Chapter 4 Panic Attacked

I woke up when a gentle hand landed on my forehead, I gradually opened my eyes and the worried faces of Shanny and Zeinn opened up to me, I was surprised to see them.

"W-what happened? Why am I here? As I remembered I'm in the backyard," I said and forced myself to get up but ended up my self to lying down cause my head ached again.

"Don't move! You just recovered from the fever, what did you think you're doing? You went to the back of the house! Did you know that we were so worried when we saw you lying on the ground unconscious and with a high fever?!" I close my eyes when Zeinn shouts in front of me but also felt guilty at the same time.

"That's enough Zeinn, let's Azure rest first. We'll ask her later she needs to take some rest to regain her strength," Shanny walked to the door and Zeinn followed her.

I just looked at the ceiling, What's happening to me? Why I was so upset when I saw that man? I just remember that I've never seen him before, even now? I don't want what happened to me in the back of the house and I don't want it to happen again, I don't want to hear those voices, it's like a nightmare to me. I just sighed before closing my eyes I will explain to them later, I need to be ready.

"So what is it? Why did you go there and run away from the restaurant? Do you know we're looking for you?" I was quickly overwhelmed by what Shanny said, I just woke up but here they are both waiting for my explanation, I can't blame them.

"I'm sorry, something just happened so I left, how's the restaurant?" I changed the topic because I'm not comfortable talking about it.

"Hey there, Azurethia. Yesterday we were still taking care of the guests, you had a day of sleep. When Shanny and I didn't see you at the restaurant after we welcomed the guests, we said goodbye to manager Cha who was going to help to look for you but we restrained her and said she should supervise her guests and we will just look for you, we also said that there's nothing to worried about because you just not feeling well," Zeinn said to me I bowed down my guilt eat me.

"W-what happened next?" I asked them again.

"We went to the house right away but the door was still locked, a sign that you weren't entered because I had the key then we heard a shout behind our house so we quickly went there and we saw you unconscious, "Shanny continued what Zeinn was going to say.

"What happened, can you tell? We're confused as to why you went back there and why you fainted. We're worried about your condition Azurethia," Zeinn said calmly. Maybe I need to tell them right? After all, they're my best friends.

"When the guests approached me I saw the face of one of them, I know I only saw him in the restaurant and I don't know him yet but when our eyes met I felt my chest tightness and strange fear and nervousness. My hands started shaking and I can't breathe properly, I couldn't stand what was happening to me so I left immediately and ran towards her," I haven't finished what I'm going to say when my tears start to fell.

My tears stopped as someone gently caressed my hair and caressed my back. When I faced them again, I saw Shanny approaching me Zeinn as well.

"It's okay, just keep saying we're going to listen," Zeinn said and made me sit on the bed. They did the same. When I calmed down, I continued what I was going to say.

"When I couldn't open the door, I decided to just go to the back of our house because no one could see me. Until then, I'm still couldn't calm myself. I heard voices and images in my mind. I-I don't know what's happening to me. I tried to stop by shouting, that's all I remember," I said while trying to stop the tears from dripping. I also tried to stop the trembling of my muscles.

"Based on your story, you must have had a panic attack," Shanny said to me and held my hand.

"Panic attack? B-but why would she have a panic attack with a man she's only seen once?" Zeinn asked curiously. I was just quietly listening to them.

"Is it just now?" Shanny seemed to be deep in thoughts.

"What do you mean? I swear I just saw him once. I'm telling the truth," I said in a defensive tone.

"I know, but as long as we don't know why your body reacts like that when it sees the man you're talking about, maybe you need to avoid him first," Shanny suggested.

"Wait, who's among the visitor?" Zeinn said, as if she was saying something interesting.

"T-the man in the back before we welcome them," I told her again.

"Huh, are you referring to Mr. Adrastus? I heard he's rich. Not just rich, he's a billionaire, same with his friends," Zeinn said as if dreaming of nothingness.

"I don't care about them." I took her hand away.

"As if I care," Shanny commented.

"Hey, you're serious. I just heard that from our colleagues I didn't mean to listen to their conversation! Their voices are too loud! You too are judgmental," Zeinn depends herself.

"So what now?" Shanny said to us.

"Are they gone yet?" they both shook, which I wondered.

"Nope, they said they were here for one week, we went to the restaurant when you were resting, we found out that they stayed at the house of manager Cha which is also close to us not only to mention that they can passable our house before they get to the house where they are staying, a while ago they pass through here and they're all handsome especially Mr-aww," Zeinn couldn't continue what she saying when Shanny hit her.

"Why are you hitting me Shan, I'm just joking about the last thing I said," Zeinn held the nape and caressed the part that Shanny hit, but Shanny just stared at her and roll her eyes.

"You, shut up. Focus more on Azure's situation now," Shanny said. Zeinn seemed back at her senses and looked at me.

"What are you up to now?" she said.

"I don't know. Maybe I'm just shock when I see him? However, I want to avoid him no matter what?" I simply said.

"What?!" they said at the same time. I was covering my ear because they're too loud? They didn't need to shout.

"What? Did I say something wrong?" I curiously asked.

"You really asked that, of course, you said something wrong! That's all you could say? After what happened to you? Do you even hear yourself?" Zeinn told her and slapped her forehead as if she has a big problem.

"What do you want me to do, then? Zienn sometimes in my life when I express all my pain, frustrations, and thoughts through a simple curse! I don't know how I'm going to do, I don't want to see him again because I don't want to experience what I experienced again when I see him!" I cried with the frustration I felt.

"Oh yeah! We don't know how you feel; we don't know what you're going through, but Azure we're just worried about you! You've been too hard on yourself. Loosen up! Take a rest and breathe. There are a lot of things in life to enjoy. Go, live the life you wanted. You deserve the best," Zeinn told her and ruffled her hair. She quickly stood up and hugged Zeinn.

"I'm sorry for my behavior, I'm just shocked," she said, but Zeinn just tightened her grip on her.

"It's okay, I understand. I'll leave you and Shanny here. First, the food that I cook was burning," Zienn said and bounced out the door to attend to what she was cooking. I looked at her at Shanny when she tapped her.

"You did well today. I know you're going to do better the next day. Smile, be positive and breathe. I know you'll be all right. I love you," Shanny told her and hugged her. She quickly reacted and hugged before kissing Shanny's hair.

"Thank you, I don't know what I would do without you two," she sincerely said to shanny who's busy playing with her hair.

They turned their gaze when the door suddenly opened and Zeinn spat.

"Let's eat, I'm starving," Zeinn said, while holding her stomach. They just shook before following Zeinn to the kitchen.

"Oh my, Azure, I forgot to return Yeanne's Tupperware when I borrowed it. Can you just bring back it to her?" Zeinn told her and gave her puppy eyes. She just shook her head and nodded. Yeanne's house was also near to their house.