Chapter 7 We Need Rejection

Xander PoV

I know, for the past eight years, that Jonas left not just because he wanted to pursue his dream of becoming a doctor. Not because his sick grandmother needed someone to look after her.

Jonas has been accepted as a medical student at the best university in Agera City, because of his impressive grades.

Jonas' parents could have moved to his grandmother's house which was six hours away from his house in Agera without him having to come because the International University of Agera provided a dormitory for Jonas to live in.

However, he chose to go. And not at all with his parents moved to his grandmother's house, but to another side of earth, which I only found out about a year ago.

He left with a wound. It wasn't just the wound on his body, after I brutally injured him, but deeper than that, was the wound in his heart.

I had closed the part of my brain that kept screaming to blame me for what happened to Jonas, on that prom night, after I was rejected and humiliated by that bitch Cyntia.

Now, what Jonas shouted, made me unable to run away anymore, or pretend anymore.

Jonas' words hit me very hard, even Grant let out a soft yelp in fear and went hiding.

I looked down as deeply as I could, but my hand didn't let go of him. I have to keep holding him like this because I don't want him to disappear again.

He should know that I suffer too. He should also know what I went through during his escape.

"Jonas, please, listen to me," I said in a strangled voice. My chest feels tight and very narrow. "I made an unforgivable mistake that night. I committed a depraved act that destroyed our friendship. But, why don't you come to me and get angry, beat me if necessary, or sue me in front of the elders. I will accept everything. Why do you even run away and disappear?"

Jonas pushed away my hand that was still hugging his leg, with a wrinkled nose, as if he was disgusted. I let go of my hand and got up from the floor, sitting next to him again, but Jonas shifted to the end of the sofa.

"It's been eight years, Xander, so you can say things like that," Jonas said coldly. "Can you imagine what it would be like if at that time I came to your father and mother, the Supreme Alpha and Luna of our pack and said that you, their proud son, the next Supreme Alpha candidate, had raped his best friend because he was heartbroken and drunk. Tell me, honestly, what do you think will happen after that?"

There is nothing wrong with what Jonas said. At all. I can imagine the situation. My parents would not believe Jonas' complaint and instead, they would probably accuse Jonas of trying to slander me.

Maybe it was out of jealousy, because my mother already knew that Jonas had not received clarity about his status at that time.

Or maybe, because my parent think he wants to rebel against the pack and target those closest to him.

It could be like that. Maybe, after that, Jonas and his family will be expelled from the pack and considered Rogues, because after all, my parents won't let anyone touch me, especially when everyone already knows that I am a candidate for the next Supreme Alpha.

"Besides, even if I sue you before the elders at that time, will the injuries I have suffered be healed?" Jonas muttered. "My body is finally recovering after two weeks of treatment. My heart?"

I felt my throat really sore. Jonas's voice was very calm and even, but my heart felt like it was being cut with a razor when I heard all his sentences.

"Jonas, I must be a very selfish person," I said after a moment of thought. "However, I want you to know that for the past eight years, after you left, I also did suffer. I kept looking for you, because there was something I needed to tell you."

Jonas stood up and faced me with his arms folded across his chest. He has changed a lot now. His character and attitude may not be much different. He is still the quiet, cold and stiff Jonas. But in appearance, I almost didn't recognize him at the park earlier.

The Jonas I used to know was a thin boy with pale white skin because he rarely left the house and was exposed to sunlight. He's just as tall as my chin and even though many people say that he has a handsome face, his flat expression doesn't look very attractive, especially because he wears quite thick glasses.

Standing in front of me now is a man with a tall and athletic body, with healthy white skin, like a pearl. He still wore glasses but anyone would see that the price of the gold-rimmed glasses must be very expensive, because of their elegant shape.

Jonas is a handsome boy and I often said that to him in the past. But, he never cared about his appearance and was only busy studying and reading.

However, now I see that not only does he look more handsome, but with the pink blush on his cheeks, the shiny light brown hair, and the light color of his eyes, he also looks... Beautiful?

"So, what do you want? You want to sue me?" Jonas asked defiantly.

"Yes!" I answered as I stood up so that we were facing each other. "You have to explain what your true status is! Don't tell me you don't feel that bond, which was immediately formed when our eyes met in the park. Mate! We are mates!"

Jonas snorted sarcastically. "I know. I felt it that night, but you were too drunk to realize it. The second you fuck me, you screamed Cyntia's name and I was in pain like there were a thousand razor blades slicing my body. It's a mate bond that is instantly torn apart after two seconds of being formed!"

