Chapter 3 What They Don't Put in the Agreement

I Google him in the parking lot.

I sit in my car with the heat running and my phone in both hands and I type his name into the search bar like a woman who needs to understand what she just walked into.

Dominic Sinclair.

The results come back in under a second. Pages of them.

CEO of Sinclair Holdings, a private investment firm with assets across real estate, biotech, and energy. Forbes listed him at thirty-one. No verified romantic history. No public scandal. A few photographs at charity events, always at the edge of the frame, always looking like he'd rather be somewhere without cameras. One interview from four years ago that he apparently gave under duress and never repeated.

He is thirty-four years old. He is worth more money than I can actually conceptualize. And somewhere in a fertility clinic's cryogenic storage unit, his information got taped to a vial that ended up inside me.

I put my phone face-down on the passenger seat.

Then I pick it up and read the interview.

The journalist described him as "a man who answers every question and reveals nothing." There's a quote where he's asked about his personal life and he says, "I don't have one. I have a schedule." The journalist clearly thought this was cold. Reading it now, I think it sounds exhausted. Like someone who decided a long time ago that certain things cost too much to maintain.

I know that feeling. I just didn't expect to recognize it in him.

I drive home.

The agreement arrives the next morning.

Not by email or a courier. A young man in a pressed jacket who hands me a sealed envelope and waits in my doorway while I sign for it, and I think, this is what it looks like when people with money do things. No waiting. No standard processing times. Just a sealed envelope at eight-fifteen in the morning while I'm still holding my coffee.

I read it at my kitchen table.

It is fourteen pages long. It covers financial support, full medical coverage, a housing allowance if I choose to relocate, security arrangements, and a clause at the bottom of page nine that acknowledges Dominic Sinclair's full paternal rights upon the child's birth.

I read that clause four times.

Then I read the non-disclosure agreement that's attached to the back. Three pages telling me, in very polished legal language, that the circumstances of this pregnancy are private, that I agree not to discuss them publicly, and that any breach of this agreement would result in consequences that the document describes in considerable detail.

I set it down, I drink my coffee. I look out my window at the street below where a woman is walking a dog that's clearly walking her instead, and I think about what it means that this document arrived before I'd had a single conversation with Dominic Sinclair about what I actually want.

Then I get a red pen from the drawer next to the stove.

I start on page one.

Petra calls while I'm on page seven.

"Talk to me," she says, the way she always opens calls when she already knows something is wrong.

"I'm fine."

"Ella. I've known you for twenty-six years. You called me at eleven last night to ask if I thought it was normal for a billionaire to have a lawyer on call at all hours. Something is happening."

I tell her. Not everything, not the parts that are still too raw to say out loud, but enough. The clinic. The error. Dominic Sinclair.

The silence on her end lasts a full four seconds, which is very long for Petra.

"A billionaire," she says.

"Yes."

"His sample."

"Yes."

"Ella."

"I know."

"His lawyers sent paperwork already?"

"Fourteen pages and a non-disclosure agreement."

Another silence. Then, "Did you sign it?"

"I'm on page seven with a red pen."

She exhales something that is half laugh and half horror. "Okay. Okay, don't sign anything yet. Let me find you a lawyer, I know someone from-"

"I don't need a lawyer to cross out a clause, Petra."

"You need a lawyer to cross out a clause in a fourteen-page agreement sent by a billionaire's legal team before the coffee is done."

She isn't wrong. I know she isn't wrong. But there is something about this document that makes me want to handle it myself, at least the first pass. Not out of stubbornness, or not entirely. It's more that I need him to understand from the beginning that I am not someone who signs things she hasn't read, and I am not someone who accepts the first version of anything.

"I'll call you before I send it back," I tell her.

"Promise me."

"I promise."

I hang up and go back to page seven.

By page eleven I have crossed out four full clauses, rewritten two, and added a paragraph of my own in the margin in small neat handwriting. The housing allowance I leave intact because I'm not an idiot and my apartment has a draft in winter. The security arrangements I strike entirely. The paternal rights clause I don't touch because that one, at least, is honest about what it is.

The NDA I reduce from three pages to one paragraph.

I photograph every page with my phone, email it to myself for a record, and then I put it back in the envelope.

His office is on the fortieth floor of a building downtown that has that particular kind of exquisite lobby that makes you feel underdressed just walking through it. I didn't call ahead. I considered it and decided that showing up unannounced with his edited agreement was the clearest possible message I could send about how I intend to operate.

The receptionist calls up. I wait. Three minutes later she tells me, with barely hidden surprise, that Mr. Sinclair will see me.

His office is all glass on one side, the city spread out below like something he owns, which he probably partially does. He's standing when I walk in, jacket off, sleeves rolled, and he looks at me the way he looked at me in the clinic. Total. Assessing.

I cross the room and put the envelope on his desk.

"I made some changes," I say.

He picks it up. He opens it. He reads the first page and I watch his jaw do something careful and controlled, and I realize he's trying not to react.

He reads all the way through without speaking. When he gets to my handwritten paragraph he stops, reads it twice, and then looks up at me.

"You added a clause," he says.

"I did."

"Requiring my presence at all scheduled medical appointments unless I provide forty-eight hours written notice of inability to attend."

"You said you wanted to be involved," I say. "I'm holding you to it."

He looks at me for a long moment. The city glitters behind him. And then, quietly, he says, "Sit down, Ms. Navarro."

Not a request.

But not entirely a command either.

Something in between that I don't have a word for yet, in a voice that does something to the back of my neck that I am absolutely not thinking about.

I sit down.

And he picks up his pen.