Chapter 5 Our School

Chapter 5

Veronica's POV

"Who will attend you, Jade?" Joyce asked me. The year is coming to an end and as usual at our school, they conduct a program for students, like recognition.

I smiled and slowly shook my head. Even if I tell my mother she won't attend for me.

"Your mother won't attend again?" I shook my head again and carried my folder for clearance.

"Ain't auntie really getting better from her illness?" I first handed my paper to our Physics for Engineering professor. "Are you still working?"

I turned to Joyce and shook my head at this question.

"My mother doesn't want me to leave." I said.

"You know friend, it's not that I'm judging your mother because I know you love her very much even though your love is not reciprocated, but why can't you get rid of her?" I sighed at Joyce's question.

"Mother has no other family members but me. If I leave her, no one will take care of her. I'm the only one she can count on." Let me explain here.

Even though my mother is like that, I still can't leave her, especially since I know that she just keeps getting sick.

"That's your choice. After all, she's your mother so I can't force you to leave her for yourself."

Because we only take care of clearance at school, we can go home early. As usual, Will's crew was still picking me up. Will is a kind person, caring and attentive. But I don't know why I can't love him.

He gives me everything that even if I don't ask for it, he gives it. But I just can't accept that from him. I'm afraid that he might scold me again.

One of Will's men opened the door for me.

I was still a little surprised to see Will sitting in the backseat as well. He smiled at me and hugged me.

"W-why are you here?" I will ask. Usually he doesn't come to pick me up because he has work at the office.

He came closer and kissed me. I didn't cry anymore because I got used to it being like this for me. He thanked me and even kissed me and respected my wish not to move.

"I just miss you, my Jade." He said after separating from me. "You're going to work tonight. Let's spend some time together before I go to Macau for a business thing."

"Are you leaving?" I will ask. He clasped our hands.

I don't know if I will be happy that he is leaving or sad because I can feel his sadness to leave me here.

"How many days were you there?" I tried to sound casual because I didn't want him to assume anything.

"Two weeks, I guess. That is why, I want to spend this night with you because we are leaving tomorrow. You can sleep there first at the Villa." It told me. I just nodded and didn't speak.

Even though I was outnumbered, I didn't say no. I'm also used to him begging me to sleep next to him.

It's improper to look at but I won't do anything because I'm sure I'll only get reprimanded if I refuse.

"I was going to take you with me but I know you have a lot to attend to here, especially since your program is coming up." My eyes widened when he mentioned our program. I was surprised that he knew about the incident at our school, even though I didn't tell the story.

"Don't worry, my Jade. I'll be back before that day. I promise to attend to your day. Before I know it, you're a dean's lister." He said this so I faced him because he knew very well about me at school.

I felt a strong pounding in my heart. It's refreshing and someone is interested in me, who knows about me. I myself, like a mother, have no idea what is happening to me.

"I love you, my Jade." He said and kissed my forehead. I didn't know how to react to what he was showing me.

I tried to look up at him. Little by little, my lips formed a smile.

I feel like I have a father who will attend my graduation and hang my medal.

But I immediately lost that thought because I suddenly remembered that this guy next to me was not my father, but my boyfriend.

When he turned around, I immediately looked away and looked outside.

We went up to his room when we got to his house. He took a shower first and made me follow. He doesn't let me go to bed without taking a bath because he says I might get sick especially since I've been outside all day.

After I showered, I slowly approached him and stood aside. It immediately pulled me and put me on top of it.

"Ah, W-Will." I said but he just smiled and kissed me on the lips. He also went back to lying next to me and pressed his face into my neck.

My hair stood up when I felt his breath on my neck.

"W-Will..." I said because I suddenly felt his hand enter my top and hold my chest.

"Shh. I love your breast, my Jade. I want to lick it but I know you wouldn't let me so just let me be content with touching it." He said and squeezed my chest.

I can take it off when he's asleep because he might move me.

"I want to marry you, my Jade. I don't care if they will call me pedo, but I love you, my Jade. I hope you feel the same to me." He said before falling asleep.

I don't know, Will. I don't love you and I can't love you.

I miss my father so I see fatherhood in you.

I wish I could get out of this situation.

"I will send you to my bodyguard every day. Make sure you always answer my calls. Where's the cellphone that I gave you?" This is a question. I took it from the bag and showed it to him.

He purposely gave me a cell phone so he could call me. I wouldn't have accepted it because it was expensive but he insisted so I accepted it.

"Call me when something happens, especially when your mother did something to you." He still reminds.

It was morning and Will woke me up. I still had school so he took me before he said goodbye to me to leave.

He knows about our mother. I don't know how he knows but he knows everything about me. And when I'm sad he makes a way to make me happy.

He is there when I hurt.

But I still can't love him.

I hope the time will come when I will love you, Will, so that it will not be difficult for me to live with you. You are too kind and loving to force me to be with you.

