Chapter 4 Rejection

A warm mouth on mine. I feel the other lip begging for entrance and when I give it I feel it again but this time hotter... it's fire coursing through my veins and warming my blood I taste honey and ash I'm not supposed to taste anything while kissing someone except they had just taken something.

Then it hits me again, the smell honey, ash and camwood I start to squirm between my legs why am I feeling like this with Markus' lips on my his tongue devouring every inch of my mouth I hear him growl mine and the it registers in my head he's mine and I his.

We are mates.

I love this new flavor I taste and smell. Markus skims his hands over my breasts squeezing each one softly and hardly at same time I feel like he should take me right now, right here on this training field.

Then I pull away even if I'm not wanting to and stare into his eyes which shines now with hunger, hunger for me I look away and the smile that his face held fell.

"Ciara what's wrong you should be happy. Now I take my words back I won't reject my mate because you're my mate." he says and shakes me I build up all the courage in my head and say the words because it has to be said.

"I Ciara King, Alpha Female of Moonblood Pack under Moon' Territory rejects you Markus Vaughn Lance as my mate." I saw his face fall completely I turn away and run so as not to take back my words and I run away like a coward I am.

I drag my legs back to the event and seat down thank goodness no one asked me where I was I noticed Caleb sit down minutes later and gave me the most scrutinizing look.

Then next my father announces to my pack members that the Alpha of Blackwood Pack is my mate and is coming to visit in two weeks time the whole crowd cheered I see Markus as he returned back to the gathering freeze in his steps mouth wide ajar oh no goddess how much more pain can his heart carry tonight I feel horrible at myself.

He backtracks and runs away I want to call him but I don't he has to leave the prophesy must be fulfilled...

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I reject you... The Alpha of Blackwood pack is her mate.

Those words kept repeating inside my head as I retreated how?, when?, but it's me, I'm Ciara's mate?, is it because I'm not an Alpha?.

Thousand of questions flooded my mind in a second.

I tried shifting into my wolf but Corvin was acting stubborn the rejection had hit him more than me. What is Ciara thinking, what is the Alpha thinking what is everybody thinking and I punched the tree and it cracked, I need to shift else I'll break everything in my path.

I forcefully changed into my wolf because he also needed to let go of loads of steam.

Then I ran, as I ran I cried my soul out the mate pull is hurting me cause I haven't accepted the rejection but it didn't matter.

In a few minutes Ciara would stop feeling the mate pull because she offered the rejection, I ran deeper into the woods hitting myself against every tree but the pain I got from harming myself didn't match the amount of pain coming from my heart I was bleeding inside my heart.

I have never hated any ceremony as I hate this one right now all the questions are thrown in Selene's face.

"Markus why?" Corvin cried to me as he slowed down at the water fall.

"I wish I knew, I wish I knew why she did this"

"You were always right of the blue eyed blonde being your mate, but look at us now rejected." he said and let out a dry wolf chuckle.

"It hurts in here." I knew he meant his heart, our heart.

"Markus make it stop, please" Corvin begged me I have never felt my wolf this helpless in my life my wolf was so helpless.

Corvin let out a big howl, a mourning howl, a howl filled with pain and loss that I know many of the pack members would hear his cry but I don't care. There is nothing to care for now. All is lost and gone.

And slowly I felt a shift nooooooo I screamed inside my head. My wolf is leaving me; retracting into a shell I never knew existed, Corvin, I whispered he didn't answer just a slight whimper and I knew he needed to mourn what he had lost and I also; doesn't mean I will give up, something big must've made Ciara make such a drastic decision cause it wasn't like her.

I felt like dying as I walked back to the pack with a sullen face I walked with my thoughts on my back weighing me down the more I neared the pack, I felt the mate bond decrease and the pain in my heart increase, a fog has settled inside my brain and I felt as if I would go mad in matter of seconds.

Finally I reached the damned house I don't want to talk to anyone today and I pray I don't run into anyone because I felt like breaking and smashing and giving total destruction to anything and anyone in my path I was starting to see red.

Red with anger, pain, rage and the very taste of rejection I can't pass through this much. I went up to Selene's room and took out her wolfsheen one of the thing that could kill and harm most wolves apart from silver.

Selene as the pack huntress kept this incase she ran into any intruder this would make me pass out and not feel anything no pain no hurt just nothing at all.

I took seven bottles too my room I'd take one every day this wouldn't be enough cause I'm stronger than any wolf even a Beta sometimes I wonder if my real parents were Alpha and Luna I pushed that thought aside no Alpha would abandon his heir or son at the most.

I took two bottles 20ml each of the wolfsheen it won't kill my wolf, my wolf has already retired to solitary so should I.

I felt the pain tug at my chest but everything was slowly fading away as the sheen took its effect, I found peace again in the darkness as I embraced it and fell into a deep slumber.