Chapter 7 MARILUZ

MARILUZ POV

Mariluz you still haven't told me your opinion on what we discussed earlier yesterday, my boyfriend Oscar asked. And what was that we discussed? I asked. Don't act dumb Mariluz, you and I know what I am referring to.

I asked yesterday if we could finally be intimate in our relationship, you know what I mean, I mean can we finally have sexual intercourse? You know, you promised that once you have celebrated your eighteenth birthday we could finally become intimate, and your birthday was last week and we didn't do anything, Oscar said.

I have already told you Oscar that I am not ready to become intimate with you, when I am ready Oscar I will let you know.

But when Mariluz, when? is it when you have finally gone to college? Mariluz you should finally realize that you have come of age to engage in sexual intercourse, what don't you understand?

Oscar please stop saying those things to me, you are making me feel bad, when I am ready I will let you know of my decision.

Think about it Mariluz, I am leaving, once you have made your decision please let me know., Oscar said and left.

I was left confused, should I really do this, I think Oscar deserves this.

AT HOME

Oh, Mariluz you are back from school, my sister Abigail asked. Yes Abi, we didn't have much to do at school that's the reason we closed early today.

Abi, I would love to ask you a question. Go ahead Mariluz, you know you can ask me anything, I am your sister, that's what I am here for.

So Oscar thinks we should become intimate in our relationship, but I don't think I am ready to be intimate with anyone, you know this would be my first if I agree to become intimate with him.

I think you are already of age to decide on what you want, but I will advise that if you feel you aren't ready, then don't force yourself, but if you feel that it's time for both of you to step up in your relationship, then it's all up to you. I won't put ideas in your head or force you to do what you don't like, advice you have given me. I will have to think about what you have said.

I don't want to make any hasty decision on what I really want. But I think I would feel uncomfortable being around Oscar because of this whole drama, he really deserves this. I don't think I can live peacefully if we continue like this.

HOURS LATER

I thought deeply and I realized that I am of age to make decisions like this. Even if I don't involve myself in it now, it will be bound to happen, so I would rather take the risks than play the safe side.

Hello, Oscar, I have reached a decision and I have made up my mind, I said. May I know what decision you have reached? I am ready, I said.

Ready for what? Oscar asked. As what we discussed earlier.

And what was that which we discussed? Oscar asked. Oh, come on Oscar don't act dumb, you and I understand what I am referring to.

Which is? Oscar asked again. The discussion concerning our engaging in sexual intercourse. Stop saying sexual intercourse in that manner Mariluz, you sound just like a teacher, just say sex, it's sex, you don't have to feel ashamed to say it.

I get it, you don't have to rub it on my face. So what do you think Oscar?

I think you made the right decision, you don't know how many months I have waited for you to say this. I just respected you because I didn't want to force you to engage in something that makes you uncomfortable, Oscar said.

So when are we, you know? Oscar asked.

Oh, after we are done with our classes tomorrow after school, we can finally do it, I said.

Well, goodnight love, I can't wait for tomorrow, this is the best news I received today, thanks my love.

THE NEXT DAY

Abi, I have made my choice, I am ready to engage in sexual intercourse.

Are you sure of your decision? Abi asked. Yes, Abi I am sure of my decision, you don't have to worry about me, I will be fine.

Make sure you both use protection or contraceptives.

Chill Abi, we aren't dumb not to realize that we must use protection, we would obviously use protection.

Now go ahead, you are running late for school, you know you shouldn't lose focus, the bills for your college are pretty high and you can't afford to miss any of your classes. You understand? Sometimes I think she is talking to a five-year-old, I myself know that the cost for my college bills are expensive so I can't afford to miss any of my classes, it is so easy to understand.

BELL RINGS

Mariluz, wait up, Oscar said. I hope you aren't walking fast to ignore me today?, you promised me today that we would do it, Oscar said.

Ssh Oscar, calm down everyone is listening. I didn't forget what I promised yesterday, I said. You were eventually going to catch up with me anyway so why act like a baby?

You were walking really fast Mariluz, it looked as though I was being ignored by you, Oscar said.

I wasn't ignoring you Oscar, let's forget about it, we both are here, aren't we?

I promise you, you won't regret your decision of me being your first, Oscar said. I know I won't regret this decision I have made.