Chapter 2 Find your happiness

After his argument with Ningsih. Makes Nada confident to look for Aziz. He actually wanted to know why Aziz had left him and his child for years without giving any news.

What made his heart ache even more was when he found and saw that his child had to be bullied because he didn't have a father.

Not only that, people often scold him. Accused of being a woman who brings bad luck and is an itchy widow who likes to tease other people's husbands.

Astaghfirullah.

That's the only word he often says. She felt that she had never seduced someone's husband. What exists is that he is always and always being bullied.

Currently, Nada is sitting daydreaming on the bed. While holding and looking at an old photo. The photo shows him, Aziz and Nazril--his child when he was one year old.

Drop by drop tears fell, wetting his eyes and cheeks.

"Mas, why don't you come home? Don't you miss me and Nazril? Don't you love me and Nazril anymore? Mas, do you know? For the past five years I've been suffering. Maybe I don't mind if people keep insulting me. "But... if you and Nazril are insulted, I'm not willing, I'm not sincere," he said with tears in his eyes.

Nada wiped her tears, that was enough. This wasn't the time for him to cry. She will prove to people that her husband is still alive, that his husband is still faithful. Maybe there was something that caused her husband not to come home and never give any news. And he must know why.

Accidentally, Ningsih saw what Nada was doing. As a mother, of course she felt sad about what happened to Nada.

Her anger and insistence on forgetting her husband are not solely because she doesn't care about Nada's feelings. In fact, Ningsih just wants Nada to get out of her sadness because her husband left her.

With slow steps, Ningsih walked closer to Nada. He slowly sat beside Nada and hugged her tightly.

Nada knows very well who the person hugging her is, a hug that always makes Nada comfortable and protected.

"I'm sorry, son. I didn't mean to want anything bad to happen to your husband. I just want to open your mind so you can think rationally. I also want you to be happy, not always in a pool of sadness because you mourn your husband."

Ningsih then let go of his hug. He brought Nada's body so that he was face to face with her.

"If your happiness only lies in your husband. Go! Find your husband, mother blesses you." Ningsih said later.

Nada could no longer speak. Her intention to find the whereabouts of her beloved husband received the blessing of her mother. He was moved.

"Are you serious mom?" Nada asked.

Ningsih nodded with a big smile. "Serious mother, go! Find the source of your happiness."

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At around eleven o'clock at night, Nada, Nazril and Ningsih arrived at the port. At first Ningsih didn't want to take him to the port. However, he wanted to make sure that his children and grandchildren reached the port and wanted to let Nada and Nazril go.

When else will they meet? Ningsih is sure it will take a long time to find her daughter-in-law. Jakarta is a big city and it is not easy to find people there. It's like looking for a needle in a haystack. But, there's no harm in trying. At least your curiosity about the news of your child's husband can be a little quenched. Although the results will be disappointing. And with that, Nada must be willing to hide it, keep her longing in her heart.

The ship has started to pull over. This is a sign that they will soon be separated for an uncertain time. A flash of five years ago flashed in Nada's memory. How she had to be separated from her husband here, in this port.

Nada remembers well. In the past, her husband promised to come back and bring her, apparently, he never came back for five years.

'Sir, I still remember. This is where we parted ways. The ocean is a witness to our separation. And now the ocean will witness my departure to look for you in Jakarta'

"Ma'am, go, okay? Take care of yourself. And also please take care of our little ones. In Jakarta I will definitely miss you."

"Me too, sir. I can't be away from you and from today I have to get used to being without you."

"Nada!"

Ningsih's pat on Nada's shoulder brought him out of his thoughts. The glimpse of the image made his heart ache. He couldn't believe that the fate of his household would end in such a sad way. The crying tone immediately wiped it away.

"Yes, ma'am," said Nada to Ningsih.

"Mother can't give me anything. But take this with you if you really need to sell it." Ningsih took Nada's hand and then put the black box into Nada's hand.

Nada, who didn't understand, could only look at her mother full of questions.

"What is this, ma'am?" he asked Ningsih.

"This is mother's jewelry. This is your father's dowry, son."

"Nada doesn't want to take it. No need, ma'am. Don't sell. "That's from you," Nada handed the black box back.

"No! This for you. Take it, kid, who knows maybe you'll need it later."

"But, ma'am..."

"I don't use it, kid."

With a heavy heart, Nada took her mother's jewelry box. However, in his heart Nada promised that he would try his best not to sell the jewelry.

Ningsih then squatted down, aligning her body with Nazril, who currently looked sleepy. Nazril was leaning his head on his mother's body.

"Nazril, in Jakarta, don't bother mother, okay? You have to be a good boy."

Nazril, who had been holding back sleep, immediately opened his eyes wide.

"Yes, Grandma, Nazril promises to be a good child," answered Nazril while holding up his index finger as a sign of agreement.

"Good! Grandma's grandchildren are the best." Ningsih hugged Nazril and kissed him

Not long after, the sound of the ship was heard, which was a sign that the passengers had to immediately board the ship. Nada felt so heavy that she didn't even want to leave Ningsih. Nada hugged her tightly and cried in Ningsih's arms. Without realizing it, Ningsih started crying too. She has to accept Nada's departure for the sake of her love, in order to cure her longing for her husband.

Ningsih hopes that Nada can find Aziz's whereabouts. Whether he is still alive or has become a corpse. That's all Ningsih can do, pray. He also wants to see his only child find his happiness after being lost for five years somewhere.

"That's it, kid. "Hurry up and get up or you'll miss it," said Ningsih then opened her arms.

The tone was really sobbing sadly. "After Nada finds out about Mas Aziz, Nada will go home as soon as possible."

Ningsih nodded and smiled broadly. "Yes, mother will always wait for you."

Nada left, holding Nazril's hand and holding the bag containing her clothes in the other. Nada's tears wouldn't stop all this time, they felt heavy, very heavy.

'Oh Allah, please protect mother,' thought Nada.

'Oh Allah, I hope that what Nada wants can come true,' thought Ningsih.

Nada and Ningsih both thought to each other, praying for the best for both of them.