This time, I want to love him. I don't know if this is right but I will try to love him, not as a father, but as a man. Even if the world says that our age gap is too big,

'Miss you, my Jade.'

Will text me.

Two days since he left Macau for business. I begged his bodyguard that if possible, I would just text them when I pick up.

I don't want to look like a princess with someone picking me up, so I don't text them.

I was about to open the door of the house when I heard something breaking. I immediately opened it.

My crying mother appeared to me while breaking a bottle of wine.

"You really are an animal, why didn't I abort you!?" He shouted at me while throwing the wine bottle he was holding.

Since when does mother drink?

"Mom, why are you getting drunk? Where did you get the money to buy alcohol?" I will ask.

I tried to get closer but I was afraid that I might get hit so I just went to the broken bottles because the blows might hurt my mother.

"Why? Are you the only one who can get money? You gave it to me when you were old." I took a step back when my mother approached me with a bottle in her hand.

"You know, no matter what you ask me for love, I really can't give it to you. As long as I see your father in you, I will never be able to get you to love me." He said while spitting me. "Eh! You're right there, maybe I can hit you on the head with something else."

He approached the ash tray and took the cigarette stick that was already lit.

Does mother smoke?

He turned to me when he noticed that I was just staring at him.

"Oh? You're going to look at that? I was like this before you came. Besides, it's not your money. It's money you're stealing." He said and turned around.

"Awww." I groaned as I was stabbed in the leg by the bull. It seeped into my thin shoes.

I tried to pull out the blister stuck in the middle of my foot.

"Ouch!" I groaned again when I pulled out the bruise that still had traces of my blood.

"That's it, it's going to be stupid. You're just going to pick up a bottle, you're going to have a bad time..." her mother took a puff on her cigarette. "Do misfortune really come close to you? After all, you are also a misfortune in my life."

Mother turned her back on me and went straight to her seat.

Then abundant tears flowed from my eyes. I cried because of the pain in my feet and my heart from what my mother said.

"Oh, are you crying there? You have no right to cry because you are the reason for my suffering. You are the reason why my life is falling apart..."

"Mom, that's right." I said as he threw the wine bottle he was holding near my direction again.

"You know I'm sick of your drama. Why is it that no matter how hard I give you, you still don't want to let me go?" Mother's jaw was grinding.

His hair is messed up because of drunkenness. Even this spaghetti strap dress is already down.

Mother's look was devastated.

Sometimes I just wish that my suffering could really pay for the pain that my mother is suffering from.

I thought that my father had left him for a long time but he still carries the pain. Maybe that's how much pain he experienced.

I stood up with one leg and still picked up the broken sticks. The mother might even step on it and cause injury.

"I don't need you to take care of me. And even more I don't need you in my life." It said.

I took the broom to sweep the small puddles. My hand hurt because of the small bumps while I was groping, but the pain was nothing compared to the pain that my mother told me about.

You can do it Veronica! Fight! Your mother will love you too.

Every day I convince myself that I can do it all, that my mother will love me too.

But I'm not really sure if that day will come.

I walked to our trash can for the first time to throw away the dirt that I had cleaned.

"Mom, I'm just going to change." I still say goodbye even though it doesn't matter to me.

I went upstairs to get dressed in house clothes and buy gauze for my leg wound.

Madam Hermei didn't let me in today because the club was rented by a rich man to celebrate his birthday there. Only waiters are on duty today.

It's a good thing because I got injured. I will definitely have a hard time dancing it That's why I need to get it treated because I don't want to miss work just because of it.

After getting dressed, I went downstairs. I found mother who was quiet on one side and seemed to be thinking about something.

"Mom, I'm just leaving for a while. I'm just going to buy gauze." I say goodbye. And as usual, it still ignored me.

I went out and walked slowly to the pharmacy.

"Sister, it's a gauze, the long elastic." I told the pharmacist. I also paid later.

Instead of going straight to the house after I bought it, I first walked to the nearest beach near us.

I sat on the bench while watching the cars passing in front of me.

If I could choose life, I would not choose to live inside my mother's stomach.

"If only you were here father...if only you hadn't left mother, I hope she wouldn't be hurt now. I would have felt at least having a family and feeling like being your daughter." I'm talking to the wind.

I don't know if I should look for my father or not. I know that it will be difficult for my mother and she might think that I will leave her and go with my father.

Sometimes I thought of giving up but I thought that no one would love my mother if I left her.

I'm the only one who has my mother, so even though it hurts to be with her, I bear it because I love my mother and I don't want to leave her alone.

I wiped the tears that had been falling from my eyes. I need to go home because I have to treat my wound.

I was crossing when I was suddenly dazzled by the light of a car running fast towards me before I felt my body hit a car and was thrown to I don't know where.

I heard a man's voice before I passed out.

My mother...

To Be Continued...