Chapter 4 The Longest

Why am I looking for Blake? what has gotten into me? Twice in one day he had been rude to me and I hadn't done anything to deserve it. Yet my heart eagerly longs to see him. I guess the song spoke volume... the heart indeed wants what it wants. Soon after I spot him just before he disappears into our next class. My heart drops into my stomach as clinging to his right arm is none other than Ashley. "Duh of course" I sigh. What was I even thinking. I'll never stand a chance again someone like her.

And as if sensitive to my heartache my mind tries to be of comfort "he was never worth your time girl...you're too good for a mood swinger"

With him no longer in sight I beg that I'll have an ' out of sight, out of mind ' experience. However, that won't last too long as I know he's also in my next class.

The teacher isn't there yet when I arrive and as painful as it is, I have to endure Ashley's boisterous giggles as she tries to own all of Blake's attention. Why is this affecting me? I don't know but I sure won't let it get the best of me.

I wait on the teacher's arrival, a few times feeling attempted to look at him, but I fight those urges with every fibre in my body. I refuse to allow my emotions to go on a roller coaster ride for a guy like him.

One minute he's staring at me like there's something between us, then the next he's acting as if I've committed an offence when I look at him. 'Ugh! so confusing'

By the end of the day I had successfully diverted my attention to any and everything that wasn't him but after such a battle, exhaustion was collecting its dues.

"Get home safely" a voice whispers.

I turn around to see who was so kind enough to bid me farewell greetings, only to be face-to-face with Blake.

Timidly I respond "Pardon me?"

After the confusion of this morning, thinking I heard something completely different from what was actually said, I sure was not about to let it happen again.

"I said...Ex-cu-se me"

It isn't harsh like this morning's encounter but it leaves me seriously wondering what was wrong with my hearing. I step aside as he walks through the glass door of the school which serves as both an entrance and exit door. My eyes follow him to his black Jeep and watches as he leaves. Immediately a pain evades my heart almost as if when he left he took a part of me.

Blake's POV

Ashley is seriously becoming over bearing. Walking behind me like a kid with their parent. I try to ignore her but she latches on to my arm as I walk into my next class. Jake is in the room waiting. After all I know he must have given up on the quiz because he left within the first hour of a 2 hour long quiz. His life revolves around sports, so he isn't too bothered about what his academic performance will yield. Plus he's a fantastic football player, so I'm pretty confident his talent on the field will grant him security in life.

"Dude" he gins as his eyes dart from me to Ashley then back to me. Could no one tell I was clearly uninterested?

Her little minions finally join her standing in front of my desk. Carly, the chatter, noisier and more impulsive one of the group opens her mouth. 'This ought to be good' I sarcastically mutter.

" You look so stunning" she exclaim examining Ashley as if this is their first encounter for the day. I know this is an attempt to gain consensus from me. Kate is none the wiser and is swift to agree.

'They all suit each other perfectly' and that I agree.

They remain in front of my desk for sometime rumbling on about insignificant, unimportant detail. It was really starting to become annoyingly overhearing with a burning passion. Like nails on a chalkboard their voices fell on my ears. They giggle from time to time and I fight to restrain myself. An outburst from me could trigger my abilities and well there's no telling the damaged it can cause.

Just then the most calming presence was felt. Without even lifting my head I knew the source of its origin. She walks to her seat and everything pales in comparison as for a moment time stands still. My eyes now rivet solely on Sarah. However, she never looks around, she never looks up. An unreadable expression evident on her face making me curious of her thoughts.

"You heard me Dude?" I sigh as I look away from her to Jake who apparently was talking to me for sometime. I realize Ashley is gone 'finally' and just nod at Jake. I have no idea what he was talking about but unfortunately, I am not interest in him repeating either. My guess is, it was something about Ashley.

For the remainder of the day Sarah seems to avoid me, never looking in my direction, never looking back.

'Does she hate me now?' I wonder.

That would be great so that I'll never run the risk of endangering her but yet my heart sinks at the thought of her actually hating me. I just try to get thought the remainder of the day.

"Dude"

As you can tell by now, that's my christen name given by Jake.

"want to hang later?"

"Nah, I can't, got some family business to attention to" I reply.

"Alright Dude" is the last thing I hear before heading to the entrance/ exist. There Sarah is, like a princess, with her gaze down as always. 'If only she knows how beautiful she is she would work it with confidence'

'If only' I shrugged.

I approach her, well I walk towards the door where she is standing, but I guess you can still say I approached her.

"Get home safely" I whisper so low that I won't be surprise if she doesn't hear me yet somehow I hope she does. I care so much for her and its a mental battle of restrain just to keep myself from embracing her.

I assume she does hear me as she turns around.

"Pardon me?" she seems startled by me yet a glimmer of hope twinkling in her eyes.

"I said.....Ex-cu-se me"

I'll rather lie than give her a glimpse into the soft spot my heart has created for her. If only she knew a fraction of the way I felt for her it would complicate things.

I know I have urgent Pack business, which I refer to as family business when communicating with humans, which includes Jake. I don't want to be late so I slip by Sarah filling my lungs with her heavenly floral fragrance one last time before leaving the compound.