Chapter 5 Feelings

Kyle's Point of View :

"Flirty?" Her eyes began to water. I seen so much pain in her eyes. It brought pain to me as well.

"I am the flirty, now? Between us, does it me enjoying someone's company in school? Wow!"

I was surprised to see her tears dripping one after another. I don't want to see her cry. Is what I said bad? I just didn't sleep last night because I was so worried about her, so it's normal for me to get angry.

"-Kyle I fainted yesterday because of a headache and that man was the one who was there to save me! Because where are you? You're with someone else-right? I needed you so much yesterday, but you didn't showed up!"

I was guilty of the last thing she said before she finally entered her room.

What did I do yesterday? Roxanne just invited me to come out, I thought she was just acting because the other day she was like that.

But the cries she had earlier, I knew she wasn't pretending. I let her lock herself in her room first. I also decided not to come to school to take care of Twaine.

I went to the kitchen and cooked soup for her headache. I can see how pale she was when she arrived.

After I cooked I put it in the small bowl of soup. I also mixed milk for her to drink.

I took the duplicate key to my room and I opened her room. She was sound asleep when I arrived. That's why I just put the food I was carrying on her mini table before I approached her and stared at her intently.

Twaine is beautiful. She has long and wavy light brown hair. Her eyelashes are long, her eyes are also brown. She has smooth skin and kissable lips.

"Lucky is the man she will love and will love her." My mind said as I stared at her. She was still crying even though she was sleeping, so I was even more guilty of what I told her earlier.

"Don't worry, it's only a matter of time Twaine and you'll be free." I whispered to her before I pulled the hair that covered her eyes.

"Hmmm" I raised my head when I saw her wake up.

"W-what are you doing here?" She immediately asked.

"I brought you food. Eat that." I helped her get up. When I touched her, I felt like I would be scorched by her extreme heat.

"You have a high fever! Stay here and I'll get your medicine." I told her, she just nodded.

I immediately took a paracetamol tablet and a glass of water before returning to her room.

"Eat your food first before taking the medicine." I reminded her.

"O-okay-" I could see how difficult it was for Twaine to move so I took the spoon in her hand to feed her.

"I can do it." She snatched the spoon from me again.

"Let me do it for you Twaine, I know you're failing."

"Not anymore Kyle, don't train me like this, that you're always there, because I might not be able to cope without you." She said meaningfully.

"I won't leave you, Twaine." I just said.

"Now, maybe yes, but you know we're going to get there Kyle. You're leaving me too, won't you?" Suddenly her voice rose.

"Twaine, that's enough. Eat your food now." I told her.

"I told you I can handle myself, just leave it there and get out." Her stubbornness, again.

I didn't want us to fight again so I just followed her wishes. I let go off with the spoon I was holding and also set down the bowl of soup on the table before I finally left.

I thought about what Twaine said earlier, yes she is right, I will leave her too and she will leave me too.

We will also separate our ways, that is what we agreed. And that will happen when she turns eighteen.

I'm still confused. I still don't know for myself if I love Twaine or if she loves me. Because we will only separate when we still do not learn to love each other.

"Twaine," I called her.

"Why are you still here?" She asked.

"I just wanted to ask you something."

"What' it is?" She asked.

"Do you love me?" She suddenly spit out the water she was drinking. She cough from suffocation.

"What's that question Kyle? I don't love you. I only think of you as a brother." She replied which made me feel heavy.

"Okay." I shrugged.

"How about you, do you love me?" Sh asked. Suddenly my heart beat faster because of that.

"No. Roxanne and I are together now." I answered to her question.

"Really? Congrats! All right, get out of my room and I'll rest again."

When I left Twaine's room, I immediately called Roxanne, because she might be looking for me. I even told her about Twaine and me. She said that was okay with her so we had no problem about that.

Roxanne loves me even before, so she should be the one I love and not Twaine. Yes, Twaine and I had been together for almost three years but there was no special feelings in there. I am just a brother to her and she is the same to me.

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Twaine's Point of View :

It turns out that they are together now, with that Roxanne. Maybe that's the reason why they're super touchy everytime I saw them at school.

As far as I know, that is forbidden but why is it okay with them?

Earlier I was simply crying. I don't know but I'm hurting. I don't want to admit now that I like Kyle especially since he already has a girlfriend. I'm not the kind of woman who can ruin a relationship.

It's been a week since I got sick and missed school so I went to school early today, not to study but to tell a story to Ana.

Ana is my bestfriend since freshman but doesn't know about Kyle and me-about me, that I'm married.

Maybe this is the right time to tell her. It's because I feel so heavy and I need advice to let out of this heavy feeling.

"Twaine, why are you crying?" Ana asked worriedly when she saw me here at the back of the school. I immediately hugged her and cried even more when she hugged me back.

"Ana,"

"Why? All right, you'll just cry over it and then tell your story." She is still full of concern for me. I also cried for a few minutes before finally telling Ana the story.

"I'm married." I said, she was surprised.

"What? W-with whom?"

"With Adrian Kyle Mendez." I can see Ana's even more shock because of that.

"Y-you mean with our prof? That's why you're so annoyed when he's the one teaching?" I just nodded because that was true. It's so bored for me when he's the prof.

"So, what are you crying about and when else?"

"After I graduated from senior high. I'm crying because-" It seems she was waiting for me to say everything, so I continued.

"-because I already love him but I can't tell it to him-my feelings for him. He loves someone else and it will be useless even I told him about how I feel."

"But you're his wife. You should tell it to him before it's too late, Twaine. Besides, he already resigned here." Ana told me, I got shocked to what I've heard from her.

"What?"

He resigned? Why he didn't tell me?