Chapter 4 4

I was very angry because of what happened. I should have given myself to my boyfriend, to Marjon and not to Joavani even though he is still the man I will marry! He shouldn't be with me now!

It must be Marjon, she is really the one with me so why is Joavani with me now in the hotel room and for the second time she has claimed my body again!

I got up and pulled the blanket to cover my naked body. My whole body hurts, especially the part below me.

I grabbed the pillow and threw it at him because I could see his bare back, especially his plump butt!

"What are you doing here?! Why are you my bedmate?! Why are you claiming me and not my boyfriend?!" I yelled at him and when he lay down I saw what I shouldn't have seen. "Get dressed!" I shouted and closed my eyes.

"Sweetheart, you're sick of feelings, huh? We just made love last night and this early morning, but you're only thinking about other men while you're moaning? While I was moaning your name," he said and suddenly got up.

He pulled the blanket from my body so he could see my chest. The corners of his lips rose until he smirked.

"Johnny!" I shouted and tried to pull the blanket.

"Nice booby..."

"I hate you so much! You take advantage of me! I'm so drunk last night!" I shouted at him and he just pulled my elbow to hug me because he saw my tears.

"You sacrificed yourself to me. I give up right away because I can't refuse you. I'm fragile, huh."

"Why did you do that to me even though you knew I wasn't myself?!"

"I told you that I am a fragile man and I was only given to your beauty."

"Stop that fvcking compliment! I hate you so much! Not you! That's not you, eh!" I shouted again and again and I was riding his back because he was already hugging me.

"Sshh, sweetheart... It's already done... You just gave yourself to me."

In my mind I can't really blame him either. Because even when I knew my boyfriend was no longer on top of me, I still didn't stop him. I didn't even push him even though Marjon was on the other line and could hear what Joavani and I were doing.

Because I admit I liked it. I enjoyed what we were doing even though I knew it was wrong because Marjon and I are still in a relationship and he is my boyfriend and I did this to him.

"I cheated on my boyfriend!"

"No, sweetheart... You didn't. You just made love with your future husband. There's no cheating..."

"Still! I'm cheated on him because we haven't broken up yet!"

"So, you regret it? Do you regret that you made a mistake with the person you let take your virginity? Do you regret giving it to me and not to the man you expected? With your boyfriend?" he asked one after another which kept me quiet.

I closed my eyes just to ask myself if we had any regrets for what we did but we didn't... I couldn't find any regrets in my heart because he seemed to like it. I just cried on his chest. I'm confused too.

"But..."

"If you don't regret giving yourself to me, you will let me possess you again," he said and I did nothing as he slowly laid me down.

My tears were still pouring down my cheeks and he quickly ran over me. He separated my thighs and something happened to us again.

I don't seem like I can face Marjon anymore. Because I'm sure he knows what I did especially when he saw me with Joavani. One of his arms was wrapped around my waist and his body was very close to mine.

I even saw the reddening of his eyes when he quickly boarded the service.

"I let you go if you want to talk with him," Joavani said to me while kissing my forehead.

I tasted it and got on the service. Next to me is Marjon who is quiet. I glanced at Joavani to get in his car.

When our car moved forward, his car was just behind him.

"Marjon..." I said his name.

"Even if you don't tell me anything, I know what you did, Gotchelle. You shouldn't make me look like that," he said coldly.

"I'm sorry..." I said softly.

"Is that how you envisioned breaking up with me, Gotchelle?"

"No... It's not like that, Marjon."

"You promised me. You promised to give yourself to me but another man is immediately on top of you. Gotchelle... The pain you did to me..."

"I'm sorry..."

"I was with you last night. I also promised you that I will wait for you. Gotchelle, we were going to leave together to do what you wanted to happen but you suddenly disappeared when I let you go. I looked for you at the bar but I haven't seen you yet. Then I'll just know you're in the other hotel room?"

I didn't really know that happened. Someone suddenly joined and I knew it was Joavani because she was with me.

"Did you like that, Gotchelle? Did you like what happened to you?" I closed my mouth tightly because of his question. Because I can't answer him without hurting him. "After all, he is the one you will marry. He's the guy who should get ahead of you. I'm breaking up with you, Gotchelle."

I couldn't handle the pain I was feeling so I had Kuya Vhong stop the service.

"Ma'am Gotchelle? Where are you going?" our colleagues asked me when they saw me getting out of the car.

I walked while carrying my traveling bag. Joavani's every step was big and he approached me. He snatched what I was carrying and then he grabbed me by my waist.

He hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead sweetly. "I'm sorry," he said as he led me closer to his car.

