Chapter 4 Drunk

Kasey POV:

I kept an emotionless face all the way back to mine. Jesse kept looking over at me to make sure i was okay.

I find this kinda sweet since he is the "bad boy".

I felt lost, almost broken.

My mum is dead.

It doesn't seem real.

I have to live with my dad.

She isn't here to save me this time.

He is out of prison.

"I'm living next door to you" Jesse said "if you need my help, all you gotta do is shout." Then I realized I said it out loud.

"And you'd be able to hear me?" I question raising a brow. "Or you just trying say i have a big mouth?"I say trying to lighten the mood.

"No. Not at all." He rushes out and I smirk

"Jesse?" I say.

"Yeah" He says looking at me when we stopped at a red light.

"I was kidding" I smile and he chuckled at me.

We had a small conversation until we pulled up outside my house. Tears swelled in my eyes. Don't cry! I scolded myself for the (what it felt like) a hundredth time today. I blinked back the tears.

"Do you mind if I stay here for one more night?" I ask Jesse.

"Are you sure?" He asks.

"Yeah I want one more night." I say in a pleading way. He agreed.

"You can go Jesse." I say

"Huh?" He asks.

"You can go. I'm sure you're busy. Girls to do. Places to be" I stay still emotionless.

He sighed.

"Are you sure? I know what it feels like to be alone" he says and I nod.

"I'll be fine" I lie and he knows I am.

"Okay truth is... I just don't want to cry in front of you. I hate crying because I get sympathy." I say smiling slightly.

"I will stay on the sofa. Only time I will come to your room is If you want me to" he smirks, trying to lighten the mood and I laugh a little.

"Won't be needing to come to my room then?" I say and he scoffs.

"I'm hot. You want me" he says.

"Hell yeah I want you" I say and watched as he smirks.

"See-" but I cut him off.

"I want you to leave me alone" I smile falsely before walking in my house.

Why am I do mean to him?

Because you're scared of getting hurt again.

So you are pushing him away.

We were never close. Hopefully it would go back to when he didn't know I existed.

I walked from room to room.

When I walked past my mum's room I started crying. Tears wouldn't stop rolling down my face. I'm alone.

How was it that this morning everything was okay and now, only 5 hours later, I'm a mess.

Mum died.

The fact that it was true made me cry harder.

My dad is an asshole... now I got to live with him

My mum is gone now she can't help me

Jackson is the reason I ain't trusting boys ever again.

Riley and Damon has their own problems to deal with in stead of my shitty problems.

There was only person, only person, I could think of who cared. 1 is better than no one right?.

I say in a corner of my room for about 2 hours crying. I also found some things to drink, since I didn't feel like eating, and got completely wasted.

I was so drunk that my head was spinning- but it makes me forget. I thought.

I change into some grey joggers and a white t-shirt and stumble out of the house.

I see someone in the car that that dropped me off earlier but I couldn't remember who it was.

"Kasey!" The voice said and I giggled.

"That's me!" I say raising my hand to whoever shouted my name.

"You're drunk" he states.

"And you're not" I say. "Jealous?" I smirk and walk (or stumble) away.

"Kasey!" I heard my name being called again.

"Do I know you?" I ask raising a brow.

"Yeah Kasey. You know me. I'm Jesse" he- well Jesse says and I nod.

"Oh yeah. That"bad boy" in my school. Or our school. Wait aren't you in our school? Why aren't you the school? Is it out school?? Why aren't I in school" I gasp "Why ain't I in school? Oh no my mum is going to kill me. Not like how my dad did, she won't kill me. She loves me. Can you take me to see her?" I rambled to Jesse. He sighed.

"You sleep this off first" he says sighing again.

"Do you like sighing? You do it a lot and I sigh. Lots of people sigh. What if you couldn't sigh? Can everyone sigh? " I gasp "what it I can't sigh?" I say my eyes filling with tears.

Jesse looked at me "You will be able to sigh Kasey... relax" he says and I do.

"Thank God. I love sighing" I smile so wide my cheeks start aching.

"We're here" Jesse mumbled to no one in particular.

"Who are you talking to? Can you speak to ghosts? Can you tell Jackson that even though he hurt me I still love him and that I want him to be alive" I ask Jesse-who's mouth was touching the floor.

"Just stop talking Kasey!" He snaps. I couldn't care. He is a bad boy. He does that shit.

"Okay." I say and cross my arms over my chest.

"Look i'm sorry I snapped. It's just... you shouldn't be telling me about your dad and whoever Jackson is when you are drunk. You're going to regret it in the morning and I don't want you going psycho bitch on my ass" he says and I laugh.

"Jesse?" I ask and he turns his head to look at me.

"Yes Kasey" he says breaking eye contact.

"You were rambling." I giggle before walking out the car door and slamming it behind me.

I turn around to be greeted by a house? No it was a mansion.

"Come on" Jesse says putting a hand on the bottom of my back to lead me into this palace.

"You live here?" I ask and he nods.

"It's huge" I say and he smirks.

"If only you saw my dic-" but I slapped my hand off his mouth.

" finish that sentence and I will kick you where it hurts" I smile and watch as-instinctively- his hands goes to cover that area.

"Take your hand from other my mouth or I will lick it" he says and I quickly removed my hand.

"Come on" he says, grabbing my hand and leading my in to his home.