Chapter 4 Night

That night, I didn't know how I slept. I turned from one side to the other while thinking about Amy. I had laid on the bed to sleep but I just couldn't.

Different thoughts that worried the mind beclouded my mind. I asked some kind of silly questions in my mind. On a second thought, those questions weren't so silly.

"Did Amy have the memories about our past? Did Amy remember be? If she didn't then did she grew any feelings about me in her mind?"

Those were the questions that I was asking myself. It was at this time that I found out that love was an absolute bother. Love could make you do things you never wanted to like staying up at night.

I didn't love staying up at night or rather, I never did stay up. I was a absolute fanatic of getting all eight hours of my rest. Most of the time, I was fueled by nothing but adrenaline.

It was however a strange thing when I couldn't fall asleep. I remember that the last time that I couldn't sleep was the time when my past Amy had just died. I couldn't sleep for weeks then.

Me not getting sleep was always connected with Amy. Both times when I couldn't sleep had to do with Amy. It wasn't too strange now when I thought of it.

I thought of my past Amy. It had been a long time that this ever happened to me. I thought of how we used to play around, how we visited places, how we ate and even how we made love.

We knew each other's likes and dislikes. We mastered each other's habits like it was a craft. We were a duo who had seemed to never separate. I remembered a time where we had skipped having breakfast and laid in our room making love in a daze of exhausted pleasure. Our romance and love making were top notch. We were good at the act and we never starved ourselves.

Thinking of it now, it had been a hundred years that I had sex last. The thing was that after the death of Amy, I had denied every lady access to me. I remained in the confine of my home and saw no lady. I usually satisfied my sexual desires by masturbating.

Kenny had always disturbed me to have a woman in my life. He had tried persuading me many times but I always stood my ground. Frankly speaking, I had ran into some temptations and close situations but the picture of Amy in my mind had always made me wave the temptation off.

As for me, I didn't want just any woman and any woman who wasn't my Amy was just any woman. That may sound contradictory but that was exactly how I felt.

I thought of different things pertaining Amy till I couldn't make any headway on my thoughts anymore. I thought I wouldn't get any sleep as I devoted my thoughts to Amy. However, when time passed on, I slept and I didn't know when...

I woke in the morning feeling tired. I checked the time and found out that I had only spent three hours sleeping and not my usual eight hours. I felt my body aching as I stood up and went to get some water to drink.

After drinking water, I went outside to stretch myself. I jogged for a while before getting back inside.

I started boiling eggs and I waited for the coffee to percolate. I grabbed one of my old books and started reading. Actually, I wasn't really reading, it was more like the book was reading me.

My mind had trailed miles away. I just kept silent and thought.

With Amy's address gotten by me, I decided the next thing was to go see her and check out her well being. I already got the address from Kenny.

With that thought still up in my mind, I tried harder to focus on reading the book but I wasn't doing any better. None of the ideas that the book communicated held onto my mind. As I read, everything I was reading vanished before my sight.

At last, I gave up. I was worried and nothing wanted to stick to my head. It was better that I abandoned it as it was doing me no good.

I checked my eggs and found out that they were almost ready. I went ahead to brush my teeth then I went back to get my eggs. I had boiled eggs and coffee and rested well before I headed to the bathroom to bath.

That was the typical me.

I enjoyed brushing then eating before bathing. I usually ate first before I went to bath. This had actually became my norm as I cultivated it as a habit.

Anyway, I went to bath. In the bathroom, I scrubbed every nook and cranny of my body with a bid to impress. I was actually going to see Amy.

I finished bathing and headed to my room to dress up. I picked up my best outfit and wore it. I took care of my body just to impress Amy. As soon as I was ready, I set out to see Amy.

My heart was beating hard as I went. I was truly excited. It was a true feeling.

I soon got to where Amy lived. What I did first was to check out the house itself. The building wasn't quite impressive. It was a bungalow. It had no special designs. It was just bare.

I wasn't concerned by the context of the house. I moved off to find Amy. I didn't know where to find her and I decided to go inside. I actually couldn't say what motivated me to that extent.

Before I went inside, my nose caught the smell of medicine oozing out of the house. The smell was so thick and almost tangible. It was like I could hold it.

The door was partly open so I didn't knock. I didn't know why I didn't bothered knocking but it seemed it was just what I was led to do.

I entered and faced an empty room before me. Nobody seemed to be inside. I turned to take my leave when I heard some hushes. I listened more carefully and it was actually people talking. One of the voices resembled that of Amy.

I turned to the area where the voice came from. I wasn't really hearing what they were saying but I seemed closer. I was now heading to one of the rooms.

I watched what made me feel angry happen right in my presence.

I could see Amy and a strange guy together in a room. I didn't suppose that anything more intimate could have happened. I was just looking at them. They didn't seem to be aware of my presence.

I watched this said guy take Amy's hand and kissed it. I couldn't take it further.

"How dare you!" I screamed at them.