Chapter 5 Alpha voice

ALICE POV:

My chest goes hard, as though my body is slowly turning into stone. I look up at Alpha Diamond, blinking rapidly and trying hard to focus despite the growing pain in my heart, desperately wishing I heard wrong.

But Alpha Diamond just stares down at me.

"I can't leave," I tell him, my lips barely moving. In fact, my face feels numb. "I... this is the only home I know."

His face stays stoic. Unmoved. 'It doesn't matter. Moonlight Grove is the biggest pack next to ours, and I lost their loyalty.

I shake my head. "I did it for you. I spoke for you. When no one understood you, I did. And I made sure everyone else did too. The only reason I talked to Tristan is because I wanted him to punish me for taking you away. Why are you doing this to me?"

I take a step closer to him, and he steps back, determined to keep the distance between us. Eventually, he turns away from me like he can't bear to look me in the eye. At first, I think that it's just because he can't stand to look at me, but the longer we stand here, the more I understand that it's because he doesn't want me to see something.

"Tell me," I urged him. "What's the problem? You know it's not my fault."

'It doesn't matter,' he finally says. 'It has to end here. I'm sorry, Alice.'

The finality in his tone breaks what's remaining in my heart. My breath hitches in my throat and I find myself opening and closing my mouth, struggling to find the right words to tell him that I don't want to go, that I shouldn't. But nothing comes to mind. For the first time in my life, I don't know what to say.

He turns around to leave, and every fiber of my being tells me to come after him. Maybe even to stop him. But my body is already frozen in place. The only thing I can do is watch him leave. He walks back to the palace, and I stand outside for I don't know how long. Snow rains down on me, flocking on my hair and my lashes. I don't know what I'm waiting for, to be honest.

Am I expecting him to come back and retract his words? Because a part of me definitely wishes he would. A bigger part of me knows he won't.

When I see a figure approaching, I immediately think that it's Alpha Diamond, coming back to take back what he said. It's hard to see in the snow, so I try to meet him halfway. But it's only Gamma Kiernan. His golden blond hair shimmers in the dim light as he peers at me.

"Alice? What are you doing out here in the cold? It's the start of the Solstice Festival tomorrow, you should be preparing with the rest of the staff."

I almost say that I'll be on it, but the only thing that comes out of my mouth is, "I don't work for the pack anymore, Gamma. I am to leave tomorrow, as ordered by Alpha Diamond."

"What?" His expression darkens. "We can't afford to kick out more staff now, not with everyone leaving because of the revolution...." He holds up a hand. "I will talk to him. Just get inside."

I follow his order, but every step back to the maid's quarters feels like a big hand digging into my insides and scooping everything out. By the time I get back to my room, I'm already empty. Empty enough to start packing everything I ever owned.

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DIAMOND POV:

Letting go of Alice is the right choice. It has to be. I should have known that it wasn't good news, the fact that she could hear me and I could hear her. The moment I felt that rush of affection for her when she tried to stand up to Tristan on my behalf, I knew that it would only be right to release her....

Or at least, this is what I keep saying to myself as I lay in bed, tossing and turning, staring at the moon through the window and replaying the moments of fascination and shame from tonight. I wish there was a way to erase them all. How long I lie there awake, I don't know. But the only reason I finally fall asleep is because my body gives way to exhaustion.

And soon, the dreams come. In my dream, I'm back beyond the borders of Moonlight Grove Pack. But this time, I'm alone. Carlos is not around. The Rogues aren't present either. The only thing in front of me is a frozen lake, shining like a mirror under the dark sky. And standing in the middle of the lake is a beautiful woman with stark white hair and gray eyes. Her skin is so pale that it's almost blue. Her dress is bright white, pearlescent and glowing, billowing in the air even in the absence of a breeze.

It's the Moon Goddess, and she's staring at me.

We haven't communicated before. She hasn't shown up in my dreams, but I've seen countless paintings of her before, and heard so many stories about her showing up in pivotal moments. Perhaps this is mine. My nerves jump, but I sink to my knees, my breath fogging up in front of me.

"Rise, my child," she says. Even though she's a deity, I still can't hear her voice. I can only read her lips.

"Dark times are ahead, and they loom closer and closer to you with every second that passes. Just tonight, you have suffered a great loss."

I don't get up. 'I have done my best. I protected the people-'

"Exactly," the Moon Goddess interjects, walking across the frozen lake with the water still moving underneath. Her feet aren't touching the ice. "That was your victory tonight, even with the parting of your ally. Your loss came much later."

'I'm afraid I don't understand,' I sign to her. 'The battle ended there.'

"No." She stops right in front of me, reaching out to touch my cheek. "You wished to find a way to expand your limits, and I gave it to you. But you pushed it away."

I stare at her, trying to decode what she means. I desperately want to make sense of it, to not waste the valuable time I have with her, but nothing is clicking.

"I put her on your path for a reason," she continues. "And you wanted none of it."

Suddenly, the Moon Goddess's face starts to change, morphing like molten wax until it forms a new set of features.

A face that is all too familiar.

Alice.

She starts to speak again, but this time, I hear her voice-Alice's voice-echoing in my head like a prophecy.

"I am the Siren, the Alpha's Voice, and I shall be heard."