Chapter 5 Regrets

Little Note Wolfe's, new characters are about to be introduced, so I will be putting POV for whose point of view ill is speaking from.

(Marcus POV)

Elena. She is so beautiful. Her very name means Light itself. I have loved her since the day I first met her 10 years ago. We were both still kids at the time. I was eight and she was only four. She is the most beautiful of all the people I know. I remember falling and hurt my knee from playing around outside. She came up to me and kissed my knee and told me it would all be okay. I knew right then, the moon goddess made her for me. I tried to make sure I was in her life as much as possible after that. She and my sister Jan became close. I loved it. My sister knew how I felt about her. However, I had to keep my thoughts to myself. As the beta of the pack, it isn't a good look whoring around with all the pack sluts, I prefer Daniel to do it. His nature. Not mine. I knew she was my mate about a week before her father's incident, when I turned 18. I went over to her house to visit Lynx to play Call of Duty when the best smell hit my nose before I even opened the door.

The smell of fresh pine and honey was coming from inside her house, and I knew it would draw me to her. All I can hear my wolf Isaac say over and over is Mate Mate Mark Mate. She was sitting in the kitchen with her brown hair to one side. Once those Jewel blue eyes looked at me, it was all over. I wanted to mark her on the spot, but her father called her before I even reached her, and she was out the door quickly. Since then, I have been trying to contain my wolf, Isaac. My wolf was out of control. Especially since he was forced to submit by David and hold her down while David beat her. I could sense her pain and it just made me want to pull her in my arms and kiss away all her wounds. When David threw her body on the pavement, I went back to get her, patched her up and said the nurse did it, and I took her home. I saw the terrible state her body was in. I called her family nurse on the way to meet me there. I commanded the nurse not to let anyone know I was the one that brought her. After a few hours, I got a mind link that someone was attacking pack members at her house. I get to her house, along with a few others, and see her on the floor covered in blood and I hear her mother's shit excuse saying Elena did it. I saw Elena's injuries before all of that.

I knew there was no way in hell she did because she had no wolf. My wolf would have sensed her, but no one knew she was my moon blessed mate, so I couldn't save her. I decided I had to wait on the sidelines and see how things went. I made jokes to David about how she should be a maid instead, because we couldn't laugh at her from the cells. I knew he would tell his father to make her a servant. I had to get my baby out of those cells. Her brother lynx and my sister would always come from the cells laughing about how they hit her or wounded her. My wolf was so upset, I growled at them both and left. I didn't speak to them for weeks, and they left me to be. I made sure to avoid her as best as I could while working from the sidelines to find out what happened to her dad, but I got nothing. There was nothing I could do.

Tonight, is Elena's 18th birthday and I knew she had her wolf. It was a matter of time before her she-wolf recognized me as her mate. I was so happy. All day Isaac was jumping around, ready to mark and claim his mate. I had made a plan to get her out of here. We were going to run away from this awful pack. I could care less about them or my status. Not even my sister, who has turned into a hateful bitch with Lynx as her mate. We all got a mind link tonight telling us to meet at the servant's quarters with weapons. I rushed there with everyone thinking they were under attack, but it was just the alpha, my sister, lynx, his mom, and David there, and in the middle looked like a lifeless Elena.

I'm so scared she is dead, but I see movement and I know she is alive. Just as I'm about to go to her, David's mind links me with his alpha voice and commands me to stay away from her and stay silent or he will kill my sister and mom in cold blood. I know he will and since he is the alpha's son. I have no choice but to obey. My wolf is struggling to get out. Then the alpha makes his statement and the next thing I know, everyone other than the help is beating on her.

Her eyes meet mine and I can't help but cry as I try to fight against the alpha's command to get to her. Everyone enjoys hitting my mate. She looks at me, and I can see her say, mate. She is begging me to save her, and I can't. All I can do is cry. I'm sure David can feel my struggle against his command, and I know he had already put the pieces together. I looked at him, my eyes full of hatred for him. He minds link me to reject her if she does awake from this or it will be my family's head on a platter and to turn around and walk away. So, he must have put it together. He knew she was my mate. He probably has always known. His alpha command is strong. I may be a beta, stronger than most, but I am not stronger than he is. I've never felt so defeated in my life. I give my pretty girl one last look before I do, wishing to the moon goddess, she makes it out of this alive, even though I know if she does, she will never forgive me, and I will never be able to live with myself.

