Chapter 4

Clare braced her hands on the cool marble of the sink, taking deep, ragged breaths. The water dripped from her chin, tracing cold paths down her neck. She had to get it together. She had to walk out of here like nothing happened.

She straightened her suit jacket, smoothed her damp hair, and pushed open the door. She would leave, and she would never speak to Egnacio Hayes again.

He was standing there, just around the corner in the hallway, leaning against the wall. He was holding a pristine white handkerchief.

Her heart gave a painful lurch. Maybe she had misjudged him. Maybe he had been waiting to talk to her alone, to apologize. She took a step toward him.

He saw her, and his eyes, for a brief second, held a look of guilt before he composed them into an expression of gentle pity. It was worse than contempt.

"I'm sorry about that in there," he said softly, offering the handkerchief. "There were... other people. I didn't want to embarrass you."

Clare didn't take it. She just stared at him, her eyes searching his. "What are you trying to say, Egnacio?"

He sighed, a long, theatrical sound of regret. "You deserve better, Clare. You deserve someone who will fight for you, not a family that treats you like a bargaining chip."

This was it. Her last sliver of hope. She took another step closer, her voice barely a whisper. "Be that person, Iggy."

The nickname from their childhood slipped out, a relic of a time when she'd felt safe with him.

Egnacio's expression froze. The warmth vanished, replaced by a sudden, sharp coldness. He took a half-step back, creating a chasm between them. As if she were contagious.

He frowned, his voice laced with a kind of weary cruelty. "Clare, you know I've always thought of you as a sister. My most cherished, brilliant little sister. There's nothing more."

Sister.

The word was a dull blade, sawing back and forth through her heart. She watched the face that had once been the sun in her bleak childhood world. It was the face of a stranger.

He gave her one last, pitying look, then turned and walked back toward the booth, his back straight and unforgiving. He didn't look back.

Clare stood frozen in the hallway. The sconces on the wall cast long, distorted shadows, and her own shadow stretched out before her, thin and broken.

From the other end of the hall, a figure emerged from the darkness. Dexter Mathews.

He had been there. He had heard everything. His face was unreadable, his deep-set eyes holding no sympathy, only a quiet, unnerving assessment.

Her breath caught in her throat. Their eyes met, and a new, more potent wave of humiliation washed over her. To be seen like this, at her most pathetic, her most desperate. It was like being stripped naked under a spotlight.

He didn't smirk. He didn't offer a kind word. He just looked at her, his silence a more profound judgment than any insult could ever be.

She clenched her jaw, lifted her chin, and walked past him, her head held high. She could feel his eyes on her as she went, a tangible weight on her back.

She practically fled from the club, bursting out into the cool Manhattan night. The wind hit her face, sharp and biting.

And finally, the tears came. Hot, angry tears she scrubbed away with the back of her hand before anyone could see.

She couldn't go back to the estate. Not tonight. She couldn't go anywhere she might be known.

She flagged down a yellow cab, the door groaning in protest as she pulled it open.

"Where to, lady?"

She gave him the address of a loud, gritty bar in the Lower East Side, a place where no one knew her name.

As the taxi pulled into traffic, she stared out at the blur of neon lights, her reflection a ghostly image in the glass. Her mind was a hollow, aching void.

Her hand went to her pocket, searching for her phone. Instead, her fingers brushed against a small, folded square of cloth. A handkerchief. Not the one Egnacio had offered, but one he had given her when she was ten, after she'd fallen and scraped her knee. She had carried it for years, a secret talisman.

She rolled down the window, the city's cacophony rushing in. Without a second thought, she threw the small white square out into the night. It fluttered for a moment in the wind, a tiny white flag of surrender, before being swallowed by the darkness.

She was done.