Chapter 5 Five

Selene's POV

Aside from the fact that being in that intimate position with my murderer, brought a whole lot of negative memories to my head; That very position where I could practically feel his breath was the closest I had gotten to any man in all my life as far as I can remember.

And so, you could see another reason, aside from having disliked him for murdering me; why I had wanted to yank myself away from his hold, but I couldn't.

Even though this was me trying so hard to blend in my new self entirely without risking my life.

I just have this strong feeling that the two of us couldn't be any more than two parallel lines that can never meet.

Still on it, he wrapped me in his Alpha-sized body, and I wouldn't lie that it felt way more comfy than I had envisaged, even though the other part of me grumbles against it in my head.

"I hope you are okay now?"

His voice came like a gentle whisper just next to my ears, and that was just way too soothing and calming to my soul, as I never expected the Alpha Kieran I had known to be this calm for any reason.

"Yes...yes. I am...am fine." I stuttered, but then still tried to maintain this calmness that was a total contrast to what anyone could sense from the way I just spoke.

"Thank you so much for coming through." I added.

"I wouldn't know the plans of the attackers before you got in."

"You don't need to mention it; it's my duty to protect you and the pack in general. But then, I know that you aren't so relaxed yet because of the attackers, but I promise you that it won't repeat itself again."

He must have sensed the quivering in my tone of voice.

"Thank you, my Alpha. The most important thing to me is that you saved me and that you are here now."

This wasn't my personality to fake as if I was really enjoying his company, but now fate wants to force me against my own wish and wants me to swallow it hard like I had no choice.

But then, at this point, I had no choice but to go with the flow.

Just immediately, my thought flashed to the journal I must have carelessly dropped on the floor somewhere in the room, and my heart sank as I wouldn't want Alpha Kieran to know about it all.

You know, that must have been Raven's little secret that she must have kept away from everyone in there, which Kieran, her supposed Alpha, wasn't an exception.

Exposing the journal might simply mean one thing, which is putting my life at risk; who knows?

I used my foresight to search the room for the journal around where my eyes could reach, but it seemed there was no sight of it coming forth.

"Oh shit!" I mumbled inwardly that I could barely hear myself.

"What's that?" He questioned.

Oh, mine. How could I possibly forget that werewolves have heightened senses of hearing, let alone an alpha who is likely to be at an advantage over all werewolves in the pack in all ramifications?

"I guess that you are still having little flashbacks about what must have happened, and I suggest that you follow me to my chamber till the memory clears out of your head.

To help with that, I would get the pack maids to clean up this place and also have the whole chamber rearranged. I think that would go a long way to help you forget what has happened. I can't have you live in fear in my own pack." He growled, leaving no room for negotiation.

I believe this wasn't a nice time to counter his words, and so I let his decision be final.

"For now, let's go to my chambers so I can help you to relax your nerves."

He said again and let loose of his tender grip he had on me earlier.

He dragged me alongside to follow in suit just right behind him.

Just as we were about to leave my room chamber, I abruptly sighted the journal just at the corner of the room.

I believe I couldn't search for it very well at first when I used my foresight, as that wasn't enough to look around all over the room.

Thank goodness that Alpha Kieran didn't take note of it, but now the thought of how exactly I would be able to move it away from that position so that he wouldn't notice it was the next, but nothing was coming to my head.

Nevertheless, if I want to have my way, I always find a way to. Just then, an idea popped into my mind because I had to do something real quick, as I couldn't determine the fate of the journal that was carelessly dropped on the floor.

Just when I got to the closest spot where I could reach for the journal, I hastily slipped my hands off his palm, letting out a sound, "Ouch!" like I had encountered some difficulty in walking.

Simultaneously, I kicked the journal to a nearby wooden couch, and in a split second, started rubbing my left leg profusely like my life depended on it. I felt a relief off my heart as I knew the journal was safe now and I could come back for it later.

"Sorry about your leg. I will get the human doctor to look into it later." He said with darkened eyes.

"You know what, I wouldn't mind carrying you to my chambers in case you can't walk very well."

Just before I could object to his request that seemed to be more of a concrete statement, he already lifted my legs above the floor with both hands, had one of my arms curled around his neck, and we both left the room.

I wouldn't say why he has been unnecessarily nice towards me because this was far-fetched from the Alpha whom I think I know.

At this point, I couldn't help but think that Alpha Kieran might be putting up a show so that I wouldn't suspect a thing, as I still felt I wasn't safe with him.

I have every reason to think that he planned out everything that just happened with regards to the attack, and it would take a whole lot to prove that he didn't.

But I wouldn't lie about the feeling of an unexpected pull towards him the moment I was enclosed in his arms.

I felt this emotional connection so intense that it wants to take my breath away.

There is no fact that would dispute the urge I try so hard to do away with whatsoever feeling that is trying to grow between us.

I don't trust this man that had my arms around his neck for anything.