Elana's POV

Beep....Beep...Beep

She's stable, someone says

I can hear other voices, but they seem far away. I don't want to hear voices. Maybe if I go back to sleep it will all go away.

Beep...Beep...Beep

I'm up again. What's that beautiful smell? Did someone bring me roses? They smell so nice. Thank you, kind person. People aren't nice to me these days.

Beep. Beep...Beep

This sound is so annoying, I'll open my eyes now...somehow my eyes don't want to open. Wait, people are arguing again, and I think someone brought more flowers. Ugh. I want to open my eyes. I feel like something is covering them. I can't move either. Why can't I move?

Beep. Beep...Beep

I am slowly peeling my eyes apart, yay I can open them finally, even if it's for a little bit. The light is bright, but my eyes are adjusting. I saw a form standing beside me. He is so handsome. It's easy to get lost in those ocean eyes. He smells just like roses. I'm breathing the scent in even though I can hardly move any other parts. He is stroking my cheek and I feel sparkles there. Mate! Something inside me says. Really. Is he, my mate? He is so handsome. But why does he look so sad? Did I do something wrong? I tried to talk to him to tell him to smile. I'm okay now, but I can't move my mouth. It's like my whole skull is wrapped around something. I can see the doctor putting something in a tube thingy. Whatever that was, it made me drowsy. I'll go to sleep now. I hope you're there when I wake up, mate.

Beep...Beep. Beep

I opened my eyes again. I can see everything now, and someone removed the cast from my head. Ugh finally. I want to get up, but I can't. Casts around my legs and arms. Why is the cast there? Suddenly, I felt the pain from it all. It all hurts so much, but I know my wolf will heal them. It may just take her about a day or two. I can tell its nighttime. I should be helping with the party, but I can't move. Why? I'm trying to remember what happened when he rushed in. I know the smell of roses from anywhere. My mate. Marcus. He looked so relieved. I try to smile but my jaw hurts. I gave him a small smile. I looked to the edge of the bed to see my brother, mom, alpha, alpha son, and my brother's mate all staring down, glaring at me as if I was the worst person in the world right now. Their faces though, what happened.... It all starts to come back in bits and pieces. And then it all comes rushing back. I can hear my heart monitor go wild as I'm trying to tell the doctor to make them go away but I can't. My doctor soon told everyone to leave. However, the alpha and Marcus stay behind. Marcus looks at the alpha with an upset face and somehow, I know that all the pain I'm in now, is nothing compared to what is about to come out of his mouth.

'Now Marcus, we don't have all day" the alpha says,

Marcus takes one look at me; I can feel all the love he has for me at that moment, and I am hopeful. Then his face started to harden. It becomes.... emotionless as he says the next words, I wished to goddess I had never heard.

"I, Marcus Clearwater, Beta of the Black Sun pack, Reject you, Elena Davis, as my mate"

"Good boy," the alpha says and smirks at me, gripping Marcus' shoulder and pulling him out of the room.

He rejected me.

He rejected me.

No, maybe this is all a joke.

He can't reject me; he is supposed to save me.

Why isn't he saving me?

I can hear my heart monitor go nuts, but I don't care

This pain, this pain comes from deep within and I can feel the bond breaking

Come back Marcus

Please, come back, I'm crying as each tear leaves me numb and numb.

I know he is feeling the bond break with me.

I know he was forced to do it and I don't want to cause him anymore pai than I have to.

I saw the alpha's face

I know Marcus will feel this, but I want to help him. If I know Marcus, I know he has no choice. He would never do this willingly.

With the last bit of strength, I have left

"I, Elena Davis, accept your rejection."

Then I flatline

I opened my eyes, and I was lying in a meadow. Roses and flowers are everywhere.

"Come to me my child " I heard a voice say. It's the woman from my dreams. The woman with the silvery-white hair. She is holding out both arms for me to come to her. It's so inviting. I walk up to her, and she embraces me, and suddenly, I know who she is.

