Chapter 3 The voice

I walked slowly in the park and hummed slowly; it was a very beautiful day; children were playing with their parents, and some couples were romancing; it was cute to watch but very embarking when you get caught staring.

I chuckled a little and walked to a swing, It was empty and beside me was a child who was being singed by her parent. She looks so cute, hi !! I told her, and she smiled back at me.

Ahw, she is so precious and cute, I tell the mother !! Oh, everyone says that; I am here nanny, the woman says to me abruptly.

Oh, my smile drifted a little; I thought she was yours, I told her truthfully. Everyone says that, but she isn't I am just ts so close to this little precious girl. She replied with amusement.

You are so beautiful, she commented and I looked away shyly. Thanks, I tell her with a kind smile. She chuckled and said, "Well, I didn't think that you would be shy getting a compliment. "

I am not used to it; I tell her truthfully, " You are such a kind soul, she commented from nowhere ." I looked at her face and she gave me a small smile.

"I am sorry!! I judged too quickly," it's fine I told her and gave her a reassuring smile. Quickly? What is this girl talking about, it felt weird when she said that.

"What's her name ?" I wanted to make these small little comments to her to erase the awkwardness, her name is Malia !! Wow, that's cute. It fits her perfectly well, I replied, trying to carry on our conversation.

"Malia, say hi !!" The woman said to her, "Hi! " she said to me shyly. Aww !! You are so cute !! I commented to her and she replied boldly. " Thank you. "

You raised her well, I tell her. " She went silent,"

Can I play with her? I ask her feeling a little excited, " Sure !!" I will be just here watching. She says,

I stood up from the swing and carried her, " Malia !! What's your favourite food !!" Ice-cream!! She replied instantly.

That's not food !! With a playful frown covering my face, she giggled. You look like the little princess that I saw on my TV, she is beautiful, just like you. She commented.

Aww baby, then I will be your real-life princess, okay !? I ask her, "Yay!!" She clapped her hands.

Nanney!! Nanney!! She is my princess !! She is my princess !! She squealed and I giggled.

We played some more, and after a few hours, her caretaker announced that they had to leave. Okay!! I told her and gave Malia a small wave; It was weird that I felt something for this kid. Either way, my day went well.

I hope to see you soon, I told her and hugged her Nanney as if I had known her way long before: take care of that sweet pineapple. Ewww !! I am not a pineapple, Malia commented with a small frown feigning hurt.

My heart melted looking at this little, "Okay, Malia, you are not !! You are as beautiful as a lily flower," yay!! She squealed and kissed me on my cheek. Thank you, princess;

She squealed, and I smiled, shaking my head, Bye! I tell the nanny. Oh, by the way, my name is Amelia, mine is Terry.

" Nice to meet you," likewise I replied and soon I saw them descending from where I was standing.

I had so much fun today; I guess it's time to go back home.

I smiled a little when I saw that the little girl dropped her little doggy doll," I took it on the ground and promised myself that I was going to give it back when I saw her. "

You met such a nice soul, " You are making progress !!" I heard the same voice in my head telling me,

My heartbeat went from seventy rate pounds in a minute to countless pounds; I could feel my heart beating through my ears and my palms !! A wave of dizziness passed through my head.

I refuse to be weak and go unconscious, I refuse to be timid, I am brave, I can fight this .. Whatever this illusion is,

What's happening!!? Wh ..who are are you !!? I found myself shaking and asking the voice which I heard again in my head.

But again, I heard nothing!! I reassured myself and swallowed the bitterness like always, I reached for a tree and calmed.

" Whatever that is inside my head, I swear I am going to fight you myself!!" I murmured and gritted my teeth; maybe Mom sees me differently because I am truly weak and can't fight my demons. But I swear over my mom's love and my dad's carelessness, I am going to make sure I beat the shit out of this stupid thing inside my head.

By hook or crook, I composed myself and went inside my car; I am not allowed to drive, but who cares !! " I want to prove to them that I am normal just like them!!"

And I can do anything without anyone's help; let's do this, girl!!" I cheered up myself. I turned the radio on, switching my favourite music, and soon I started driving without a care.

I know my parents are going to be mad and are looking for me at the moment, but I just want to show them that I am a big girl and I can take care of whatever comes neither from north or east nor, south to west.

I am prepared,

" So am I!!" I heard the voice in my head again; I didn't stop because I was on the road, and my heart was beating but not erratically.

If this stupid illusion voice can make me shudder, why can't I use my most important tool, which is my brain, to protect myself and smile all this shit in one place of my fucking brain?

I am not a psychopath !! I yelled when the music was high in my car. I wanted to waste myself and pretend like everything was alright, but will everything be alright?

Or is this just the calm before the storm?

Fuck you, you fucking mysterious voice inside my fucking head !! I yelled.

Fuck you too !! Do you think this is easy for me to be trapped inside your fucking head !! You dumbo!!

I froze ... what in the hell has just happened? ... wha..wait !!

Oh my god!! I mumbled, knowing I wasn't hallucinating; a real fucking voice was inside my fucking head, I was fucking trapped, and it was all real; I could feel my hands shaking and my body sweating profusely from nowhere.

I couldn't control my car as I felt my brakes screech and my whole body froze a thousand times; I could feel my car losing control, and in front of me was a tree welcoming me to the darkness...

Or maybe not !!