Chapter 5 Chapter 5

Which was weird but not surprising because it always got like this when I'm around him. Since we were younger. I can't help it. It's not like I have a crush on him or anything. It's just his presence. It oozes power and makes me cower away. He looked up at him when he felt my presence and I just stop in my step and stare down at him. "I'm sorry. Am I in your usual seat?"he asked. His voice is deeper than I remembered. It always finds a way to surprise me. It was soft yet deep. Calming. His eyes glistened under the sun making it brighter the usual.

His eyes are hazel, with a ring of green and hint gold around the pupils. It's eyes were my favourite part of him. Not that I should ever have a favourite part of him. The fact is that he is the most beautiful man I have ever seen. His brown hair looks silky and framed his beautiful olive skin face, I always want to brush few strands of his forehead and away from his unforgettable eyes. I know I definitely sound like I have a crush on him but I don't. I'm not stupid even though many claim I am. He's out of my league. That's just a fact. It's not even about his looks, it's the fact that he's the future alpha. He cleared his throat and I remembered that he was talking to me. I shook my head to clear my thoughts away.

"Umm yes"I finally answered. I was so awkward. I felt bad that he even had to witness it.

"Sorry about that"he replies getting up but before I knew it, I was opening my mouth to stop him. Sometimes I just wanted to punch my mouth. "No it's okay. The bench is big enough for both of us" Great now I have to be in his presence longer than necessary. He gave me a smile that didn't reach his eyes and made space for me to sit. We both stared at our surroundings and not saying anything. It was quiet. Peaceful. Comforting. I have known Calvin, the future Alpha of redwood for years. He is my brother's best friend after all. I use to follow him and my brother everywhere but I haven't seen him around much in awhile.

If I'm being honest, we never truly had a conversation before nor did we ever sit beside each other like now. He had always kept himself to himself and I had done the same. He wasn't talkative and from what I could remember he had never been. My brother spoke enough for both of them. Calvin could say a lot using his eyes. He had never been rude to me or anyone in the pack. He was respectful and was liked by many. He is the only child yet he wasn't spoiled. He wasn't arrogant either from what I know of him. "Are you excited that you're going to be an Alpha soon" Why do I have to open my mouth for? We were sitting down in peace. Why did I have to start a conversation that I didn't really truly want to be part of?

Because you can feel the tension radiating from him. He seems like he has a lot on his mind and you thought he might want to share it with you. He didn't reply to me which makes me shrink down in disappointment. I don't know why I was even surprised. I have know Calvin almost all my life and he has never said more than 10 words to me in my life. Okay maybe he said more but still. I didn't think he disliked me. He is one of the the few people that haven't treated me differently since my father's disappearance and Patrick's hostile behaviour. Not that he was ever friendly with me to begin with. In fact, I don't think he has ever been anything to me. I think he is just indifferent to me. Like he doesn't care whether I was there or not. Which is why I was shocked when he asked "You coming to my party?"

My mouth dropped open for a second. "I-I"I strutted. His beautiful eyes fell back to me. "I didn't know you were having a party"I lied so I didn't have to answer his question.

The day he was getting his title to be an Alpha was the same day my brother was getting his title to be a Beta. So yes I knew about the party. I also knew my brother didn't want me to be there so I wasn't going to go. That day was going to be so special and the last thing I wanted to do was piss him off and seeing me would do just that. He looked away, he grunted then replies "my father is giving me the title this Saturday. I did turn 21 last month." Saturday is my birthday I wanted to tell him then but I stopped myself. I was sure he wouldn't care. "Congratulations"I said instead. He just grunted again not looking happy that he would be the leader of this pack. "You don't look very happy"I voiced my theory. He took a deep breath and looked at me. His eyes looking intense. He glanced away biting his top lips before shaking his head. "It doesn't matter."he said getting up. "I will see you at the party?"he voiced this as a question.

I blinked at him.

"Actually I don't think I'm going to be there" His eye brows furrowed and he gave me a strange look and I understood why. He was wondering why I wouldn't be there to support my brother. "Parties are not my thing"which was kinda the truth.

I liked people...they just didn't like me. At least not in this pack. No one knew the truth and I guess that's my fault. I kept it to protect my brother but sometimes I think I made the biggest mistake ever. Maybe it was better if I had told him rather than keep the truth to myself. It's just that truth hurts people. My brother is attached to my mother, the reason for that I didn't know. She wasn't ever a good mother. She never hit us or did anything to harm us, she was just distant. At least to me. She was a bit warmer to Patrick. My mother's one true love was power and she knew Patrick was going to be the future Beta as soon as she introduced him to Calvin. "You can come to just help out. You don't have to join the party. You loving helping out, this way you can still support your brother" Well Patrick can't say no to that. I gave Calvin a big smile then it quickly faded when I realised I didn't have anything to wear. Was I suppose to wear a uniform?

"I don't know what to wear" He looked thoughtful for a second then spoke. "I will send a dress your way. Ever attendee has to look nice, including those who are helping out"

"Okay"I whispered grinning. He didn't smile back. He just nodded and walked away. I couldn't help but let the smile grow on my face. Did I just get invited to one of the most important parties?

I wanted to jump up and start dancing but I didn't. He wasn't far enough and people were around. The last thing I wanted was for them to have something else to bully me with.