Chapter 4

Holly Erickson POV:

The cold started in my chest and spread, a numbing frost replacing the agonizing ache. Kade's silence was deafening. It confirmed everything. He didn't love me. He never had. He just needed my love, my unassuming presence, to serve a purpose. I was a shield, a tool, a convenient distraction. Nothing more.

A bitter laugh escaped my lips, a dry, rasping sound. It was almost funny, in a twisted, heartbreaking way. I had sought a genuine connection, a love that would see beyond the labels, the fame, the disguise. Instead, I'd found a man who reduced me to an object, a means to an end.

"Get out, Kade," I said, my voice flat, devoid of emotion.

He flinched, his eyes wide. "Holly, please-"

"No," I cut him off, my gaze unwavering. "We're done. Whatever this was, it's over." The words tasted like ash. My heart was dead.

He stared at me for a long moment, his face a mixture of shock and disbelief, as if he couldn't comprehend that I, the meek girl, could actually walk away. Then, slowly, he turned and left, the lilies still clutched in his hand. I didn't watch him go. I just stared at the empty doorway, the silence in the room echoing the emptiness in my soul.

I didn't sleep that night. I just lay there, eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling. The next morning, I dragged myself out of bed, a zombie fueled by grief and betrayal. It was the last day of exams. I had papers to turn in, a final presentation to give. My academic life, the one small facet of normalcy I had tried to build, still demanded my attention. I moved through the motions, a robot programmed to function.

After my final exam, I walked out of the hall, my brain numb with exhaustion. The usual post-exam chatter was punctuated by something else today. A commotion. I heard gasps, whispers, angry murmurs. I looked up and saw a crowd gathered outside the main campus building. As I got closer, I saw them. A semi-circle of students, kneeling on the ground, their heads bowed.

It was Blake, the bully from the student union, and his entire crew. The guys who had cornered the timid student, the ones Kade had so easily dismissed. And they looked terrified. Blake, the hulking figure who had once threatened me, was practically trembling, his eyes fixed on the ground as if afraid to look up.

Then, Kade appeared. He moved with his usual effortless grace, a cool smile playing on his lips. He looked refreshed, untroubled, as if yesterday's emotional breakdown hadn't happened. He strolled past the kneeling bullies, a picture of nonchalant power. He spotted me and his smile widened, a practiced, charming display.

"Holly!" he called out, his voice bright, almost triumphant. He walked over, his eyes sparkling. "Guess what? I handled it. Blake and his thugs won't bother you ever again. In fact, they'll be performing community service for the rest of the semester. Consider it my way of making amends." He gestured grandly at the kneeling group. "All for you."

My blood ran cold. All for me. He thought this was what I wanted. He thought this grand gesture of power, this public humiliation of my tormentors, would somehow fix everything. He thought I cared about them being punished, not about his betrayal.

"You really don't get it, do you, Kade?" I asked, my voice dangerously calm.

He frowned, his smile faltering slightly. "Get what? I fixed it. They won't hurt you anymore."

"You don't get that it was you who hurt me, Kade. Not them," I said, my voice gaining strength. "You used me. You let them do all of this, knowing it would happen, just to protect your sister. Just to protect your image."

His eyes widened, confusion clouding their green depths. "Holly, I told you it would be dangerous. I told you it wouldn't be easy. This is part of it! I was protecting you in my own way."

My laugh was short and sharp, laced with bitter irony. "Protecting me? By throwing me to the wolves? By letting me get kidnapped?" The word 'kidnapped' seemed to hit him. His eyes flickered with something that might have been guilt, but it was quickly masked. "You stood by and watched, Kade. You arranged for it to happen, didn't you? So Dani wouldn't be the target."

He didn't answer. His silence was all the confirmation I needed. The betrayal tasted like ash in my mouth.

Just then, Chloe and Sarah rushed over, their faces alight with excitement.

"Holly! Kade is amazing, isn't he? He really cares about you!" Chloe gushed, completely missing the tension in the air. "See? He went to all this trouble."

"Yeah, Holly! Don't be ungrateful," Sarah chimed in, linking her arm through Kade's, as if to claim him. "He's literally kneeling your bullies right now!"

I pulled my arm away from Sarah. "Ungrateful? You think this is a gift?" I looked at Kade, my eyes burning. "When Dani had her panic attack, you swept her off the stage, cradled her, whispered comforting words. You looked at her like she was the most precious thing in your world. When I was kidnapped, when I was terrorized, you brought me home and told me it was 'dangerous,' like it was a normal part of dating you."

The crowd had grown silent, sensing the shift in atmosphere. Even Blake and his crew, still kneeling, looked up, their fear briefly replaced by morbid curiosity.

"You cared about Dani's dignity, Kade. You cared about her well-being. What about mine?" My voice was trembling now, but I refused to break. "Did you ever truly see me as anything more than a convenient distraction? A human shield?"

Kade's jaw tightened. He opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out.

"Holly, you're being emotional," Sarah interjected, trying to pull me away. "Kade is literally telling you he's sorry!"

I shook my head, my gaze fixed on Kade. "No. He's not sorry he used me. He's sorry I found out." I turned to the small crowd that had gathered. "He doesn't want love, he wants a convenient story. He wants someone to take the hits so his precious stepsister doesn't have to. And I'm not that person."

I looked at Kade one last time, my eyes cold and dead. "I regret every second I wasted loving you, Kade Livingston. We are over."

With that, I turned on my heel and walked away. I didn't look back. I didn't want to see his reaction, or Chloe and Sarah's shocked faces. I just walked, the numb coldness in my chest growing into a blizzard. I felt something finally break inside me, a fragile wall crumbling to dust. It was the last piece of the naive girl who had fallen in love with a fantasy.

"Holly! Wait!" Kade's voice followed me, desperate, but I didn't stop. I couldn't. I was walking away from the biggest mistake of my life.

Just as I reached the edge of campus, a sleek black car pulled up beside me. The window rolled down, revealing the familiar, handsome face of Mark, Kade's friend and confidante. "Hey, Holly," he said, his voice hesitant. "Look, I know things are rough, but... there's an after-exam party at Kade's place tonight. Everyone's going. It might clear the air, you know?"

I stared at him, then back at the campus, a bitter smile touching my lips. Clear the air? There was no air left to clear. Only ash. But perhaps, I thought, a final walk through the ashes might be what I needed to truly burn this bridge.