Chapter 3

The wind ripped through the narrow streets, slicing through Arianna's thin trench coat.

She hugged her arms tightly across her chest. She dragged her suitcase blindly down the empty sidewalk. The rhythmic clack of her heels against the concrete sounded hollow and pathetic in the dead of night.

Her brain was a chaotic mess of flashing images. Nine years of memories were being violently rewritten.

She thought about every time they had been intimate. Right at the very end, when she reached for his face, Gregory would always turn his head. He would bury his face in her neck. He never kissed her on the lips when it mattered.

She had always believed him when he said it was a weird psychological quirk from his childhood. She used to rub his back and tell him it was okay.

Now, the truth hit her with sickening clarity.

He was saving his mouth. He was keeping his physical intimacy pure for Angie. He was using Arianna's body while keeping his soul loyal to another woman.

A wave of intense nausea hit her.

She stopped walking. She leaned her shoulder against a cold brick wall and gasped for air.

She shoved her hand into her coat pocket and pulled out her phone. The screen lit up her pale face.

It was completely blank. No missed calls. No texts. Gregory hadn't even noticed she was supposed to be home tomorrow.

A bitter, broken laugh escaped her lips. She shoved the phone back into her pocket. Her eyes burned fiercely, but she refused to let a single tear fall.

She pushed off the wall and turned down a dark alley.

At the end of the block, a flickering neon sign read The Abyss. It was a rundown dive bar.

She pushed open the heavy, peeling wooden door.

The smell hit her instantly-stale beer, cheap bleach, and decades of cigarette smoke. Heavy metal music blasted from a corner jukebox, vibrating the floorboards.

She ignored the stares of the few rough-looking patrons. She dragged her suitcase all the way to the darkest corner of the bar and climbed onto a sticky high stool.

A bartender with sleeves of faded tattoos tossed a damp, greasy menu in front of her.

Arianna didn't look at it. She pulled a fifty-dollar bill from her wallet and slapped it flat on the wood.

"Tequila. The strongest you have," she ordered. Her voice was completely dead.

The bartender poured a full glass of cloudy, amber liquid and slid it across the bar.

Arianna picked it up. She tilted her head back and swallowed the entire glass in one go.

The cheap alcohol felt like swallowing broken glass. It set her throat on fire.

She slammed the glass down and started coughing violently. The physical pain of the burn forced the tears out of her eyes. They spilled over her lashes, leaving hot, wet trails down her cheeks.

A man sitting two stools down slid over. He smelled like unwashed clothes and stale beer.

He reached out a dirty hand, aiming for her shoulder. "Rough night, sweetheart?"

Arianna's head snapped toward him. Her eyes were devoid of any human warmth.

She grabbed the empty beer bottle left by the previous customer. Without a second of hesitation, she smashed it down hard against the edge of the bar.

Glass shattered everywhere.

She gripped the jagged neck of the bottle and pointed the sharp, broken edges directly at the man's throat.

The man froze. He looked at her eyes and saw a woman who had absolutely nothing left to lose.

He raised both hands in surrender and stumbled backward into the shadows.

The bartender walked over with a rag. He started wiping up the glass, his face bored. "Don't start trouble in my bar, lady."

Arianna pulled three more twenties from her wallet and dropped them into the puddle of spilled beer.

"Keep pouring," she rasped.

She drank mechanically. Shot after shot. She needed the alcohol to kill the sound of Gregory's voice playing on a loop in her head.

Slowly, the edges of the room began to blur. The heavy metal music faded into a dull roar.

She rested her forehead against the sticky wood of the bar. Her fingers traced meaningless circles in the condensation.

Suddenly, her stomach violently rebelled.

She shoved the stool back. It scraped loudly against the floor. She stumbled blindly toward the back hallway and shoved open the door to the women's restroom.

She collapsed over the stained porcelain sink. She dry-heaved, her body shaking violently, but her stomach was completely empty.

She turned on the faucet. The water was freezing. She cupped her hands and splashed it directly into her face, gasping at the shock of the cold.

She gripped the edges of the sink and slowly lifted her head.

She stared at the woman in the mirror. Her mascara was smeared under her eyes. Her hair was a mess. She looked pathetic.

She ripped a rough paper towel from the dispenser. She scrubbed her face so hard the skin turned angry and red.

She took a deep, shuddering breath. The despair in her chest hardened, freezing into a solid block of ice.

She stood up straight. She rolled her shoulders back. The weak, blindly devoted Arianna was dead.

She turned and walked out of the bathroom.