Chapter 5 No.5

My eyes felt heavy, and it was like my heart was physically hurting. I was in the comfort of my own bed and, I could feel Owen next to me.

"When will she wake up, mom?" Owen whispered, his voice laced with worry.

"The doctor said she's in shock," mom replied with a sigh, "she needs time to come to terms with it." She added.

I opened my eyes slowly and glanced at them. "Oh, you're awake!" Mom blurted. "Are you ok?" She asked.

I sighed and nodded my head. "Is there anything you need?" She asked as she sat next to me. I shook my head and closed my eyes again.

"We'll be downstairs if you need us." She consoled, placing her hand on my shoulder and squeezing gently.

She gestured her head at Owen to follow her. He stood up, glanced at me with a sad expression then followed mom out of my room.

I dragged a breath in. I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I never expected this to happen. I don't know how to deal with this. My head is a mess, and nothing makes sense. I don't understand why he would do this.

'We?won't?know?unless?we?ask.' Athena whispered.

'I?can't?talk?to?him.?I?don't?want?to?see?him.' I whimpered.

'He?said?she?might?be?pregnant,?not?that?she?was.' She mentioned.

'Of?course,?she's?pregnant.' I snapped.

She whimpered but didn't reply.

It doesn't matter what he thinks she will be pregnant because it's our heat season.1

So, not only did he sleep with someone then lie, but he also slept with her during the heat, knowing full well what could have happened.

I screamed into my pillow then broke down in tears. Why has everything turned out this way? I cried until there were no more tears. I laid in my bed motionless.

At some point, I fell asleep. I woke up, and the moon was shining brightly into my room. I groaned and sat up. I swung my legs off my bed and leaned forward with my head in my hands. The bond was messing with me; I missed him. I missed him so much.

I needed to see him. I needed to know why he did it. I stood up, grabbing my jacket and trainers before sneaking out of my room.

"Going somewhere?" Owen's voice startled me. I took a deep breath and turned to him. "I need to see him," I whispered.

He nodded and smiled at me. "Go," He muttered. I offered him a small smile before creeping down the stairs. I reached the front door and quietly opened it.

I rushed out of the door, pulling it closed behind me. I walked along the quiet streets heading for our spot. Once I get there, I will link him and get him to meet me.

I paused as I saw him sat under the gazebo. His head whipped around and, he stared at me. I saw him inhale, and his eyes turn black. I took a deep breath before going over to him.

"Hi." He murmured.

"Hey," I mumbled.

I sat on the grass next to him. I didn't want to be near him any more than I had to. I could feel the bond pulling me towards him. I had to fight against every instinct to wrap my arms around him and let him comfort me.

"Why... Why did you do it?" I whispered.

He took a deep breath and shook his head. "I don't have an excuse. It was wrong of me to do it." He answered.

"Was she... Um, was she in heat?" I asked awkwardly.

His eyes went wide, and he looked like he was panicking. Guilt quickly replaced the panicked look. I gasped and felt my eyes watering.

"She wasn't, was she?" I exclaimed.3

He didn't look at me, and he wouldn't answer me. I was getting agitated. If she wasn't in heat, that means he actually wanted to. He couldn't use her scent as an excuse.

"Not the first few times," He whispered.11

"Not the first few times?" I choked. "Oh, this is just brilliant!" I shrieked. "What happened to our promise?" I growled.

"Or did you think we wouldn't be mates so it wouldn't matter?" I snarled.

"I'm so so sorry, baby." He whimpered.2

"No," I growled, "you don't get to be upset." I snarled.1

"I could have dealt with you sleeping with someone else... But you lied to me, Ethan." I growled. "I felt it! Everything you did to her; I felt it all!" I yelled.

He winced and sniffled.

"And you know the worse thing... Part of me still wants you." I whimpered. His eyes darted to mine, and they darkened a little.

"But I can't forgive you, Ethan. I can't." I cried.

He came towards me cautiously. He kneeled in front of me. He hooked his finger under my chin and lifted my face. "I am so sorry. I regretted it the moment it happened." He whispered.10

I scoffed, "If that was true, you wouldn't have done it again." I shot.3

"I know. I couldn't control myself, but that's not an excuse, Ayla." He sighed.

"What do we do now?" I whispered.

"I need some time; I need to fix it." He muttered.1

I raised my brow at him; fix what? He got someone else pregnant there's no fixing that.

"You can't fix it. She's pregnant." I rolled my eyes.

"I can't lose you, Ayla." He whimpered.

"I won't survive it." He gasped.

"But you expect me to watch you bring up someone else's pup?" I seethed.

I jumped up and backed away from him.

"Yes, fuck, no... I don't know." He groaned.3

"Oh, Ethan, there you are, baby," A tall she-wolf wandered out from the trees.10

My breath caught in my throat.

She was stunning. Her brunette hair is pin-straight and flows just below her shoulders, the dress she's wearing leaves nothing for imagination. She is the epitome of perfection.

I felt sick; my body was nothing like hers. I felt self-conscious, and I hated that she was the one he had done this with.

"Oh, hi, I'm Jasmine." She held her hand out for me, and I stared at it. "This is where you shake my hand," She giggled.

"I'm Ayla," I greeted through gritted teeth, giving her a quick handshake.

"It's nice to meet you, Ayla. I'm Ethan's mate, and we're having a pup together, isn't that nice?" She asked smiling at me.20

I gaped at him...