Chapter 4 Suicide on my Birthday

"I'm confused" I typed back.

"How? What makes you confused" I'm sure he was confused as well. I felt a bit scared not knowing whether to go ahead.

"Alright so this is what happened, I met this guy, we've been friends for long, he offered we sit out, only to end up in his house and he attempted s*x with me" I was shaking while typing this. I summarized it the best way I could for him.

" Okay so why then are you confused if he only attempted?" He asked, seeking for clarity.

" Pls can we change this topic, I'm not comfortable" I typed fast. I was shaking and tears welled up my eyes. Memories of what happened that day washed over me. And I started hating myself again like I did that day after that incidence and the following weeks. I promised not to talk to anyone about it except my future husband. I was so sure I wasn't going to let any other guy touch me again. Even bestie didn't know the exact details of what happened. Of course I had called her that day to tell her. I had told her I was confused as well and she had assured me I was still intact but did she know the full details?

"It's okay, I'm so sorry for pushing further" he apologized sincerely.

"It's okay it's nothing" I typed back while wiping off the tears that had trailed down my cheeks with the back of my palm.

"So my birthday is in a week's time" I started saying deliberately changing the topic and trying to clear the air between us.

" And I know how much you hate it, are you looking forward to it?" Of course I had told him about my birthdays. I also knew I won't be getting any gift from him because he was broke at the moment. I'm used to not getting gifts so that was nothing.

" I have a favour to ask of you". I told him

"And what could that be Angel" I blushed, it seems that's all I do these days.

"I would love you to escort me to the studio later this Friday. I want to snap some pictures against Tuesday, which is my birthday. Also we would get to finally meet". Yeah, all these days, weeks and months. We had gotten this close without meeting each other before. Not like distance was the problem, I just didn't have much freedom to step out anyhow without a round of so much questioning from both parents. They were so protective. Most times I felt their over protective nature would only make me go against them and become bad. But others would say "someone who wants to be bad will still be bad, even under their parents' roof"

"Yes of course, it would be my pleasure" I could feel he was so happy. He's been asking to meet me for a long time now and I kept giving him different excuses. This Friday I would fulfill someone's dreams. I felt Happy too.

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My phone rang as I was about to stroll into my neighbors compound. I went to get my makeup done by my sister's friend who happened to live a few blocks away from us and could do a makeover. She wasn't a Pro but at least I could afford her. This was going to be my first makeup. I was feeling all giddy on the insides.

"Hello Tee" Dominic's voice sounded through the phone.

"Hi Dom" I answered back. I knew he wanted to talk about the time. I made a quick check at the Time and it was 10:00am. This was the time we were supposed to meet but I hadn't done anything yet pertaining to my shoot. I have just destroyed my first impression I thought to myself.

"Yeah, it's time already, what are you doing and where are you?" I could hear the lack of patience in his voice. He couldn't wait to meet me.

"See, Dom I haven't done my makeup nor dressed up yet. Would you mind if we shifted the time a bit" I told him truthfully, asking for extra time.

"Alright Angel anything for you" he said, making me blush again. He made me feel so good.

"So what time would be favourable?" he asked.

"I should be done by 12pm' I replied giving myself 2 hours but I knew it would take longer than that so I couldn't tell him that. I didn't want to make him lose his patience.

"Alright then,bye Angel. Just call me as soon as you're done" I nodded and smiled as if he was here. The call ended and I walked up the steps of their house. I used the back side because her dad was around, and also to avoid too many questions. I knocked and Adele opened the door. Adele was her name, she's Tall a bit chubby, enough front and back with a glowing fair skin. A pure definition of beauty. The makeup took 2 hours though it was a simple one. I went back home and put on a skin tight red gown. It was above knee length but not too short with big sparkling diamonds designed in a "V" shape just above my chest. The cloth covered my shoulders and went down to my elbows. My hair which I tied up in a rose style letting down two in front was more like a brown but pale red coloured, twisted, tiny braids. Everything complimented my dark skin. I stared at the mirror and I looked so transformed. She had used a nude colour on my lips with less eye shadow. I nodded satisfied with my looks but a bit shy because I knew I would get so many stares today. I checked the time and gasped, it was 1:00pm. How did the time fly so fast? I checked my phone and there was no missed call from Dom. I wondered if he was angry with me. I picked up my red bag, stuffed my silver heels and a few things I would need, put on my black slippers and headed out of the gates. Like I had said all eyes were on me. I wasn't used to this kind of attention. Halfway there I dialed Dom's number and it rang and he picked it up.

" Hey Dom" I started sounding so nervous

" I'm so sorry, the makeup took so long". I could hear him sigh on the other side of the call which made me more nervous.

"It's okay, I Know it's girls stuff" some seconds had passed before he replied.

"I'm truly sorry, okay? I'm almost there" I kept apologizing. "I'm tired of waiting though, but then anything just to finally meet you Angel '' this made me calm down a bit and I struggled to smile. The tricycle finally dropped me off at the circus where we were supposed to meet. I started strolling, ignoring the stares from people. It was damn hot, I was more concerned about my makeup getting ruined. I brought out my phone and looked at his picture one more time hoping I won't walk past him without recognition. Just then my phone rang, it was Dom. I picked.

"I've spotted you" His voice came through Immediately. I turned and started looking around a bit to find him.

" Really? But I can't spot you" I replied, still searching. "You're in a red gown" I felt sad and a bit shy that he spotted me first.

"Yeah, where are you?" I answered, still trying to locate him. "Walk back a little you will see me" ouch and I had walked right past him. Smiles. I strolled back a little bit and I did see him. We just stared at each other without a word. On my part I didn't know what to say.

"It was worth the wait" he finally broke the silence after checking me out.

"You look so gorgeous" he went on.

"Thank you" I blushed. "Now let's get going,we are more than late". I said while grabbing his hands.

"Not we, you. It's your fault you know" he said as we boarded a mini bus and settled down. I turned to look at him actually noticing him for the first time. I had been too busy to do this Immediately we met. I was thinking of how to get home before 6 which is my curfew. So he didn't look bad. He was quite tall and slim. Not too ugly not too handsome. Forgive me but we all have our dream guy, a mental picture of what we want him to look like. He had the height and body but certainly not the looks or fashion sense. He was fun to chat with which means he should be fun to be with too.