It's almost 10pm already, and as the second ticks slowly, I feel my heartbeat increase rapidly. You can imagine why I'm so scared, right? Aside from I have not been laid by any man all my life, I never thought that I would lose my virginity to some stranger. My life is a mess, honestly.
The minute hand finally ticks the time, and as if he timed me, the door suddenly pulls open, and my breath stops immediately as I behold him standing. He's wearing a purple robe that exposes a portion of his chest. Although I didn't stare long before I turn my gaze away, I bet that he looks so breathtaking in that robe.
I hold on to the duvet tightly and curl my toes beneath the duvet as I stare everywhere else, except his face. I'm doomed.
"Do you want to do this?" His voice sounds sad, and I tilt my head to see him already sitting on the edge of the bed, and staring into space. Even the side view of his face is everything cute.
"If I have a choice, no," I reply to him honestly. I may admire him, but doing this with him is what I wouldn't have ever allowed if I have the power to. Yes, he's cute and every woman's dream, but that doesn't mean that I want to sleep with him, yeah?
"And if I have a choice, I won't do this too," He sighs briefly, pain and sadness resounding in his voice. An awkward silence assumes the air afterward, and I can't help imagining what will happen next. Will he really sleep with me? From the way he talks, he looks like he doesn't want to do this, so he won't force himself eventually, right?
He sighs briefly as he stands up to his feet, and before I can comprehend what he's about to do, I suddenly see his robe falls to the floor, and my mouth drops open in shock.
"Have you had your bath yet?" He asks as he climbs up the bed, and I almost jump out of my skin. His half-naked body is everything to drive anyone crazy. He has a perfectly built body, and his six packs are everything cute. As much as I want to stay focused and not drool over him, I can't help it. He's super hot.
"Have you had your bath yet, Shirley?" He asks for the second time, reminding me that he asked me the same question before. The way he pronounced my name, no man ever said my name like that. What the heck am I even saying? When did I ever have the time to relate with any man?
"Hmm," I nod my head slowly. I'm sure that I'll stutter if I eventually decide to talk, because of the way my heart is beating so rapidly.
"Help yourself out of the robe," His voice sounds domineering and with a hint of disgust in it. I have always imagined how happy my future man would be as he takes my virginity. Who would've ever thought that after protecting my virginity for so many years, I'll eventually lose it to someone who was forced to? My life is a joke, seriously.
"Hmm," I nod my head and struggle to stand on my knees on the bed, and with my trembling hands, I strip out of the pink robe I'm wearing, and soon, I'm standing half naked in front of him with just my red bra and panties on. My cheeks flush in embarrassment, and I quickly cover my chest with my hands, turning my face away.
"Get rid of that, Shirley," His voice is filled with so much command, but my messed up mind find it cute. As if his words were accompanied by some spells, I slowly take my hands to my back and unhook my bra, letting it fall off my chest, and finally revealing my round massive boobs. Not to brag, but for a nineteen years old young lady, I have a curvy body that can drive anyone crazy. Looking at myself in the mirror every day back then, I always admired the woman I grew up into.
"Lay on the bed, and spread your legs," He commands me again, his voice is void of emotions as if he's forcing those words out of his mouth reluctantly, of which I need no one to tell me that it's the actual truth.
Following his command, I lay on my back and stare up at the ceiling as I feel my heartbeat increase rapidly. I'm sure that he can hear the sounds.
Although I'm not looking in his direction, I can feel his gaze all over me, and it makes me even more nervous. I'm going to be losing my virginity now, but not in the special way that I have dreamt of losing it to my future prince charming husband, but in an awful way that hurts my soul and gets it broken beyond repair.
Feeling his warm hand caress the inner part of my thigh, my breath stops momentarily as I feel a weird sensation spur through me. I gulp down the lump that just formed in my throat, holding the duvet tightly when I feel his finger come in contact with my clitoris. He rubs his finger down there, and that's when I realize that place is damn wet, and I can't help wondering where the slippery water came from.
"Ah!" I wince in pain as I feel him push his finger inside me without warning. It hurts so much.
"You're a virgin?" He suddenly asks out of the blue, and I slowly open my eyes to see him staring down at me with a demanding expression on his face. I slowly nod my head shyly, and I bet he sighed.
"I...will be gentle," He says to me before proceeding. He looks like he doesn't want to do this, but then he got no choice. Just like myself, I think he's handicapped.
After teasing me for a few minutes, he finally pushes his hard rocky d*ck inside me, and my heart stops beating as I feel something tear in me. He penetrated me... I am no longer a virgin...