Chapter 4 Brannon's back story

Chapter 3

Brannon's back story

I hated living this lie I call life. I have thought about ending it so many times. My father will never accept me. He is trying to force me to marry CeeCee. Don't get me wrong I do love her, but as a sister. She has always been my best friend.

She is in love, and I refuse to take that away from her. I hated my father for what he was trying to do. He thought by threatening to deport CeeCee's father he could force us to marry.

He knows how much CeeCee loves her family. Only it didn't work. I want no part of hurting CeeCee or her family. Hell, they were more of a family to me then my own father.

I marched into my father's office so we could finally have "the talk." I was done with him trying to control my life. I was gay and if he can't accept that then it's time to cut all ties. I have found someone I love and makes me happy. That is all that should matter to my father, but I know it won't.

I didn't even knock on the door I just walked right in. I was done cowering to him. I have had to fight all my life, but no more. I am proud of who I love, and who I am.

"Brannon you have a lot of nerve showing your face here after going behind my back." My father said.

"Why did you do it?"

"Because I rather force you into a marriage then anyone finding out my only son is gay."

I chocked on air. He knew. All this time he knew I was gay yet didn't say anything. He was ready to ruin so many people's lives just to save his image. I hated him. How could someone be so cruel? Was my being gay that bad? I knew by my coming out I would have a lot of obstacles to overcome.

"I am gay, and I am in love with a wonderful man if you can't accept that then I guess this is goodbye."

"No son of mine will ever be gay. You are cut off. To me you are dead."

I tried not to let his words affect me. Yet they did. He was all I had left. Now I was losing him.

"I hope one day you change your mind. Just know dad that I love you."

I didn't even give him a chance to talk. I walked out and didn't look back. I can't live life with a lie anymore. There is nothing wrong with me. He is the one that is wrong. I have CeeCee and her family, as well as this great guy I met, and Hunter now in my life.

I will be just fine. Yes, it hurts that my father can't just love me. I mean what kind of father can't just love his child. I used to think I was broken. I used to hate myself.

I took a bunch of pills once, but he found me. He cried that day. I just wish he could see that what he's doing caused that. Maybe one day we can fix things between us.

Until then Hunter and CeeCee is allowing me to move in with them. I can't believe how awesome Hunter is being after everything my father did to him and CeeCee. He told me they will always have a place for me. I was glad I had people like them in my life.

My life has never been easy. Being gay brings up all kinds of challenges, but I will never change who I am to make anyone happy. I am not broken. I am just a man that loves who everyone else tells me I shouldn't. Maybe it is society that is broken and needs to be fixed.