I grabbed Jonas' hand and shook it hard. "That's why I asked why you ran away and disappeared," I said in a harsh tone. "If you already realize that we are mates, we should at least talk about it first!"

"Talk, you say? Do you care to talk to me, even though after doing it, you're busy mourning Cyntia and don't care about me?" Jonas shouted as he pushed my chest hard. "I crawled for three hours all the way from school to home, with wounds all over my body, did you know that? Do you care?"

Jonas' push was quite hard, making me take two steps back from where I was standing. My calf hit the edge of the table, but Jonas continued to lunge towards me.

"Three days after that, I know, you got drunk again at the bar, then you stupidly called me, thinking that you were calling Cyntia and you were begging me to accept your love. When you did that, I was in pain because of a high fever. You know that, Xander? Do you care?" continued Jonas sharply.

"You never even visited me even though you knew I was sick. I just heard about you coming looking for me after two months! Two months! You think I don't know that?"

I am shaking now. Feeling guilty make me trembling hard. "I know, Jonas, I know. I am a coward, but you're also wrong!" I snapped, trying to defend myself. Why does he blame everything on me alone?

"Why didn't you reject me then, even after you knew we were mates! Why? And you said you were a Beta!"

Jonas was stunned and this time I saw his eyes become teary.

"I couldn't find my partner after you left, Jonas. I was in pain every time I tried to have a relationship with someone else and every time my rut came, it was such a painful ordeal, that I had to take specially prescribed medicine. I suffered too, Jonas!" I continued again, in a softer tone.

"And if I'm a Beta, you think it's okay to do that to me?" asked Jonas in a trembling voice. "You think, if I had known beforehand that I was an Omega male, I would just give up on you? You're looking down on me, right, Xander?"

I'm lost for words. I know, in our world, it's not a strange thing to happen, two male werewolves turn out to be mates, but I never thought I would be in a situation like that and why should it be with my own best friend.

Even my parents refused to believe that their son's mate, whom they were so proud of, was an Omega male who was actually their best friend.

"Jonas, I'm really sorry for you, I'm very guilty and I know you've been sick and suffering all this time, but please, can you help me just this once?" I said in a pleading tone.

I don't know how else to broach this topic, but I have to say it now. Otherwise my eight years of searching would have been in vain.

Jonas' brows furrowed. "What do you want, Xander?"

"I want... Let's break the ties between us," I said softly. "I can't be crowned Supreme Alpha, as long as I haven't found my true mate, who will be Luna of the pack. And my parents want my Luna to be a she-wolf who can bear my child as the next generation's successor."

Seeing Jonas' face right now, my heart felt as if it had been hit hard by an invisible fist.

He turned deathly pale and trembled, as if he had seen a ghost in the middle of the day. I had hurt him again and this time even insulted his existence as an Omega male.

I have read several articles about him. He was praised as a brilliant doctor and in an article it was accidentally mentioned that Jonas was a Beta who was considered the most brilliant. That means, so far no one knows that he is an Omega male.

He must have used very strong suppressants and scent blockers, so that no one would recognize him as a male Omega and as I experienced, that would be very torturous for him.

"I know, I shouldn't have run away and disappeared after that cruel night," said Jonas. I could feel the thick hatred in his voice. "I thought, over time, the mate bond would also disappear and there would be no need to bother meeting you again. But, apparently fate had other plans and it seems like this is for the best. So, come on, let's finish everything and after this, I will consider you die and I hope you do too!"

"No, Jonas, that's not what I meant. We can let go of the mate bond but I want at least our friendship to be--"

Then, Jonas' phone suddenly rang, interrupting my words.

He held me back and took his phone from his pants pocket. I saw him smile at the name displayed on his phone screen. It was the most beautiful smile I've ever seen in all the years I've known him. And... My heart is beating really fast.

"Oh, Mrs. Nora," he said. "You still at home?"

"...."

"No, no, I'm just finishing up some business."

"...."

"Ah, I completely forgot. I'm going home now. I don't want Jordan to grumble when he gets home later."

"...."

"Oh, no problem, Mrs. Nora. This is not an important matter at all. It can't be compared to Jordan. I'll be there in an hour and please tell Jordan I'll see him soon."

My eyebrows must be together in the middle of my forehead by now. Jordan? Who is Jordan? Why does Jonas look so happy just hearing his name?

"Who is Jordan?" I asked, after Jonas finished calling.

Jonas looked at me with a strange look and a sweet smile that remained on his lips.

"Jordan? He is my one and only love," he replied cheerfully.

I was stunned. He must be joking!