Chapter 4 04. She's Back

Han Ara is a beautiful and cheerful girl who loves to do things that make others laugh, but unfortunately the accident she had one year ago had to take away all her happiness.

She is no longer the lively and energetic Han Ara, as her movements are now restricted by a wheelchair. She is no longer a woman who can freely associate with anyone.

Because of the accident, Ara was scorned, insulted and ridiculed by the people around him, and even worse by his own Eomma. Unfortunately, the accident also cost Appanya his life. Ara's biological father, Kim Seok Hwan.

That's what Seo could conclude with what happened a moment ago. Indeed, Ara did not explain more specifically, maybe there was something that Ara could not tell him so Seo did not insist.

Seo was even amazed by Ara's figure who was very strong to survive on the suffering that was clearly done by his own family.

After Ara's explanation about the incident, he asked Ara to take him to the last stop of the late Kim Seok Hwan, where Ara's Appanya was.

So here Seo was now, sitting motionless in front of a gravestone bearing Appa Ara's name.

Seo crouched down and placed a bunch of Lily flowers on it. Seo smiled as she wiped the mud off the tombstone.

Seo never thought that the person he respected so much died this quickly, just yesterday they were together, laughing together, without knowing the time. Indeed, no one knows death, we as servants of God can only prepare ourselves to always worship Him.

Before continuing his intention, Seo first looked to the side, where Ara was now. He smiled slightly, looking at Ara who never once looked up, only continued to look down.

Taking a breath, Seo determined that she had to take responsibility for her own words.

"Appa, let Seo propose to Appa's daughter to complete half of Seo's religion and keep Seo from committing sins that are displeasing to Him. Seo not only promises, but Seo will try to take care of Appa's daughter like Appa takes care of her and make her happy in the world hereafter. Appa, please allow it. Seo wants to marry Appa's daughter and make her Seo's wife. Seo wants to make her the only woman Seo loves for the rest of his life."

Seo let out a long breath. Although in his heart, Seo did not deny that he was very tight. It wasn't really his intention, why did he have to interfere in that matter, but then again Seo didn't want to make Ara hurt, it was enough that Seo had seen Eomma Ara's behavior which had gone too far.

Seo returned to face Ara who was crying silently, even though Ara had done his best to hide the tears, Seo still knew because he saw Ara's shoulders shaking violently. Really, Seo couldn't bear to see Ara like this. Seo wants Ara to be like before again.

Not wanting to be too awkward, Seo, who was already squatting in front of Ara, chose to make small talk first.

"How are you feeling? Does anything still hurt?"

Ara's chest still continued to rustle delicately. His heart was always racing. His feelings were always very difficult to control even if it was in between his silent cries.

Ara could hardly believe her eyes when she saw him standing right in front of her. Of course his feelings overflowed with happiness. A dozen years, Ara waited and waited for Seo's arrival, he missed him so much.

Ara was so nervous that his hands were shaking. Ara could only look down deeply, and shook his head in response to Seo's question.

Seo who saw Ara who was still awkward only responded with a small chuckle. "How do I look now? Let's give me a compliment, it impresses you, right?" Seo remembered the old Ara, a very jolly girl who often called him handsome even in public.

There was something that thrilled her heart, hearing Kak Seo's jokes again made her happy. Ara really missed that moment, their happy moment from high school to college level and had to be separated because of continuing their respective studies.

In his heart, Ara felt useless. Seeing Seo's current appearance, Ara could feel how successful Seo was. While looking at himself, he felt ashamed because he couldn't do anything, even in the past he had challenged Seo if he could succeed and become a doctor like his dream.

And, Ara also felt guilty. He should not have harbored feelings for Seo, hoping for Seo to be loved again. And in fact, Seo always said and considered himself only as a friend. So why is she proposing to him now, and also asking to meet Appa?

There were so many questions that arose in his mind. Even so, Ara could only hope that this was for the best.

"Cool... Sis!" Ara only gave Kak Seo a glance and then quickly looked down again before Kak Seo saw her face, which always turned red when she was around Kak Seo. She hoped he wouldn't see the blush of embarrassment and happiness on her face.

Seo nodded slowly, as she put a small smile on her lips. "It's cool, am I not very cool?"

