This must be my cousin's room. Since my arrival, he hasn't paid any attention to me and it makes me worried that he might not like me, I open the door slightly and peep in curiously, I wonder what Michael's room is like.
It's been ten years since I last visit my aunt's family but I know he's twenty years old and he's in college, making him only two years older than me. I can't help but wonder what he thinks of me, whenever he looks at me, he has this weird look in his eyes that makes my body tingle strangely.
I walk further into the room without closing the door behind me, after all no one else is home with me. His desk is littered with all manner of books and it piques my interest. My cousin has the look of a quarter back yet his table is covered with books, seems like being a nerd runs in the family.
As I move closer to the desk, his smell gets stronger, a fine mix of wood and musk, I breathe in deeply to fill my lungs with the scent, it makes me feel heady for a moment and I feel that wetness again in between my legs.
What is wrong with me?
I sneak my hand between my thighs to feel the wetness, the slick coming from down there is so much that it makes my little boyshorts wet. I eye the desk and my gaze lands on a magazine with the picture of a naked woman.
I take my hand out of my pants and use my clean hand to pick up the magazine. I stare in awe at the woman's picture, she looks so confident and so beautiful sitting on the floor with her back straight and her full breasts open.
Her nipples are hard in the image, it makes me want to touch mine, I want it to be just like that. I put my hand under my pajamas shirt to play with my boobs, I pinch and twist my nipple till it becomes hard like the woman's, smearing the slick wetness from down there on my breast.
Guilt crawls up my throat, I worry that I am doing something bad again but I don't want to stop. I place the magazine on the table and open the cover to view the inside of it, on the first page is a picture of a man and a woman.
I blink at the man, he is sitting on a chair with his legs spread and he would be completely naked if not for the tiny brief he has on. His thighs looks thick and under his brief, there's an obvious bulge, just like stepdaddy had had the day he saw me.
"Is this..." I mutter to myself and take a closer look at the picture. The man that is sitting with his muscular chest on display and his legs open like he's inviting the world to come sit between them is none other than my own cousin.
"Michael" I whisper his name as I eye the picture, he looks hot with body bare. I have seen some of the boys from school run around shirtless at parties on some days but none of them compares to this picture of Michael.
Again, my vagina throbs and I feel more of that slick slide out of me. A broken moan slips past my lips and I slap my hand over my mouth to keep it in, why am I like this? What is happening to my body?
Even with my internal crisis, I don't want to let the magazines go. Instead I place turn the page and Michael is there again, his eyes are piercing even with the black-and-white filter, his six-pack looks firm with droplets of water on his body.
I press my thigh together and swallow the spit pooling in the mouth. I flip the picture again and there is a woman this time around sitting on Michael's thighs with her breast pressed to his chest in a tight hug, she looks at the camera with a smug look, like she owns Michael's body.
"Oh my..." I whisper when I realize just what I am looking at, this is a picture of my cousin having sex with a woman on camera. The heading caption reads: 'Stretch me, daddy-fill the hole you shouldn't'.
As I scan the image I hear footsteps coming and the door swings open wider, Michael is standing in front of me with a bag over his shoulder and a lazy smile on his handsome face.
"Hello cousin" he says with a low time that feels like there is a vibration between my legs, my own reaction makes me blink rapidly as I come back to my senses, "I-I was...I was just..." I stutter and hide the magazine behind my back.
"Relax Kaylee, you're allow to look...you're an adult right?" He asks and tilts his head to the side, still wearing that predatory smile- I know I should feels scared but for some reason, I just know that I need this.
"Kaylee?" He asks and I nod, "yes...I'm an adult" I say, licking my suddenly dry lips. "Great then, would you like to read the magazine out to me, hmmm?" Michael asks and I blush deep red.
"Come on cousin, it would be so much fun" he say and I nod.
Can I really read these out loud?