Chapter 3 Episode 3

Alicia pov

I woke up the next morning feeling the chills, the window was wildly open and so was the door which had been open all night. I could barely feel my legs as I laid on the cold floor, it was as if blood had stopped flowing to that region and it felt heavy.

Part of my dress was still wet like I had been crying in my sleep.

I know it was kind of wrong but being in a room that I had once shared with John made me miss him.

NO, I should be angry about it, I should get mad, he left me at our wedding without a word.

Barely able to stand up, I stumbled back to the ground in pain, my whole body was in pain but it wasn't as painful as what my heart was going through at the moment.

I had never been so heartbroken in my life, it felt so real like I could rip my heart out and fix it myself but I couldn't do that otherwise I would be dead, maybe it was because I had dedicated my whole life to one man, all I had ever dreamed of was him and being with him that it hurt so much.

He was the love of my life.

Tears began to roll down my eyes and I refused to stop them, I thought if I let them all out then my heart wouldn't ache as much as it is now, I could feel it crushing against the thick walls of my body hoping for something to set him free from all that pain.

Taking a step at a time, I slowly stood up facing the empty room I was in, my head was hung low like I was embarrassed.

Ofcourse I was ashamed, I was a bride who was abandoned at her wedding and is now in her fiancée's room crying.

I used to be the talk of the town because I was marrying my high school crush of which everyone thought we would never be together but I proved them wrong when we announced the wedding.

Everyone complimented me for being able to get married to him but now it was different, they were all mocking me. It was as if I could hear the whispers, the mean things, the mocking things they were saying about me.

"You deserve to die" I could hear a whisper within me.

"There is nothing to live for, you cannot handle the shame" the voice spoke again and I was more convinced. After what had happened to me, I was nowhere near being strong, I had no one to lean on. The one person I thought would always be there for me was actually the one who left me.

I ran out the room almost tripping down the stairs, I could hear a tear from my dress but that was not my concern, I pulled the door knob to the door and walked outside.

I found my car outside and realized that my parents left it there for me.

It was a way of them telling me to 'Come Home' but I couldn't do that. I couldn't face them after I had humiliated the family, I was a lost cause and I didn't deserve to live anymore.

"Hey, isn't that he bride he abandoned" I heard a neighbor say and he didn't care if I had heard it or not.

I got into the car in speed wishing and hoping that I would get into an accident that something would kill me at a blow but it was as if fate was against me until I arrived at my usual hiking spot.

More like it was OUR USUAL HIKING SPOT, stepping out of the car, there was so many glances on me. I guess I was the crazy lady who went hiking in a wedding dress, as I took steps up, I was reminded of memories of John and I. The little kisses we had, the holding hands, and the races, they were all fond memories that I cherished so much.

Finally making it to the top of the cliff,

"Yes baby" the screams John would make when he had made it to the top filled my head. I didn't know when I began smiling but I knew I looked like witch giggling at the top of the cliff in her wedding dress. I wanted to cherish those memories but at the same time I wanted John to disappear from my memories for hurting me this much.

In a few minutes the scenery was empty and I couldn't find anyone,

'Ofcourse there would be no one to stop me when I want to take my life' I muttered to myself. Was this earth's way of telling me I was done for.

I took steps moving closer to the edge of the cliff, my life was over, everything about me was over. Looking down I could barely see the ground because of the great height and how dark it was.

Was I really going to do this?.

I thought once again.

"Loser, pathetic sorry bitch" the voice came again and I felt so sorry about myself. Standing there for minutes, I thought about how this used to be my happy place with John and now it was going to be a place where I die.

"Will he even feel guilty knowing that I died at out favorite spot?" I questioned once again.

"Do it and find out?" the voice whispered.

"Do you need a push" a voice said from behind me.

"No" I replied in haste.

Then I paused, that wasn't my inside voice, that was an actual voice. Who could dare to ask such a question to a person who was about to die. I knew I was supposed to mind my business and think about jumping off but I had to see.

I turned back and was met with a pale green eyes staring intensely at me, when the sun shone on him for a second and I got a glimpse of his face, I was shocked . I had never beheld such beauty before. His long black hair breezing in the wind while mine was just still greasy, maybe a little itchy.

I could see his skin from the unbottoned portion of his shirt and I could tell that his skin was soft and super silky.

'Was I checking a man out when I was about to die?" I thought to myself and shook my head.

It was as if his eyes were calling me and I raised mine to meet his, his stare made my body burn, could he really see through my dress?, has my constant tears made my dress transparent?, he kept staring at me like I was this petite and fascinating thing before him.

I pulled myself together and turned forward, I was here to kill myself and not check him out.

After five minutes, I could still feel a stare on my body, I turned back and saw him still standing at the same spot folding his arms. Was he watching to see if I would do it?,

He must be really crazy.

Not able to take the staring anymore, I open my lips and uttered something.

"Do you mind?" I asked for the privacy that i very much deserved. He looked at me as though telling me that I wouldn't do it and then walked away in a path that I had never seen anyone go down before.

I never even thought that path existed, I watched him disappear and felt like I should check that path out for myself, so I took one step backwards.

As I followed the path he had used earlier, it got darker as I wandered until I was met with a dark cave.

"Please Boss, please don't kill me" I heard a voice and I quickly hid behind a tree. I could vaguely see a man kneeling in front of another man, I could recognise the man standing in front of him with a gun to his head, it was the man from earlier.

"What is going on?" I asked myself.

"I swear that I didn't betray you" the man kept on pleading, he held unto his shoes crying his heart out, for a minute, I felt his pain, I could see myself begging my mother-in-law but of course she would push me to the side like a trash doll.

"You have the guts to lie to my face" the man with the green eyes responded.

I know I was taking pity on the man on his knees but he suddenly wiped his eyes and began to smile.

"I thought you would fall for that, well I guess I am not a good actor afterall" he answered and got on his feet cleaning himself up.

"Well wait are you waiting for? I know you cannot kill me, I am the closest you have to a family. You cannot kill what is left of your family and if you tried, you know the consequences of what would happen.

So go ahead, pull the trigger, I would like to see you try" he continued, provoking the man with the gun.

His choice of words made him aim the gun closer to his head, I got so scared that he might shoot that I began praying for the man's life.

"I knew you couldn't hurt me" the young man uttered and waltzed away.

"Bang" I heard and I screamed in shock. I watched the man drop to the ground dead after he got a hole in his head.

I couldn't move as I felt my hand were stuck together and my feet couldn't move either.

"He shot him" I muttered to myself shaking my head, why did I have to stay to watch such a gruesome scene. I covered my lips and tried to raise my head up but the green-eye man was nowhere to be found.

"Could he have heard me?" I muttered to myself.

"You shouldn't be here" a voice said from behind me and I instantly froze. I didn't need to turn to see who it was.

"Look at me" he ordered, his voice domineering as he spoke different from what I heard before.

I shook my head refusing to look at him when he twisted my head in force, I was now face to face with him.

"What do I do with you?" he asked raising the gun, when I saw the deadly weapon that could take one's life, I couldn't think of anything else.

"You killed him" I whispered and quickly covered my mouth to avoid a reaction from him but who was I kidding, he heard me and his eyes darkened before me.

"You must be blabber mouth, I guess I can't let you go now" he said and before I knew it, I was knocked in the head with the gun.

A few minutes later, I could see myself floating in the air but I could see past the black round shaped buttocks moving in front of me.

"Great ass" I...