Chapter 2 Cravings

In this life a lot of people crave many things, money, acceptance, admiration, love, women. Personally I crave just one thing peace of mind, or ok maybe two women. Money? I don't crave money, I already breath that, acceptance? I don't think I need that, it's in the crowd it comes when called for I don't think it's being given to anyone, but when needed I might just get it, and trust me I don't need more than I have though, so not really a craving. Love? Let's not get to that part, I will say it's a game for the unwise, I'd played it of course I lost perfectly well.

I didn't believe in love, I believe in tolerance of another for a while, Feelings fades that's for sure, then why waste my precious time. Lust? Yeah, I believed in Lust. I'm 19, in college. My sophomore year actually. Art and music school, (we will get back to the school part later, my head is spinning) So, being a 19 year old I do the usual thing. I had a fake ID, and I would go to the clubs and drink few beers admire pretty women, talk to few and leave with one. I sometime get bored and will crave company, especially when I'm drunk. Don't be too quick to judge me yet. Don't worry when I drink too much I will call for my drive or maybe just Uber, I might be stupid but I'm not suicidal neither am I willing to kill Someone else. That's where I was tonight actually. Some gay bar in the giant City of Seattle not too far from my home. I needed to escape from my own thought sometimes, especially when I'm not in school or with anyone. I needed that free space in my head where there's nothing rather numbness. I'm actually here for a lot of reasons, which women are not among. Don't get me wrong though, I'm a big sulker for pretty women, but not tonight or should I say lately, for the past few weeks, I have decided to stay chastity for some personal reasons, and when I said that I meant it. How am I even doing that? I was lining up a shot when I saw someone lean on the table in the spot next to me, she had long blonde hair and blue eyes. Nice, if you like that sort of things, I guess our eyes are also meant for looking away from things you don't wanna see. She hovered over. Yes, I'm aware of those green lights, but nothing seemed to interest me, nothing about her. She's hot, the type any boy or girl will want to screw over for a night, let's say she's lucky I'm totally not in the mood, or rather not my kind of hot. I waved off her signals, ignoring her petty sexy acts, I'm not easily impressed. I reached for another shot and gulped down, feeling the burning sensation on my throat down my chest, as I wiped off my mouth with the back of my hand. "Okay, that's enough princess let's get your drunk as home now before you make me regret the day I meet you" zack said. I turned my direction to the boy beside with sweats on his bare chest like he just came out off some quickie. "You've been fucking?" Stay away from me m. I snared "Shut up bitch, at least I'm not here drinking to my misery like you're, one of us have to keep sane And I'm the only one capable of doing that" he said as he flipped his imaginary hair over hair. Most times when zack gets zesty it just gets me crack, like bruv, his just too cute! But yet a pain to the ass. "I can't really get my hands on what's wrong with you recently, one time you Lusting over a girl, the next minute you ain't giving a fuck or even looking at any's face even when they're throwing themselves to you weirdo!" He said rolling his eyes at me. "Zackie, you of all people is well aware that girl ain't my type" "Omg,". He gasped dramatically with his hands on his chest . "Kim don't you ever call me that again! I'm not some kindergarten boy" "zackie" he said mimicking me. "Shut up, I will call you whatever pleases me and your gay ass will do nothing about that" I blurted with a smirk on my face. "You will die slowly and lonely bitch" he spat, "let's get out of here" he said dragging me by my wrist outside the bar as he cleared the bills. "And you're sure to choke on one of those big fat dicks being shove down your throat" I replied groggily. "And I will die happily". "Get in" he said holding out the car door for me to get in. "Zack..?" "What" "I feel like I'm gonna puke" I said, rushing back out of the car. "Ewww, GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!! You disgusting animal" zack yelled. "Wasn't it your whole stupid idea to come suck a dick!." I spat. "I won't deny that but having to meddle with your puke is so uncalled for" My head is really spinning so bad, I can't stand his whining. "Boy, just love me and that's all" Now let's go I need me some rest, tomorrow my sorrow begins." I groaned before getting back into the car. As much as I want to get home quickly I'm more concerned about my life, for some reason I feel like this boy must have eaten something, he breathes differently. (Don't ask me how). This isn't the first neither the second time his dragging me out to a gay bar. Well I don't have anything against him, I blame myself for foolishly following him again after he almost got us killed, I mean we got almost crushed by an ambulance. "Lord into your hands I commit my Life" "Shut the fuck up girl!" You've got no one now expect me, so be grateful and ThankGod instead" Zack snared. I turned and rolled my eyes at him. I closed my eyes for second and breath out. Heaven knows I really can't do a thing right without him. Zack and I have known ever since we were like in the wombs, our mums were sort of best friends back in their college, they did almost everything together, got married to on the same day to my Dad who is also his Dad best pal, and not surprisingly they both decided to have a child same time. Left to me, I will say they're weirdos. We could be twining although we're but Zack never admits that, he keeps saying his older with five minutes. He shouldn't be saying that out loud. I just let him win whenever I'm in a good mood or when I feel like, other than that? He cries himself to sleep, he was born a bottom. We did almost everything together, same kindergarten, same high school, and of course we're doing college together, I'm like his breath of life. Uhmm and yeah, our parents for some reasons best know to them decided not to have another child. They sort of made the right decisions, cause I don't think we both will want that. We were like what people which they have, but couldn't, I mean we do everything together, although out of curiosity we might have just kissed couple of times between the age 10-11. Before we realize our differences and that we're better of the way we are not to complicate things that was the best decision ever, and it's not like Zack was born gay, maybe let's say he was in some sort of denial, well we tried being as normal and as straight as we could possible be but we both laughed so hard at our silly attempts. Oh, and we both might have a lot In common but we differs a lot for instance zack have marshmallows for a brain while I don't. He mostly wants to party and get fucked most of the time, while me on the other hand I'm so weak. I just want to get through the day as easily as possible, no matter who I step on to do it. "How do you two manage to get pass through the securities at those clubs, don't they check your ID's?" Curtis my Dad's personal driver and assistant asked, as zack and I managed to drive home safely. "You should be happy we both alive and fine". Zack said as he walk me to my room. " Let go of me me. I'm not a baby". I scoffed as I snatched my hands off his grip. "Girl you better watch your mouth, I'm like your saviour tonight, and I'm only doing you a favour which you will surely pay back" He snapped back, before turning his back on me, heading back to the exit. "Oh, and please don't get me waiting tomorrow, cause I will sure leave without your lazy ass if you ain't ready when I come back here!!" "Ugh..mother fucker!, why will I want to see your ugly face tomorrow" I mumbled,

"TOMORROW?!!"

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