Chapter 5 Suffering

Ciara's pov

I spent most of the afternoon cleaning the house despite my physical body being in pain, because Tyron might get upset again when he finds the house untidy.

How can I do what he orders if he always comes home drunk. Then, I was repeatedly blamed, hurt and locked to an abandoned room. Nothing new, the course of my life is repetitive. It will hurt, I will cry, but I will forgive him over and over again, because I really can't be angry at him, no matter how badly he treats me.

I also repeatedly became a martyr and I just got used to letting him do whatever he wanted. As long as I could be with him, I was fine, well not totally.

After I cleaned the whole house I sat down on the sofa to rest. Waiting for Tyron to return as time goes on, but every time I think of him with his so-called wife, I can't help but get hurt. I don't know who he's referring to, but it's so painful, it hurts me a lot. I stayed by his side because I knew he still cared about me, but now that I know he has a wife besides me, my heart is breaking and I don't know where else to place myself. My heart aches.

"Is she pretty? Does his wife love hIm?" I couldn't help but burst into tears as I thought of what Tyron was referring to as his wife. If he is married to someone, then, what am I? Who am I in his life? I wiped the tears from my eyes as I watched my own wounds and bruises that instead of healing, were just getting worse and more numerous.

How can he do this to me? I couldn't really understand him, I couldn't imagine what I had done wrong, for him to treat me like this.

I stopped staring at my bruises and was immediately grabbed by my chest when I felt my heart suddenly stop for a moment. My lips parted as I felt the pain even more.

"Ah!" I couldn't stop myself from screaming when the pain started pounding, it seemed like something was stopping my heartbeat, making it harder for me to breathe.

I can't take this, why do I have to feel and suffer from this.

"Ah.. i-it hurts.." My tears began to roll down my cheeks as I struggled to inhale some air to breathe.

Tyron .. Where are you ..

I glanced slowly at the door, hoping he would come, but my shoulders immediately fell when I remembered that he was not coming home. I started to calm myself and inhale a few times and let out heavy sighs to ease my feeling. I breathed a sigh of relief as I felt the pain in my chest gradually subside.

"I can't even manage to handle my bruises and pain in my body, why does my heart need to suffer from the pain too? You're the only one who's making me strong, why do you need to get hurt.." I said weakly to my heart.

I thought of leaving for a while to get a check-up from the nearby hospital. I might not live much longer in the world if I just ignore this pain.

"Are you all right, Miss?" I turned to the taxi driver when he asked me.

"I'm fine, sir." I replied smiling but he just sighed on me.

"You're not in a good condition, you shouldn't just endure it if it's only giving you pain." A bitter smile curved on the driver's lips when he noticed a few bruises on my face and body.

"It's okay, this is fine. Love can bare." I replied with a smile but he just smiled and didn't answer again. In the middle of the trip, the Manong driver stopped driving.

"It looks like there's still traffic," Manong said worriedly when we stopped at edsa. I looked at the stop light and it turned red. I was about to turn my gaze back to the driver, but before that happened, something caught my eye not far away from where I. I don't know if I'm just hallucinating, but, "Tyron?" I was stunned for a moment and stared at it carefully.

It's really him!

I smiled and was about to call him, but I noticed that there was a woman in the car with him. They were holding each other's hands that made my heart clenched. I even saw how a smile flashed on Tyron's lips when the woman kissed him on the cheek.

"T-tyron ..." I stuttered, but I suddenly screamed because of pain when I felt my chest tighten again. I tried to open the car window to call him out even though I was having a hard time breathing.

"Tyron!" I shouted in a very weak voice but enough for him to hear. I even saw him look into my direction, but I knew he hadn't seen me yet because I had completely fallen.

"Miss!"

Tyron's pov

My brows furrowed as I heard a voice not far away and seemed calling my name.

"Who was that?" I whispered confusedly to myself. I'm sure someone called me, but who was it?

"Hey, are you okay? What's bothering you?" I looked in Hannah's direction when I heard her voice.

"Huh?"

"You alright?" A worried emotion planted on her face as she clings to my arm. I smiled slightly at her.

"I'm okay, don't mind me. Just thinking about something." I replied, smiling. "Are you sure?" She asked, but she didn't seem to believe my answer, so I just smiled at it before stopping the car in the carpark near the entrance of the mall.

"We're here." I cut off our conversation and quickly got out of the car to open the door for her.

"Thank you, hon." She said, smiling.

"Welcome, hon." I almost whispered to her ear that made her tickle and hit me on the chest again.

Come on.. why is she always hitting me? Is she a retired psycho?

When we got inside the mall, Hannah immediately ran somewhere.

"Hon, look! It's so cute! Omg!" I went to where she was and looked at what she said was cute. I'm sure it's not cute because she's the only one who's cute in my eyes.

Psh, you're corny, Ty.

I looked at the puppy that Hannah was referring to that she was now playing with.

"It's like I just want to be a puppy," I whispered as he lifted the puppy and went nose to nose.

Psh, that should be me.

"What? Were you saying something?" I looked at her when she asked that.

"Ha? No, nothing. Ah, you want that?" I cleared my throat as I said those averting her attention, and as expected, her eyes immediately lit up when I asked that.

"Can I?" She asked with a smile on her face while doing a puppy eyes that made me scoff. I pinched her cheeks for a second.

Cute.

"Of course, why not? If it's for the mother of my soon to be children." I said and wink at her. But I also immediately regretted it because I tasted the punch from him again.

"Stop it!"

"You're really sadistic." I frowned as she slapped my arm. Tss! The heavy weight of her hand.

"Nevermind, I won't buy you that anymore." I protested and crossed my arms. Sulking.

"Come on, I'm just fooling around. Don't be kj!" She laughed but I just stared at him.

"I'm just kidding!" She chuckled and then approached me, but I turned my back.

"Baby, I'm sorry." she whispered, which made me stop for a while.

W-what?

I immediately faced her, looking so shocked.

"W-what did you say?" I asked smiling like a tipid dog.

"Sorry?" She guessed.

"No, that's not it. The word before that." I pointed to her.

She just called me that thing earlier, right?!

"The word before dot?" She confusedly asked, which made me nod for a response.

"Mmm ..." she frowned and looked at where she seemed to be thinking deeply.

"Aha. Ink!" She answered, smiling so widely that my two eyebrows met.

Huh? What? Ink? Wth?

A few seconds my brain was loading as I thought about what she just said, but I never really got it.

Where the heck did she get her answer?

"What?" I asked, confused.

"Isn't it the one you're talking about? You said the word before 'dot', right? Then, it's an ink. Like when you make a dot using a pen, of course an ink will come out before you make a dot from a pen?" She explained that it made my brows furrowed even more.

Wth is she talking about?

"Damn it," I just rubbed my forehead because of what she was saying. What is the hell, is she really out of her mind?

"What's going on with your mind? Nevermind, let's just go." Because of embarrassment, I pulled her because the sales lady was already laughing at us.

"But the dog.."

"I'll buy you that next time." I don't know why that weird thing entered in this woman's brain. Damn it, it seemed like my brain was going to explode. I don't understand her.