However, I do not have anyone to save for or spend on. I think this is what my life is all about and I am ready to just be with me all by myself for the rest of my life. I don't think I will ever be married. I am sure there are many men out there who are single and never got married.
If I get cravings for a woman's body, I would just date. Otherwise, I better keep control on my body. My stamina during the games have improved so much. I played three hours continuously and do not feel tired. There I am walking up to one tiny woman who has joined my player group today.
The leader is a female, and she is a great friend of mine. Her girlfriend often visits her in the stadium, and they are both my good friends. The new girl's name is something I forgot. She is cute and pretty but also looks very innocent. She is the good girl category and I should really respect her.
I approached her after the game, "Welcome to our group. Hope you had fun playing the games today. Do you play regularly?"
"Oh..yes I do. I train professionally. I was exploring different badminton groups to play with but I am a singles category player." She said sweetly. She is so cute when she talks.
Aww....
I can't stop admiring her. I didn't know that such girls still exist in this world. I always knew the horny and hot category women.
I love the way she is speaking with all. Such a jolly person and I hope her innocence remains like this forever. I was shocked to hear that she is thirty years old. A few years younger than me but she looks like a twenty-year-old woman.
This is the first time I feel like respecting a woman. A cute and tiny woman.
I feel like as if I am talking to a small child. I didn't know such species of woman exists.
I asked her for tea. It is not a date, but my entire group goes for tea including me after the game. It is a regular routine.
She said no upfront and I am disappointed.
"My cab is already here. I need to get back home soon. I got work to complete. I have all the office work piled up. Sorry. I would join you guys' next time." She said politely.
Wow!
She has amazing manners, and I am so impressed.
Everyone bid her goodbye and I stared at her back. I do not wish to fall in love, and I know it is an infatuation. I only adore her, like everyone else in the group.
"She is a nice girl. She looks so cute." My friend Sara said.
"Yes, she is." I replied and I felt shy saying that.
"Hello boy, don't flirt with her. She is a good girl. Not your type." Sara explained.
"I am not going to do anything. I respect her. She is a good girl I know and could see that."
We all had tea together while she went away. I don't even know her name and these guys will tease me if I ask them.
Arghh!
I need to wait for a day more to know her name. I would hate this feeling. I will wait, probably I will just befriend her at times.
I don't want to be the man who is attracted to every other woman except for Sara and her girlfriend. They are not into men. I sipped tea and I remembered her face.
She seemed familiar. I think I have seen her. I will ask her tomorrow. I don't think a girl like her would be in dating apps but there is no harm searching for her in social media. Only if I know her name, I could do background research. She looked new to the city at the same time and probably a star performer in badminton for sure. She looked so athletic. She seems to be serious about badminton unlike a person like me who is playing for fun sake and pass my time.
She also mentioned about a job. If she knows that I am a freelancer, she will hate me or may not think of me as her standard. She mentioned about work. She must be a corporate employee if she is time bound. As a freelancer, I was never time-bound. I could complete work whenever I wished and get paid much more than a corporate employee would earn in a single month.
However, you are sometimes too free or the growth is less when you are a freelancer. You do not meet people and I do not even have a professional social life among the other freelancers working in the same company as mine. I think there are both positives and negatives of the same.
Nevertheless, I got to come tomorrow and play. I will ask for her name and even find out where have I seen her. Her face is familiar and it felt like I have met her in the past. Is she my lover in the last birth? I would remember every girl I have slept with and I am sure that I have not even touched her ever in my life. I somehow feel some connection with her.
Once I know her name, I would know why am I feeling the way I am feeling now. I am not trying to be an asshole now. I don't have sex in my mind as I am thinking about her right now.
"Excuse me! Why did you zone out? Did you even hear us?" Joe, one of my college mates and a badminton player in the group asked.
I completely zoned out and I really need to find out more about her.
"Sorry, what are you all talking about?" I asked, feeling confused at the same time.
"See, you were not even listening to us. We are planning for a doubles tournament next weekend. Are you coming or you will be busy with some woman?" Sara asked and everyone giggled.
Fine!
I know I have a bad reputation. It does not mean I have no sense of respect for good girls.
I respected one more woman who flew even with a rich man who helped her settle down in Europe. Fancy people with fancy relationship goals. I am a simple person, I may not be super rich, I have good number of agricultural lands in place and my family is slightly traditional.
Coming back to the cute girl who joined our group, I will ask her name tomorrow. Somewhere, my heart hopes her to be single. If she marries me, I can spend my entire life without sex, only if I get the love of this girl.