It felt like the heart in his chest stopped beating so fast. Seo hyung was indeed a person who could make his heart beat above normal.

Ara was silent for a long time, not wanting to make Kak Seo wait for an answer she finally answered quietly, very softly. "Ka-kak, change the hairstyle!"

Seo chuckled at that as she pushed her bangs back. "Haha, I understand. Oh yeah, I missed you a lot. Can I see your face?"

Ara hesitated to obey Kak Seo's request, but after hearing Kak Seo's hopeful tone with a half-reluctant and nervous heart, Ara finally ventured to look up.

The blood flow in his body was getting more and more intense. Ara could not even pump her heart properly.

His face is truly enchanting to anyone who sees it, not to mention his politeness, his worship, his behavior. Kak Seo is like a complete package of the definition of the best male characteristics in the world. And seeing Kak Seo who was now smiling at him, made Ara marvel at his charisma.

"Finally an angel is looking at me too. Don't hide your beautiful face Ara, you have to show it understand? Especially in front of your future husband,"

Please anyone, Ara is unable to hold back this feeling of happiness, happiness that Ara has never felt again for a very long time Ara lost that feeling.

Her heart was so warm, there were thousands of butterflies flying in her stomach. Seeing a loved one smile at him made him a thousand times happier, even though he didn't know what that smile really meant. Is it just a greeting smile or does Kak Seo also have the same feelings as her because until now Ara still doesn't believe this.

"Stop teasing me sis!" Ara looked down in shame, she could tell the red tinge was already spreading across her face. She would be embarrassed if she continued like this in front of Kak Seo until she couldn't control the feeling herself.

"I'm grateful, I've found you. I'm happy!" Seo smiled slightly, very slightly. I don't know, it made him a little uncomfortable and a little tortured. Looking at Ara, she felt like looking at Asiyah. Why did it have to be like this, why was Asiyah too attached to her soul?

In her heart, Ara continued to call out,

"Don't look down at the man you love,"

Until finally Ara obeyed her heart and smiled at Seo's eyes, they stared at each other.

Ara really wanted to say like this, "Sis I am very grateful to be able to see you again, my plea that I always pray for is to ask you by my side again, even though he knows the fulfillment of his prayers seems far from possible. I don't know what God's plan is until we are brought together like this. Kak, I hope that this is indeed the best destiny for the answer to my prayers,"

But all of that could only flow in his heart. Ara didn't have the courage to say it directly to Kak Seo. She was too afraid.

"It's been a long time since I've seen your smile, from now on continue like that, always smile. Promise not to cry anymore,"

For the sake of everything Seo did miss the ginsul smile of a jolly Ara, it had been a long time since Seo had seen that happy smile. Although this time Ara smiled, but Seo could see that those eyes could not cover the sadness that Ara was experiencing.

Seeing Ara's residence, Seo moved his body, which was still squatting, to Ara's front. He looked deeply into Ara's sad eyes.

"We have spent many years as friends, sharing our joys and sorrows together. So now I want to take care of you until it is lawful for me to touch you and I want to say with all my soul in the name of Allah, the Most Compassionate, the Most Merciful. I want to make you my most beautiful jewelry that will one day be together sailing the ark of love towards His heaven, reaching His pleasure. So how about it, would you like to be my life companion, my friend?"

For God's sake, Ara couldn't stop her eyes from crying. She was deeply moved by the series of words that had such a great effect on her heart. She was so happy that she was speechless.

With a steady heart, throwing away her doubts, Ara finally said yes with a wide ginsul smile.

Ara also gazed at Appanya's final resting place, saying silently that she was very happy. A series of sentences flowed beautifully in her heart.

"Appa, thank you for appearing in my dream, he's back Appa, the man I love finally proposed to me in front of you, is Appa happy? Is Appa happy to see me happy too? Appa, can I cry loudly because of my happiness? I'm so grateful Appa, even I wish Appa was here, I really want to hug Appa with my happy laughter, just for a moment,"

As for Seo, after saying that, his heart became even more hesitant and uncomfortable. Believe me, Seo was still cursing himself for not being able to control his mouth.

For God's sake, he had to. But time moves on, doesn't it? Seo only hopes to forget Asiyah and try to love Ara. Even though that sounds... impossible.