Maybe I need to forget my feelings for Marjon? Maybe we have to cut whatever connection we have. That's just the two of us.

I love Marjon, but there is nothing I can do if our relationship ends.

"Good afternoon, Tita," Joavani greeted my Mom when we arrived home. He even drove me here.

"Good afternoon too, son. I didn't expect that you would be the one to take my son to our house. Come in," Mama begged and her eyes couldn't escape Joavani's arm around my waist.

This one is still supporting me because he knows my leg is shaking because of what we did last night until this morning.

"Thank you, Aunt Gretchen. I'll take him to his room first."

When we were both on the stairs, he was about to pick me up when I pinched his arm and gently patted him. He was still disgusted by what I did.

"Maybe what my Mom thinks is why I can't walk alone," I weakly promised her. He just grinned at the end.

"We did something, sweetheart. You also have many kiss marks on your body, especially on your chest and neck." I elbowed him because he was saying something.

If he talks to me, you would think that we are really close. Even though something has happened to us, he can now talk to me as if we were really lovers. Even if you look at it, we're already engaged.

"You're really flirting," I said to him, which he just laughed at.

I let him into my room and he couldn't avoid looking at it.

I stared at him intently while he was still busy checking my things. He's really handsome, I think he's even more handsome than Marjon. The strength of what he used to be. She is tall and you would mistake her for an actress or model.

Her hairstyle is undercut and her perfect face is more defined. Her complexion is also smooth and you can't see any dirt on her cheeks.

My eyes went down to his rough arm. I couldn't stop blushing because those hands held my waist and thighs while he claimed me again and again. I never thought that something would happen to us overnight.

"Sweetheart, can I stay here for a while? I need to rest," he said and I let him get on my bed. I did not break my heavy gaze on him.

Mama came inside so she got up in a hurry. He was afraid to see us in such a position.

"Here, that's a snack, son. Eat and I'll leave you," said my Mama as she rushed out. He seemed excited because that was the first thing he saw.

"Let's eat this, Gotchelle," he invited me.

"Just you," I said. I want to rest immediately because my body is so tired. Since last night and the trip.

But he was stubborn because he pulled me to sit down. "Come with me to eat this first," he said and handed me the sandwich that Mama had made.

While we were eating, I caught him glancing at me. I thought Marjon was the only man I knew who was a gentleman and kind, but he wasn't.

There is still a person with such behavior. He is also tender and considerate. His twinkling eyes were the first thing I stared at. Every time he smiles at me, my heart beats faster.

It's immediately comfortable when he's with me and it feels like we've been together for a long time. Even while drinking coffee, he still supported me.

"How old are you, Joavani?" I suddenly asked him.

"I'm 26 years old," he answered me. I'm only 23 now. I just nodded. It's not bad, our age gap is only a few years. "Are you breaking up with your boyfriend, Gotchelle? You need to do that, because I am your fiancé, even though we are not official yet," he added.

"What do you think happened earlier? Why did I suddenly drop our service? Marjon broke up with me. That's because of what he heard earlier," I said.

"So if he didn't hear us whining---oh sweetheart. That hurts," he said and winced. I clicked his mouth.

"Please filter your gaping mouth, doc," I threatened. He grinned again.

"This is your doctor, sweetheart. You have been injected. It hurts but tastes good in the end. " I was already beating him because of what he said. What comes out of his mouth is really rude!

"Stop me! Your mouth is rude!" I shouted and because of my splashing he dropped the glass of water so it spilled on his clothes.

I thought he would be angry with what I did, but that's just not his thing.

I was still stunned because I remembered that every time I accidentally wet my ex-boyfriend with water, he would get angry. Not totally angry. He'll just tell me that I'm not careful because his clothes are still too expensive. Then I will just pour drinks and water?

"It's cold," he said and I stood up. I went to the closet to find some clothes to change her into.

I know I have quick clothes for Marjon but I keep forgetting to give them to her.

I was still shocked when he suddenly hugged me from behind. "Joavani, what?!"

"What are you doing here, sweetheart?" he asked me softly and suddenly he took my red bra. "This is your size. That's why it fits in the palm of my hand. I'm lucky," he said and I elbowed him again and took the paperbag.

I threw it at him but he caught it quickly. "I didn't think you were the only one who would benefit from that," I said and shook my head at him.

"Thank you, sweetheart."

"Stop being your sweetheart to me, Joavani. You're really going to hit me," I promised firmly and went back to the bed to lie down.

"I'm going to use your bathroom, huh?"

"Take care of your life," I just said to him rudely and closed my eyes.