Chapter 6 Six

"Excuse me? Me? Flirting? We were just talking," I explained.

But why?! What the hell does he care?!

He chuckled "That's why you smile so much at him, huh? Your eyes are still bright as you look at him. Are you really happy, huh?" He said.

My brows furrowed "I just congratulated him," I answered seriously.

"Right, Nice to meet you, Ben. We're leaving. Happy birthday again!" He repeatedly said like a child and rolled his eyes.

I glared at him "Why? What's wrong with you? What the hell you two didn't talk much with your ex that you're going to take your annoyance out on me?" I said irritated.

He continued driving and turned to me."What?" He asked and lips pressed together in a thin line.

I chuckled "I don't know about you! It's a good thing Ben came and talked to me when YOU LEFT ME ALONE," I answered irritated.

His jaw clenched and stare a bit at me "Sorry,"

"You really love him that much, don't you? To the point that he's the only thing you see? You'll do anything to talk to him and just be with him, what? Even if you don't want to go back?" look sulk, Yes. Angel and my other friends know how much I hate being left behind. 'The type that I don't want to be taken on a gala and then suddenly leave.

I felt like I don't belong in this world.

His jaw clenched again " When you love someone you want them to love you back even as dark as night," he answered and turned to me for a moment.

"When you love someone, no matter how hard you do it for the person even entering the needle hole," he said and stopped.

"When you love someone, you want to see them happy even if you are not the reason for the smile on their lips," He continued and looked at me biting his lower lips.

I was able to sit up because of his strong English, if this man is talking to Sadnie, it might cause a nosebleed.

I turned my head back and looked at the man driving. I could clearly see in his face the pleading and traces of bereavement and sadness.

"There are people who, no matter how much we like them, cannot return the love we have given," I promised with a smile.

Instead of looking at him, I looked outside because of the attention grabbing eyes flashing.

I don't know why there are people who we still love, they can't return that love but at the moment it's hard to find someone who will love you back, Just like how difficult it is to see a total solar eclipse.

The person who loves you will not love you back, as if loving you means he was passing through thorny things that are very difficult to do.

"To be loved by the person you loved, It is like forming broken glass that is hard to make," he said coldly.I smiled and nodded

"When you love someone you must be ready to be hurt, sad, to sacrifice and wait," I promised.

It's like we're going through the same thing. The only difference is that he is still stuck in the love that he holds while I have been out of this situation for a long time.

"But hopefully when it is hurt there will be a calming effect as if it were raining heavily. When sad there would be a joyful exchange as bright as the sun," He said and turned his gaze to me.

"If you sacrifice it there is a reciprocal satisfaction that will ease the feelings. When waiting there is a replacement. Like a rainbow after the rain," He said softly as he returned his gaze to the road.

I smiled because of what he said, I didn't know that despite his rudeness, he had such words formed in his brain.

I smiled and gazed into the distance with a faraway expression "Love case you must be willing to take risks, you must not wait for a replacement because true love does not wait for anything in return,"

I don't know why I'm saying this. It's annoying because this man keeps showing my talent. Yes, this is my talent and passion.

He smirked "You looked like an expert why are we the same that the one we love doesn't love us?" he asked."Well, Lets say I'm done with that stage," I proudly answered, His jaw clenched and looked directly at the road.

I looked at the guard here in our subdivision who was busy glancing at what looked like a record book. He even asked me the way to the apartment so I told him where to drop me off.

I was about to faint when he suddenly spoke again.

"What happened?" He asked seriously as he stopped his car in front of the apartment.

I took the paper bag that was at my feet and turned to him "Chismoso," I said jokingly.

"It's nothing. I had an ex with my crush in high school. They said it was just infatuation but it wasn't because of course I was hurt and I got different emotions from my love for him," I promised with a smile. When I actually saw that Josh again, I hit him with the washing machine.

Because right? If he doesn't love me, he should just reject me! He didn't accept me even though he didn't love me! He chooses me and that time I realized that you are not chosen, you will be satisfied. It's not because you were chosen, that's fine. They say it hurts when the person you love doesn't choose you, but it hurts even more when someone chooses you but doesn't love you.

I looked at him who looked at me seriously and I didn't know if he felt sorry for me or was annoyed with Josh I was referring to.

"But are you okay? Have you moved on?" He asked curiously.

Chismoso really!I nodded "Ofcourse! Actually, when I see that, I'm going to slap it very hard! Hey, you reminded me again, I'm going to go inside," I said, irritated.

"Maybe I'll hit you with the washing machine," I whispered before opening the car door."What?" He asked when I got down.

I laughed " Nothing! Goodnight, Be careful when you go home,"

He pouted and smiled "Goodnight,"I turned around and walked into the apartment, the light was still on and it looked like Angel was still awake because it was already nine o'clock.

"Oh, what's your plan?" I heard Angel's worried question.

Does he have visitors?

"I don't know yet. I want to be here with you first because I'm going crazy thinking if I'm still at Jowa's house... my ex," Mawi said while crying.

They both looked at me when I walked up to them.

"Why are you crying?" I want to ask.

I put down the paper bag I was holding and faced Mawi who looked so tired that she was about to cry.

Angel looked at what I was wearing as if he wanted to ask why I was wearing this but because of the situation he didn't bombard me with his questions.

Angel took a deep breath and looked at me "You're the one he came here with, just go with me. I'm going into my room so you can talk more," He said

"If you need anything, just come to my room, "I nodded in agreement.

"Thank you," Mawi said and then hiccupped.

Angel nodded and smiled."What happened? Why did you cry?" I asked and turned to the suitcase by his side.

She hiccupped again "Because...my ex Mark and I broke up," Another hiccup. "I-I can't let him go anymore. We're friends so I answered him...But now I can't take it anymore and I'm feeling guilty because he's so kind to me. So I'm going to stay away away from him even a little bit, because I can't give or surpass the love he gives," She cried and another hiccup again.

I patted his back."I don't know what to tell you but because of what you said. Maybe your decision is right because if you continue you might get hurt even more," I said.

"Can I stay here first?" She asked shyly and stopped her hiccups.

"Of course if you want to open up or you need someone to talk. Just tell me, I can be your rant person slash living diary," I said and smiled

"Don't hesitate, I won't judge you cause who am I to judge, right?"

"I'll just share the bills here. I don't know how long I'll be here if ever I'll move because---"

"You can stay here, but you need someone beside you. I won't let you face that alone. Even though we haven't been friends or known each other for a long time, I know that you have a soft heart," I cut her words off.

She smiled "Thank you really,"

"Come to my room tomorrow. I have work at the J hotel and my shift is at 9 am. I'm out around 4. Let's buy your bed furniture," I said.

My room is big and can fit a bed so it's fine.

"Alright, But I have school tomorrow, eh. Maybe my last class is around 5pm. Is that all right?"

I nodded "I'll just wait for you here at the apartment,"

"Okay, thank you very much,""You're welcome, Alright, let's go to the room. I'm going to get dressed, I'm already taking off my clothes," I complained.

She laughed a bit "Where are you from? Angel said you have a sideline?" He looked at me as I stood up and carried the paper bag.

"Ah yes Cyrus--"

"Cyrus? Lavilla?" he asked.

"Yes, don't gossip," I said flatly.

"You're rude! It's like a while ago you said don't hesitate, don't hesitate," He said and followed me dragging the suitcase.

"I'm sorry, that's right there next to the bed first, then put your stuff in an empty cabinet, you're the only one to use it," I explained.

I got a replacement."Okay, thanks again," she said.

I nodded and went out again. The bathroom is downstairs. It's not high maintenance like others where the bathroom is inside the room.

            
            

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