'Moon Goddess" I said, smiling at her beautiful face. She looks just like she did in my dreams, but this time, she is wearing a light pink dress that flows elegantly along her body. She stands up and takes my hand, and I follow her and look down. I look at my body to find myself in an all-black lacy dress that flows behind me. It's breathtaking. We walk hand in and until we come up to a beautiful pond. The pond has white and blue roses in it. The water is so clear considering it's almost nighttime here and there is a bit of a low fog around, but the bluish fireflies hanging around make everything just more visible and more beautiful.

When we get up to the pond, we sit on the stones, and she gazes at me. Her beauty is undeniable, and I can't help but stare. I realized she has the same eyes as me. The same jewel blues. Just when I was about to ask, I saw a pure wolf coming towards me. The wolf is so beautiful with deep purple eyes that take my breath away. She towers even the tallest alpha I have ever seen. I can tell; however, she is weak, and I want to help her. The wolf sits by my feet as I lightly grip her fur.

I turn to the moon goddess, who is watching with dazzling eyes.

" Can we help her Moon Goddess", I asked. " She seems so weak"

" She is feeding off my life energy, any moment now and she will be able to help you" I look at her questionably. "Help me with what Moon Goddess?"

" Help you return home, my child". I ponder what she says, and I think about all I have endured in life.

"My lady, if this is your wish, I will do so willingly. However, I have to tell you that my heart is so heavy. I do not think I can continue to carry on." I told her, tears forming. She wipes my tears away.

"I know what you have suffered, my child, but you are the only one who can right the wrongs that have befallen you, as well as prevent it from happening to my other children', she says with sad eyes.

" I am just a nobody my lady. a lonely servant girl who has seemed to become everyone's punching bag lately".

" It is for those very scars you have, my child, who makes you worthy of such a task. Braving through all you have faced yet still keeping your heart pure. You will restore balance to the wolves, my dear, for you are not just a wolf. You are the alpha to all wolves. Your wolf is the last Lycan wolf. A leader of all. A direct descendant of myself. You bow to no one. Everyone will bow to you. You will speak and everyone will listen. You will communicate with the masses with ought so much as batting your eyelashes. I have seen this, my child, in the water. Your memories lie there. Let me show you"

My eyes are wide with the information I received. Me, a child of Mother Moon herself. It would explain the similarities and why at times it felt like I could make my alpha submit. Sometimes, I get up and follow her into the warm water of the pond. She beckons me to sit and lay my head back in the water and I do. All around I can see my memories as if I am reliving them all. I can see my past lives and a man who stands beside me in these memories with each new reincarnation. He is handsome, with golden eyes and jet-black hair. His eyes are liquid pools of honey. I am smiling as I see generations and generations of us together conquering foes, battling enemies. I see the weapons I used in wars. Not weapons, but powers. The power of the moon, water bending, and is that energy?

I suddenly sit up, and the moon goddess guides me out of the waters.

"Moon goddess, I have none of those abilities that I had before. "

" I know, child. Your abilities will come when you need them the most, but your Lycan abilities will always be a part of you."

" I rejected your gift, moon goddess. I rejected my mate. How do I go on protecting everyone with no mate beside me for strength?" Wouldn't my wolf wither and die with no mate?

"You are about to become a part of something much bigger than yourself, my child, and not to worry. Marcus was not your original fated mate.

"Yes, my lady", I responded. I know I have to go back. So many people living in poverty to a tyrant alpha, a deceiving luna, and a whole pack of abusers. I have to make things right again. For my father. For myself. For them. I may be the woman in my memories of the water, but I am also different now. I know this to be true.

"My lady, how can I reconnect with my wolf? I believe I lost her, and I need to reconnect with her"

" You have already done that, my child," she said. The huge white wolf from earlier now stood up proud and tall, waves of energy and aura pouring from her.

"Snow," I said, smiling at her and rubbing on her white coat, which is lying indeed like snow. So, this is my wolf. Wow! She is huge, standing near 8 feet tall.

My love Elena, I have followed you since the dawn of time, leading over kingdoms with a full and bright heart. We shall, again, reconquer our kingdom from those who seek to tear us down. Those who seek to make us afraid. I always told you, my love, we are strong, and I will stand by you. Always.

" I rub her coat, believing her every word. I am ready. I know it.

."It is time for you to wake up now, my beautiful child. " The moon goddess touched my cheek.

" Watch over me mother moon," I say as I embraced her.

"Always," she says and kisses my forehead. Everything is swirling around and fades to complete black.