This hurt even more than being abandoned by my parents.

If I had known that I would hurt so bad, I never would have fallen in love with Amil in the first place.